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Toradora! (Filipino): Bol. 1, Kab. 1

2014-12-15T06:01:21Z

LionFosset:

<center>''''May isang bagay sa mundong ito na hindi pa nakikita ng kahit sino man''

''Ito ay malambot at matamis.''

''At kung ito ay matagpuan, tiyak na gugustuhin ito ng lahat,''

''Sapagkat ito ay mahusay na itinago ng daigdig, upang ito ay mahirap hanapin.''

''Ngunit, darating ang araw na may makatatagpo nito,''

''At ang tanging makakukuha nito ay ang mga karapat-dapat lamang.''

''Iyon lang.''</center>

'''(!)'''

===Kabanata 1===

"Naman!"

Alas siyete y medya noon. Malumanay na araw ngunit madilim sa loob. Ang paupahang-bahay na ito ay may dalawang kuwarto at kusina na nakaharap sa bahaging silangan ng dalawang palapag na gusali. Mula rito ay sampung minuto ang layo nito sa istasyon ng tren. Ang upa rito ay 32,000 yen.

"Suko na ako! Hindi ko kaya 'to!"

Tinanggal ng naiinis niyang kamay ang hamog sa salamin. Pero dahil may pagkaluma na ang banyo, kahit punasan ulit and salamin ay bumalik ulit ang pagkalabo nito dahil sa hamog.

Pero wala ring saysay na pagbuntungan ng galit ang isang salamin, kahit gaano pa ka-init ang ulo mo...

"Wala naman palang kuwenta 'tong mga ito!"

''Magmukhang maamo gamit ang nakaangat na ''bangs'' '' - 'Yon ang nakasulat sa pinakabagong ''fashion magazine'' na para sa mga kalalakihan.

Ang mga "bangs" ni Takasu Ryūji ngayon ay naka-angat na rin. Hinatak niya ito ng todo tulad ng nakasaad sa artikulo ng babasahin, pinatuyo upang umangat, at inayos ito ng patagilid gamit ang pomada. Sinunod niya ang lahat ng nakasaad sa artikulo. Gumising pa nga siya ng maaga (30 minuto mula sa kinagisnang oras) upang maitulad niya ang kanyang buhok sa mga modelo at nang matupad ang pangarap niya.

Pero...

".. Baka naman nag-ilusyon lang ako na kaya kong baguhin ang sarili ko sa pamamagitan lamang ng pag-iba ng estilo ng buhok ko."

Nagmumukmok, tinapon ni Ryuji ang magasin na kinailangan niya ng lakas ng loob para bilhin. Pero hindi siya asintado at ito ay bumuklat matapos ikalat ang laman ng basurahan.

Nakasulat sa pahina na iyon, "May oras ka pa bago magsimula ang klase. Maamo o mapusok? Dito nagsisimula ang ating paglalakbay patungo sa pagmomodelo".... ''Kung ako man iyon, hindi ako sigurado kung gusto kong magmodelo''

''Pero gusto kong magbago''

Hindi nga lang maganda ang kinalabasan.

Matapos iyon ay binasa ni Ryuji ang kanyang mga kamay at ginulo ang buhok na matagal niyang inayos, at binalik ito sa dating porma nito (unat). Pagkatapos ay pinulot nito ang mga kalat sa lapag.

"Ah!? Ano 'to... a.. amag.. AMAG!"

Kahit na pinunasan na niya ang hamog, kahit na isang linggo pa niyang nilinisan ang mga amag sa banyo, lahat ng iyon ay nasayang sa isang mainit na kwarto. Kagat ang kanyang labi, Sinubukang tanggalin ni Ryuji and mga amag gamit ang ''tissue''. Tulad ng inaasahan, hindi ito ganun kadali, kaya kinalaunan pinagpupunit na lamang niya ang mga ito.

"hay, kakaubos ko lang nito. Kailangan ko na namang bumili ng pantanggal amag"

''Sa ngayon, iisantabi ko muna ito, pero babalik ako para ubusin kayo!'' Tinitigan ni Ryuji and amag habang pinupulot ang mga kalat. Pagkatapos ay pinunasan niya ng maigi ang lapag gamit ang mga basahan, kasama ang pagtanggal sa mga nakakalat na buhok at pagpunas ng hamog sa banyo bago niya inangat ang kanyang ulo at nagbuntong-hininga..

"Ah, oo nga pala... Hoy, In~ko!"

"Ah.."

Isang matinis na boses ang sumagot sa sigaw ng binata. Mabuti naman at gising na siya.

Habang inaayos ang sarili, pinuntahan ni Ryuji ang kusina, kumuha ng pagkain para sa kanyang alaga at mga gamit na diyaryo. Matapos nito ay pumunta sa gilid ng sala. Pagtanggal nito ng takip sa bahay-ibon, binati ni Ryuji and kanyang alaga na hindi pa niya nakikita buong gabi. Ngayon, iba't ibang paraan ang pag-aalaga ng ibang tao ang kanilang alaga, pero ganito ang pamamaraan ng pag-aalaga ng mga Takasu sa kanilang alagang loro.

"Magandang umaga, Inko-chan."

Isang dilaw na loro, iyon si Inko-chan. Tulad ng dati, binigyan ni Ryuuji ng pagkain ang alagang loro habang kinakausap ito.

