Benefits of being home alone / living alone.

[hobogunner]

I like to think I am extremely lucky...

[Mystes]

I like to think I am extremely lucky...

Then it means that it's the opposite in the reality.

[hobogunner]

Nah, life is how you take it....I've had an insane amount of bull-shit luck so far, why should I not think I still have it?

[j112]

because delusions don't amount to real-life success

[hobogunner]

No, but everything is through one's perception.

[j112]

explains those hallucinations

[hobogunner]

Their not hallucinations, though, they are real life......I don't particularly believe in luck, but when it comes down to it, I either have an angel watching over me or just bull-shit luck.

However, this is the part where I will not go into my personal life. As rare as that is for me.

[j112]

dang and I was hoping to pull that angel away from you...

[hobogunner]

I've done terrible things in my life, that's why I think it's bull-shit luck, not an angel, but who the hell am I to know?

[j112]

dang dude, well I won't pry. So I live with my parents but I pay for everything I touch pretty much so its kindof like living alone, without the benefit of living alone

[hobogunner]

Same here-ish.

If I want anything other than a room and 3 meals......it's out of my nearly empty wallet.

You certainly have more self restraint than I do, I'd be asking myself hundreds of questions if I left it that ambiguous.

[j112]

I have alot of friends with pasts they try to forget, I guess thats a pretty bad thing to be saying at 18 but meh it is what it is

[hobogunner]

It's not that I want to forget my past, I never want to forget it, it's just that I want to be able to see past it.

This is a poem I was forced to write in english:

I am a man of few words.
I wonder how the past affects the future.
I hear past noises.
I see through a rearview mirror.
I want to look forward.

I pretend the past and future coincide.
I feel the present.
I touch what isn't there.
I worry the life ahead might be the one behind.
I am a man of few words.

I understand that regrets are more memorable than anything.
I say very little.
I dream of being blind
I try to look forward.
I hope the mirror will shatter.
I am a man of few words.

[j112]

Nice, I've never really had any kind of "inspiring" experiences to do anything like that about though, guess all of my life has been uneventful or just seems like it is

[hobogunner]

Don't worry, those who have been through shit want lives that are uneventful...those with uneventful lives want lives with a bunch of stuff going on....there really is no middle ground for what straw one draws, just gotta take it as it comes.