"Ma, magandang... umaga," kumindat pataas ang kanyang mga mata sa kakaiba at misteryosong paraan, pero nagawa pa rin niyang sumagot sa salitang Hapones. Kahit kagigising pa lang niya, siya ay nasa isang magandang modo. Iyon ang rason kung bakit siya nakagigiliw.

"Inko-chan, pakisabi nga ang kakain na."

"Ka, kain, n...kakain na! Kakain na! Kakain! Na!"

"Sige, tama na. Ngayon, tingnan natin kung kaya mo nang sabihin 'yon! Kayanin mo na kayang sabihin ang pangalan mo... sige na, sabihin mo ''Inko-chan''."

"I, I, In, I, In, Iiii... I..." Umuubos ng maraming lakas si Inko-chan, habang umiiling at humihinga ng malalim, pagkatapos ay pumagaspas ang mga pakpak ng mabilis. "......iiiii......"

'''(!)'''

Habang naduduling ang mga mata, bahagyang makikita ang kulay abong dila mula sa tuka nito.
''Baka magagawa niya ito ngayon," naisip ng kanyang amo habang itinikom ng madiin ang kanyang kamao.
Sa huli...

"Blegh!"

''Ahhh... bakit ba bobo ang mga ibon? Gaya ng inaasahan kung meron kang utak na tumitimbang lang ng 1 gramo,'' buntung-hininga ni Ryuuji habang tinutupi ang mga maduming dyaryo. Itinapon niya ang mga dyaryo sa isang supot.
Nang isasama na niya ito sa ibang basura sa kusina,

"... saan... ka... pupunta..."

Ang taong nakahiga sa likod ng [http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fusuma fusuma] ay mukhang nagising na rin.

"Ryuu-chan, uniporme mo ba 'yang suot mo? Bakit?" bahagyang tanong.

Maiging inayos ni Ryuuji ang supot ng basura at sinagot ang boses, "Pupunta na ako sa school. Hindi ba sinabi ko na sa 'yo kahapon na ngayon ang simula ng klase?"

"...Ah."

Bumukaka siya sa ibabaw ng [http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/futon futon], paulit-ulit niyang sinambit ang mga kataga na parang maiiyak, ''E di, e di..''

"E di, paano na ang kay Ya-chan '''(!)'''na... tanghalian? Wala pa akong naaamoy na pagkain... hindi mo ba ako ginawan ng konti?"

"Hindi."

"Ehhh~... e di... ano na ang gagawin ni Ya-chan... kapag nagising na siya...? Walang masarap na pagkain..."

"Makakabalik ako ng bahay bago ka gumising! Pupunta lang ako sa ''Term Opening Ceremony''." '''(!)'''

"Wah.. 'yun pala..."

''Hee hee hee hee,'' ngumiti siya habang inayos ang posisyon at nagsimulang ipalakpak ang mga kamay... paumanhin, ipinalakpak ang mga paa.

"''Opening Ceremony'', huh? '''Grats~!'' Ibig sabihin, si Ryu-chan ay nasa ikalawang antas na simula ngayon?"

"Isantabi muna natin iyan. Hindi ba sinabi ko na sa 'yo dati, gaano man kadami ang ginagawa mo, lagi mo dapat tatanggalin ang kolorete mo bago matulog? Simula nang magreklamo ka kung gaano iyan nakakairita, hindi ba bumili ako ng tissue na ginawa lamang para pantanggal ng kolorete," Pinagmasdan ni Ryuuji ang paligid ng mas mabuti,
"... Ah... Ah! Nalagyan mo ng kolorete ang unan! Hindi ko 'yan matatanggal! Dapat alagaan mong mabuti ang balat mo; Hindi ka na bata!"

"Pasensya."

Ang batik-batik niyang panty ay kitang-kita. Sa kanyang pagtayo, ang malusog niyang dibdib ay umalog habang ang ilan sa magulo niyang blond na buhok ay naipit sa pagitan ng kanyang dibdib. Maaaring dahil sa hampas ng kayang buhok o ang mahahabang kuko ng kanyang daliri, nagbigay siya ng matinding impresyon ng pagka-babae. Pero, "Masyado yata akong maraming nainom, kararating ko lang mga isang oras nang nakalipas. Ah~ Nakakaantok," sabay hikab, "Ah, nga pala... may dala akong ''pudding''."

Sa kanyang paghinga sabay kamot sa makapal niyang mga kilay, unti-unti siyang lumapit tungo sa ''convenience store bag'' sa sulok ng kwarto.
Ang anyong iyon — ang kanyang mapupulang labi na binibigkas ay "pudding", ang kanyang malulusog na pisngi, at ang bilugan niyang mata — ang mga pambatang karakter na ito ay waring hindi nababagay sa kanya. Kahit na medyo kakaiba, maaari pa rin siyang tawaging isang magandang babae.

"Huh... Ryuu-chan, hindi ko makita ang kutsara."

"Baka nakalimutan ng 'store assistant' na ilagay sa loob?"

"Hindi! Nakita ko na inilagay niya iyun eh. Bakit ganun..."

Ito ang nanay ni Takasu Ryuuji na si Takasu Yasuko: stage name "Mirano". Tatlumpu't tatlong gulang (lagi niyang sinasabi na magiging panghabang-panahon 23), nagtatrabaho siya bilang isang hostess sa kaisa-isang bar sa nayon sa "Bishamontengoku".

Ibinuhos ni Yasuko ang laman ng convenience store bag at kinalkal iyon sa sulok ng kanyang futon. Medyo nagalit ang maliit niyang mukha,
"Ang dilim naman dito... Hindi ko makikita ang kutsara nang ganito! Ryuu-chan, maaari mo bang buksan ang mga kurtina?"

"Bukas na."

"Eh~...? Ahh, tama... dahil hindi ako ganitong oras lagi gumising, nakalimutan ko na..."
Sa loob ng madilim na kwarto, ang mag-ina ay sabay na napabuntong-hininga.

Iyon ay ang bintanang nakaharap sa timog.

Mag-aanim na taon na nang sila ay lumipat dito.

Sa loob ng bahay na ito kung saan silang dalawa ay nakatira, ang laging pinanggagalingan ng natural na liwanag ay mula sa bintanang iyon.
Habang ang pintuan ay nasa hilaga at dahil napapaligiran sila ng kanilang mga kapit-bahay sa dakong silangan at kanluran, ang dakong timog lamang ng kanilang bahay ang may bintana.
Subalit kahit ganoon, maliwanag ang sikat ng araw, lalo na tuwing umaga.
Hindi na kailangang buksan ang mga ilaw mula pagsikat ng araw hanggang sa paglubog nito, maliban na lamang kung umuulan.
Ang magandang sikat ng araw noon ay laging tumatanglaw kay Ryuuji habang nakasuot ng kanyang uniporme at naghahanda ng umagahan para sa kanilang dalawa. Ganun din ang sikat ng araw kay Yasuko na natutulog ng mahimbing.

Subalit, lahat ng iyon ay natapos nung nagdaang taon.

"'Langya naman 'yang apartment building na 'yan."

"Ano bang uri ng mga tao ang nakatira riyan, ha? At paki-bukas nga ang mga ilaw!"

Noong isang taon, ilang metro lang mula sa timog na bahagi ng kanilang bahay, isang sampung-palapag na luxury apartment building ang itinayo.
At ang resulta, hindi na umaabot ang sikat ng araw.
Ito ay nagdulot kay Ryuuji ng pagkainis at pagkairita ng maka-ilang beses na — hindi na matuyo ang mga labahin; ang ''tatami'' ay lumapad na dahil sa hamog, nabibilog na ang mga dulo at tinubuan ng amag; at minsan pa ay nagyeyelo.
Ang mga ''wallpaper'' ay nagsisimula nang magtuklapan, na maaring sanhi rin ng hamog.
''Ayos lang naman dahil sa ito ay inuupahan lang na bahay,''
Iyun ang nais ni Ryuuji na sabihin sa kanyang sarili. Pero bilang isa na sobrang sensitibo sa pagpapanatiling ng maayos at malinis na paligid, hindi magawa ni Ryuuji na isawalang bahala ang mga bagay.
Habang nakatingala at nakatingin sa puting-tiled at high-class na condo, walang magawa ang dalawang kaawawang tao na ito kundi tumayo ng magkatabi nang nakabukas ang mga bibig.

''Hindi na mahalaga kung ito ay isang inuupahang apartment lamang,''
Gustong sabihin ni Ryuji sa kanyang sarili. Dahil na rin sa pagiging sensitibo niya sa pagpapanatili niya na malinis ang paligid, kaya hindi mapapayagan ni Ryuji na hayaan ang mga ganitong bagay na mangyari.
Nakatingala siya sa white-tiled high-class condo, wala nang magagawa ang dalawang simpleng tao na ito kundi ang tumunganga na lang na nakabukas ang kanilang mga bibig.

'''(!)'''

The World God Only Knows:Volume 1 Prologue

2014-12-15T04:09:12Z

LionFosset:

==Prologue: God and the Devil==
It was flowing.

Just like a beautiful dance. Just like the movements of a martial arts’ master. But it was not splendid, nor was it swift.

It was done naturally.

Even though he was only moving his arms naturally, it looked like after-images were appearing. Exactly six arms. All moving smoothly. An oriental god such as Ashura exists.

With these six arms, he held godly powers.

However, he looked too meek for someone as great as Ashura.

"Ah! The way he creates these foreshadows. This artistic skill.....this scene writer does quite well each and every time!”

As this boy grew joyful, his expression softened.

"Haha, it seems like you are wavering quite bit. Kiriko......however."

And his hands slowly approached the controls in order to give the command.

"Do not worry. I, the God of Conquest, will surely save you from this infinite loop

Just like a pianist peacefully playing a sonata.

Bewildered.

Silent.

Easygoing.

"Come now, Chitta! Face the heavens and depart to the skies. Your Thunder Fleet is waiting."

His murmurs leaked out.

Yet it was like a poet singing the lyrics to a song.

"Sounds good. Slowly. Really slowly.....come now."

Behind his glasses.

As his clear eyes narrowed,

"Kiriko! Chitta! Misako! Gou! Nameless N! Yuriel!"

As if he was holding the conductor’s baton, he held up his hands in front of his head.

"Now"

With those words came elegance.

Grace.

The sign of the finale.

"Everyone! Everyone! I’ll capture you all!"

Fafafafafa~n.

Chiyurararara.

Chirererere, chichichire.

All of the ending themes flowed simultaneously. All flawlessly calculated. Building the situations up with one aim, being in complete control of the production company, the length of the story, the heroine's voice’s on/off and beyond, he was able to bring everything to its ending in one go.

Existing in this world is the hand of a God who does not waver or get confused.

"Hmph"

The boy leant against the back of his chair, giving a sigh because of his tiredness.

"Good work for one day's worth...."

He said this as if he's an artist being showered by applause.

They could be heard.

From beyond the monitor, countless rescued heroines cried out his name.

The God of Conquest.

The God of Conquest.

His name is Katsuragi Keima!

[[Image:TWGOK_01_015.jpg|thumb|200px]]
"Now, with this..."

And that one part from beginning to end, the girl gazes from behind, sighing as she lowered her shoulders.

"Why does he always have to be playing a game?"

After that, she inhaled deeply and shaped her hands like a megaphone and...

"KAMI SAMAAA!!! I'M GOING TO MAKE LUUNCH!!"

"WAAAAAAAAAA!!!"

The boy shouted out instantly.

The boy, Katsuragi Keima, who had quickly finished six gal-games just now, leapt into mid-air, with his heart beating quickly as he grasped his chest.

"Wha, What!? Elsie?"

He confirmed it is her and then dropped his shoulders,

"I've told you over and over not to enter my room without permission!”

He pointed his finger at the girl named Elsie.

She was a lovable girl with sweet-looking eyes.

Contrary to her innocent appearance, her true identity was a demon from Hell who descended above ground because of the Runaway Spirit Squad. She gave off a displeased 'Uh~~' as her lips turned sour.

"But, Kami-Sama, it has already been long past noon. If you don’t eat anything, you’ll ruin your health.” 

"Hmph!"

Keima crossed over his arms and looks away.

"All of that is nothing to me. I get all of my nutrition by playing games regularly."

"But isn't body nourishment also very important? Filling your stomach with food is important, right?"

"Well,"

Keima then stood up from his chair.

"Since I am taking a rest, I wouldn't be hesitant to go up against reality."

He pushed up his glasses with his fingertips, making his eyes shine.

Though baby-faced, he was a young man with a composed expression. Katsuragi Keima. People called him by the alias "The God of Conquest", the one who is able to make any girl (of the game world) fall for him.

Asked by the female demon Elsie to gather escaped spirits, he went through his days that he's a bit unwilling to go through.

That is why Elsie had started to understand some parts of Keima's personality.

"Even so,"

She said as her eyes were fixated on the six screens.

"Kami-sama can truly make any girl fall in love with him at his own free will."

She said in admiration.

As this was something that is not too difficult for Keima to do, he shrugged his shoulders lightly,

"That's because I'm the God of Conquest."

So he said without showing any sign of getting worked up. Being drawn into this, Elsie asked,

"...I've been having a bit of a doubt, but can Kami-sama capture any type of girl you like without any discrimination?"

Keima responded with,

"...."

Without any facial expression, Keima firmly looked at Elsie.

"...such a foolish question to ask."

He firmly replied.

"Then, then, for example!" 

Elsie said as she took notice of the fantasy-world girls in one of the screens,

"Even these girls who live in a world that is completely different from reality?" 

"Of course."

"....These girls have wings on their backs, right? Are they fairies? Also, this girl who has a tail and animal ears...."

"...is this girl, umm, is she actually a cat? And if..."

She (Elsie) said as she looked up.

She fidgeted around in hesitation.

"Ho, How about", with a quiet voice.

"How about a demon?"

Heh.

Keima smiled. Though a bit cold, it was a mysterious smile that was filled with a kind of kindness that tolerated Elsie's ignorance.

"I am"

He clenched his fist tight.

"A GOD! It doesn't matter even if it's a demon, I'll capture all their hearts!"

Without thinking much, Elsie applauded. She was really moved. Even though she doesn't actually understand at all, Kami-sama is amazing!

And the obedient Elsie nodded deeply, and finally,

"Ah, but"

This was one thing she really wanted to ask,

".....even if you dislike it? Kami-Sama also has feelings. You may oppose capturing them because of your pride or, how should I put it, are you prepared to capture a girl even if she leaves a bad impression on you easily? Isn’t there a girl like that?"

And then,

"....bodily nourishment. I’ll go get myself fed and return to gaming. Next time, don’t enter my room without permission, Elsie!"

Keima, without knowing why he had responded like that, quickly left the room. Elsie, becoming impatient,

"Uh…Ka, Kami-Sama~!! Please wait!!"

"A denpakei."

"Eh?"

"Someone with wild fantasies.....I don't dislike them. It’s not that I can’t conquer them, but...."

From where Elsie was standing, she was looking at his back as Keima was muttering. 

"They are troublesome..."

With no more than a glance at his back, she observed him leaving the room. With her finger touching her mouth,

"...a denpakei?"

She thought about Keima's speech. And then, coming back to her senses,

"Ka, Kami-Sama~~!!!"

She chased after him...

What is a Denpakei?

That sort of voice echoed across the Katsuragi house. This happened at noon on a Saturday.

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Anohana:Part 1 Chapter 2

2014-09-20T17:02:55Z

LionFosset:

==Chapter 2: The Beast of Summer==

It was so hot at the end of summer it felt suffocating. My messy bangs had grown too long, hitting against my eyelids. I had gone two days without showering and the sweat and oil in my hair irritated me so much that I had to put it up with a rubber band.

Delving into your mind’s world and battling with the present seven grave sins and the unknown eighth… I had used one hundred and fifty-six hours on this nonsense that seems to come from a video game for second year students in junior high. 

They had understandably deformed the female genitalia. ‘Lust’ opened and closed repeatedly with a ‘kupaa, kupaa’ sound. I killed every single one of them relentlessly, recklessly killing the summer of my first year in high school.

The cicada sang, "kupaa, kupaa." It was very hot.

What a lewd design. The thing ‘kupaaing’ on the monitor squirted weird liquid out of its centre. Trying to dismiss in my mind the fact that I hadn't taken a bath, I pounded every single of these disgusting, filthy beings with a machine gun.

"Jintan, are they Jynx<ref>A pokémon</ref>?"

"No.”

"But its lips are so fat. Isn't it like Jynx's ‘hatoko’?"

... 'Jintan.'

This honey-sweet voice clung even closer to my skin than my sweat and oil.

"Do you know what 'hatoko' means, Jintan? It's your grandpa's little sister's child's child, you know? So that in Menma’s case is Kii-kun!"

"..."

Most likely I had been too hungry.

To have a gap induced from boredom and hunger is unacceptable, for it will allow unnecessary feelings to squeeze itself into it against my will.

At these times, one has to be decisive and swiftly fill this gap.

"... Let me eat some Shio ramen<ref>[http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ramen#Types Wikipedia: Ramen]</ref> then."

"Wah. Shio ramen. Menma wants to eat it too!"

I went into the kitchen next to the living room and lit up the matchsticks inside. The connecting points on the gas stove seemed to have a poor contact. I ignited it by throwing some ashes into the place where the gasoline had flown, and a loud boom was heard.

I like Shio ramen. Having waited for the water to boil, I meticulously threw an egg inside so it won’t be stirred.

“Ah, I want the eggs stirred! I want egg flakes!”

Right. I wouldn’t stir it. When I eat it, I would lightly poke the lunar-shaped egg to let the half-boiled egg yolk ooze out, crowning the noodles. This way of eating seemed much more mature than eating egg flakes…

“Boo! The egg is getting boiled! Stir it, quick!”

“…”

I would never admit believing in unreal things, for example: UFO, UMA, MRR, or spirits.

“Si...” 

I had to regulate my breathing patterns with my nose, because at some point that I was unaware of, my breathing had become strained.

If I had to deny it, I should have to neglect it from the very start. If I were to be a bit wary of it, only just a little bit, it would be the evidence that I had already accepted it as reality.

“Ah. Look! It’s expanding already! Quickly stir it… Stir—it—quick!”

Three minutes. Give me three minutes and this will be done.

Nevertheless, three minutes that seemed to fleet so fast when I play games seemed so long now.

Noodles. Please, I beg you to become cooked as quickly as possible—thus I started to pray impatiently. At this moment, the malfunctioning, tone-deaf doorbell speaker rang its out-of-tone ringtone

“Aren’t you going to open the door, Jintan?”

“…”

I would never open the door during my dad’s working hours, no matter how many times the bell had rung. This was what I usually do.

However, the things that human beings can neglect simultaneously are finite. Perhaps this ringtone was a godsend to help me.

(Let me get an escape by this chance.)

As I gave thanks for this coincidence, I turned off the stove. Now I couldn’t cook the egg into a beautiful lunar shape, and the noodles would also get mucky. Nevertheless, I had no other resort. I then walked to the door.

“Now is the time. Stir!!”

The eggs in the pot seemed to be swished and swooshed. I felt a stream of cold sweat sliding through my back.

“Coming… Mmm!?”

When I opened the creaking door, in front of me stood the visualization of the ‘Lust’, a woman as if having its sexual organ slapped on her face.

“... Hi.”

Having lightly tanned skin, wearing tight aqua-blue suspenders, and being overly exposed—the way she deliberately shows off her immature sexiness- feels overly carnal, she made me uncomfortable.

Splat. 

“Hey. Things are going quite well for you .”

“Ah, Ahah…”

What an unlucky day.

Misfortunes never come alone. Rats. How I wish to whack them away: to use the machine gun in the game to shoot everything away, including this real thing and that unreal thing, penetrating them with bullets.

Hey. Wait?

What would happen when this thing sees that?

“… Um. The class teacher told me to give you this, your holiday homework.”

The girl in front of me awkwardly stretched a pile of printouts to my face.

“Hah? Holiday homework… It’s already the end of August now. The holidays will be over after two days!”

I spoke back in reflex to this girl I haven’t spoken to for a long time—three years of no social interaction to be exact. To my blurted doubts, she said, “It’s fine. After all, you’re always in the holiday mood. Besides, unlike you, Yadomi, I’m very busy.”

She said it with a commanding tone completely opposite to her frivolous appearance. From that tone, it was impossible for one to tell the fleeting of years, as if she had completely seen through me. 

She was making me impatient.

“Then you can just dump it on me. After all, I wouldn't go to that stupid school!”

When I blurted this out, her aqua-blue suspenders seemed to have become heavier. Her lips twisted, yet she didn’t make a sound.

“Mmm…?”

Was she trying to say something? Having noticed, I involuntarily started to concentrate on something…

Then my mind became completely blank, for I had unwillingly shown my mistakes. The girl intentionally aimed at my defensive mistake and quickly lashed a fierce comment at me.

“You should be ashamed of yourself.”

“What!?”

"You should be ashamed of yourself."

My blood rose and my ears became hot. What do you know!

I wanted to argue. I wanted to hurt her with the most sharp, impulsive words!

“Eh, who’s there?

“!...”

A sound came from the back, cooling my heating head.

I didn’t look back, trying to see the reaction of this girl—Anaru Anjo. She furrowed her eyebrows as if surprised, but that was only a reaction towards me.

So, Anjo couldn’t see her?

“What’s the matter, Yadomi. You look upset.”

The problematic matter behind me screamed ‘Ahah!’ in joy when it heard Anjo’s voice.

“This voice! I know it! It’s Anaru!!”

Her naïve voice spoke the forbidden word.<ref>Anaru sounds the same as anus—Japanese, that is.</ref>

“You… Don’t call her Anaru!!”

I interrupted her in reflex. Even if she was the visualization of ‘Lust’, saying this to her so bluntly was a bit too much.

“… Ah.”

Anjo’s face slowly turned into a color much more vibrant than brown.

“Ah, Ah, An… Don’t call me Anaru!”

She said the same thing as I did. But of course, she said it to me.

I see.

From Anjo’s perspective, I was the one who said ‘anus’. And she decided to completely ignore that bothersome thing touching her tanned skin and crying repeatedly, ‘Anaru, Anaru!’. No, she wasn’t ignoring it. She was…

So, this is truly…

“Waaaaghh!?”

Bam. I passed out.

I wasn’t like this back then.

In that summer, I didn’t have a problem with this heat and this painful sunlight that tanned my skin. During that summer when we were in grade 5 at primary school, we were always seen together.

There was an abandoned, coal-burning, small house on the mountain at the back of our school. We moved a lot of useless ‘treasures’ there and called it our secret base. We played there for the rest of our summer. All my memories of summer were born there.

We were the ‘Super Peace Busters’.

‘Busters’ was a word we just knew and we just remembered, which seems to mean strong people. We had to safeguard peace and punish evil. With this sublime wish, we gave ourselves this name.

Of course, the first one to propose it was I, the captain.

No one denied my idea. No one cared. For at that time, I was the best at everything, be it running, calculation examinations, or even calligraphy—I had even gotten a silver award.

“Heh. Busters! Though I don’t understand, it feels really cool!”

Yukiatsu was number two. Although his grade in music was better than me, he couldn’t catch me in all other criteria.

“The word ‘super’ feels really strong…”

Tsuruko was a girl who did things at her own pace. She was pretty good at drawing, though, she always drew princess or fairies. If only she could draw something else, then it would be a nice décor to hang on the wall of our secret base.

“If we use this name, we will have to really safeguard peace seriously. Can everyone do it?”

Anaru was abnormally serious and does things according to rules. For example, she would go sweep the secret base when no one told her so. She would even get angry when I wiped my nose with the collar of my jacket. She was exactly like the lady of my neighbour.

“Mmmahh! It’s super cool! Jintan!”

Poppo, though small and timid, would take off his pants sometimes, which was very fun; hence, I liked to bring him around to play.

“Then it’s decided. Is it, Jintan!”

Then there was Menma.

Menma’s honey-sweet voice had always given me energy. She always cried, and when she did, her eyes looked like glass pearls filled with water from the ocean.

Her grandfather seemed to be a foreigner, and she seemed to be a quarter mixed. Her soft milky hair looked like sunlight could penetrate it. If you smell closely, you might even smell faintly an unknown fragrance of flower from her…

Every time I hear Menma’s voice, I would rush to her, showing off the coolest side of myself.

Yes. As the captain, I had to run in front of everyone else. I could never trip and have an ugly side.

If I were to trip, I would rather fly away.

This was such an immature thinking, but I indeed had this feeling back then.

But the one to fly away wasn’t me.

Buzz…

The flapping sounds of B29 came from afar.

‘Super Peace Busters’ decided to investigate wars for the summer’s free investigation. With this vague investigation topic, we asked an old man nearby who had a problem walking.

“Ahah. I was just around as tall as you guys at that time. I escaped into the air-raid shelter, holding my little brother at my arms. My brother held my thighs tightly. It was a very warm scene…”

I looked at my own warm thigh.

“!...”

A thin leg was pressing my thigh tightly.

She took my arms as a pillow, and slept near my shoulders. She had promisingly long eyelashes on her sleeping face. I lightly smelled the air—a faint fragrance of flowers.

“I… must have gone nuts.”

Buzz, the electric fan kept swinging its head, denying with its might anything in front of it. Although I had never noticed it before, it actually was quite gentle.

At the moment, I was in a seriously acute situation.

This fragrance of flower and this sleeping face were once registered in my mind, yet I don’t remember them, because…

“Mmm…”

From the chest part of the dress, I could see the white bulging part that had the power and beauty to make every color to lose their brightness. I looked at her tipsily. Everything I knew about her shouldn’t have been mixed with the feelings I have towards her now.

There was also that leg that bluntly pressed on my lower abdomen. It was like a fleshy, slick, bright carp. Her kneecaps bent into an acute angle. Even her skirt was curled up. Under that, though I could not see from this perspective, I thought it would be like…

“…”

If I don’t get away with the heaviness and the wriggle on my lower abdomen, things will get dismal.

I could never let my sexual impulse in my puberty to rush out in this abnormal situation. Lightly and meticulously, I took away my wrists.

“Mmm…”

My heart thumped. I stiffened, not daring to move an inch. The wrecker blinked her eyes, bringing her long eyelashes in motion.

“Ah… Morning, Jintan.”

A soft smile then bloomed at me. This soft smiling face… Ahah.

It was the same as in my memory, making me dizzy.

“That’s great. You just fell over. I thought you would be dead.”

“…”

I thought… you would be dead…

“Wu… Wuaghhh!!”

I cried, jumped up violently, and ran away.

“Ji-Jintan!?”

Crack crack crack… Boom! 

I rushed into the washroom, closed the door, and locked it, but this was not enough to make me assured, so I held it tightly with my hand.

“What’s the matter? Jintan!”

Bong, bong, bong. The door quaked.

A few months back then, when I entered high school for not even a week, I escaped outside and ran back home.

Everything was peaceful as long as I hide in home; however, I couldn’t believe even in state there would be an intruder.

The place that could accommodate me had become narrower and narrower. My helplessness has grown to—If were invaded even here, then I had no place to escape. This is my last defense: I had to protect it.

“Poo pooing? Hey, are you poo pooing?”

Can’t you even let me to think seriously?

I would never admit unreal things. I don’t believe in anything pertaining to spirits, but if she really is real…

If she really is Honma Meiko…

Then why had she grown a bit from back then. Why… why?

“W-Why do you have to come to my place?!”

“Heh?”

My voice was trembling. I realised even my kneecaps were trembling. What a shame. Nevertheless, this was an emergency situation. I was not the one to be blamed.

“Are you a spirit?!”

“Yeah, should be?”

“Not should be, but be! Why until now… besides, you’ve grown, why do you have to come to my place?!”

“Mmm… Even if you ask me I won’t know.”

“…”

She said she didn’t know.

This was an accentuation of speech that an anime character used in a hit anime. For this relieving tone, the trembling of my legs stopped without my noticing.

“But, let me guess. Menma probably wants to make a wish come true!”

“Wish… right. What wish?”

“Umm. I don’t know!”

How calm you sound. The tone of your voice sounded sounded exactly to gain pleasure from the situation I was stuck in.

“Ah. Jintan, come out!”

Although I was still afraid, my mind seemed to have become more stupid.

The situation I was in was too strange. If she were a spirit, she would have the look of a spirit and scare the hell out of me. Otherwise, this actually was…

“… It can’t come true.”

Menma cocked her head, making a little ‘eh?’ doubtful sound.

I rebuked her loudly, “If you don’t even know what’s your wish, how can you make it come true?! What do you want? You!”

“Ahah! Your saliva is spurting out! Bother! Look at my defensive wall! Eh~ Wait for a moment…”

Menma put her hands under her chin, posing a face of contemplation.

“Yeah… a wish. A wish that could only come true when everyone is back together!”

“Everyone…?”

“Right! Everyone is everyone! Super Peace Busters!”

Ah… There seemed to be something squiggling at the depths of my throat. This was a memorable, painful sound.

Super Peace Busters.

“Let’s first go find Anaru’s help! We didn’t make a good greeting just then…”

I quickly interrupted her to stop her from saying anymore.

“As you can see, she’s not the Anaru you know anymore.”

“Heheh? Isn’t Anaru Anaru?”

She looked to have grown older, yet she was still a child inside—completely the same. She didn’t even hear what I had been saying.

“I was saying! She isn’t the Anaru back then. Even if you find that blonde, she wouldn’t help!”

“B-Blonde?”

“That means a dumb woman! To put it short, she’s not our friends…”

“No!”

I freaked out, looking at Menma. Her eyes with pale colors were welling with tears, like glass pearls filled with water from the ocean…

“No… I hate Jintan who would say bad things about Anaru!”

“… Menma.”

“Hey. Let’s go find Anaru again, okay? Let’s go seek for her help, Jintan!”

That spirit forced me to find the past pals.

She forced me with dropping tears. This situation was too amusing. However, her tears were in sync with something for no apparent reason.

Right. This girl maybe wasn’t a spirit.

It was my psychological pressure, my trauma… my sense of guilty. It was a visualization of all that heat that lashed on me in the summer.

When I put it this way, the reason why Anju couldn’t see Menma was convincing.

This was because Menma who stood in front of me now was only my own hallucinations.

It was the hallucinations I created at that summer to reproach myself at this summer.

“…”

Fu. I heaved a long sigh.

I puffed away all the surprise, wavering, and perhaps some of my edited over-sweet scenes from my stomach, puffing them out all in one breath.

“I understand. I’ll leave it to Anaru to help your wish come true."

“Jintan!”

With still some tears in her eyes, Menma bloomed a soft, delightful smile.

That’s right, I only have to ask for her help.

Then Menma and also ‘the I back then’ could accept it.

It wasn’t only Anaru that changed, every other thing also did.

The heat outside was even of a higher level than that in my home.

The dusk of late summer—how ashamed it was for these words with such beautiful pronunciation. The asphalt road had been heated soft. The back of my shoe stuck on the floor, unable to get a step out of the house. So, I didn’t leave a step.

It definitely wasn’t because I was scared.

“Jintan, aren’t you going to greet your neighbours?”

Menma, walking in front of me, noticed the whispers of the ladies nearby who was looking at me.

Let me think. At this map—in front my house’s door—these people as enemies are ones that could be easily fought. I didn’t have a need to be sneaking around. I only need to look ruthlessly back at them, and they would quickly avert their eyes in apology.

There was no need to be afraid. These guys had absolutely no menace to my life. That’s right, I don’t have a need to abstain from their sight. But this might be a bit bad for dad, as he had never reproached me who had been squandering life. But if I was attacked, I could only defend.

I had completely used all my energy to fight off these small potatoes.

“Eh? Jintan. Shouldn’t we head this side for Anaru’s home?”

I was choosing which way to go. I wanted to choose a road that most students in my same school wouldn’t walk on. However, no matter which way I go, the roadside scene seemed to be the same. Everything was mountains, mountains, and more mountains, for this was the basin. Be it the supermarket or the park, the background was always mountains.

So there were many mountains. Could I ask for a mountain to vibrantly self-destruct or collapse? There’s no way of escaping at this rate.

It was only me who locked myself in a place. I rejected all the feelings of the outside world and hid in a corner, for I hated this city.

“Anaru’s home. I hadn’t gone there for a long time. Very long time poo poo?” 

Menma, the mixture of my trauma and psychological pressure, the hallucination created by myself back then to reproach ‘the present I’, was in a good mood.

“Anaru dragged Jintan into the house when Jintan suddenly fell down on the floor with a splat. After that, she even covered Jintan with a blanket!”

Is this for real…

“Then, she also turned off the stove, took the mucky noodles, and stored them in the fridge!”

That was way too much…

“Oh and, when she dragged Jintan into the room, she said, ‘it stinks!’”

If I had known earlier, I would have taken a bath.

“Anaru is really gentle! Ah, but Anaru she…”

“Stop.”

I still interrupted her in reflex despite the fact that obviously no one could see her or hear her.

“She… Um. Could you stop calling her Anaru? Call her Anjo or Naruko.”

“Eheh? Why?”

When I was small, I gave her this nickname without much deeper thought. I called her Anaru by taking out ‘An’ from Anjo and ‘Naru’ from Naruko and combining them together, for I thought back then that everything was the coolest when making abbreviations. For example, referring Super Mario as ‘Sumari’, Final Fantasy ‘Fifa’.

Children are such deadly and lively creatures. If I had known what it meant, I would have given her a much more meaningful name than Anaru… however.

“Ah! Dandelions!”

“…”

She didn’t hear a word I was saying.

‘The Traumatic Pressure Reproaching Menma’ was picking dandelions leisurely. This scene was overly natural—the flowers that bloom at this time are Common Dandelions—mum taught me this fact when I was small. I could still remember it vaguely. 

“Here, BCG!”

Liquid oozed from the scar on the pinched flower. Menma put the scar side on my hand, the white liquid spread on my hand, printing the section of the side of the scar of the flower.

“This is…”

“Jintan seems to be feeling unwell, so I’m giving Jintan medicine!”

The reason why I’m feeling unwell is because of you—though I wanted to tell this to her, I swallowed my words as soon as I saw her natural smile, a smile so normal it was almost perfect.

“Ah, there are also some here! There are also dandelions here. Dandelions, dandelions, dandelions?” Menma sang arbitrarily while picking the dandelions. She would pinch the flowers with her thumb, and ‘prack!’, tearing the flower part off, taking the dandelion life away naively.

Indeed.

Menma was a hallucination I created to reproach myself.

She didn’t say she hated me, nor did she use any power. She only used a bit to whack me, to tell me, to show me, that she wasn’t here anymore.

“Jintan. Look!”

Ahah. Why would I so calmly accept this abnormal situation? Had my brain malfunctioned or stopped operating due to this summer heat?

Perhaps tired of the dandelion massacre, Menma turned to crawling onto the wooden face on the roadside, jumping along the fence.

My head still felt heavy... I stared blankly at Menma’s bare white foot. It wasn’t a foot of a small girl but a woman.

Speaking of which, she wasn’t wearing any shoes. Why would she appear like that when even her legs had grown? Perhaps it was because of the lack of experience in my trauma that ‘the I back then’ couldn’t imagine the styles of shoes that young women would wear.

“Ah…?!”

Menma suddenly screamed. My heart thumped. My mind became completely blank.

Menma was swaying on the fence, unable to keep her balance. She then slipped on the ten-centimeter-wide square safe zone of that fence.

“Mmm..?!”

That day, at that moment, I came to my senses.

I didn’t see the accident.

However, this scene repeatedly appeared in my mind, no matter how I wanted to forget it. It was like I was the one that experienced it—even the smell of mosses and the touch of the soil were in my memories.

That day, I went home alone. Normally, I would still be together with everyone playing, but I got angry and ran away. When I think of it, that day I ate miso ramen instead of shio ramen. And from that day on I hadn’t eaten any. But actually, I like miso ramen more than shio ramen.

My dad’s car was parked at the door. He potently swung the door open. I felt a sense of aberrance. He opened the door in a flurry. Incoherent sounds of footsteps and the expanding aberrance added together.

“Jintan! Menma, she…”

I couldn’t hear what he was saying.

No. I didn’t want to hear. Yet, even when I had tried to terminate my ability to think, a scene flashed upon my eyes, a screen that forcibly filled my vision.

‘Menma, she…’

There was a trough slightly below the secret base.

‘slipped’

Connected to the trough was a slope which led to a place with rotten pine cones, a vast, deep place with swift currents…

‘and fell down.’

“Wuuarrghhh!!”

I dashed to her.

I wanted to catch Menma; I wanted to catch Menma who was now falling from the wooden fence; I wanted to change the ending that day. However, my hands couldn’t reach her.

“… Jintan?”

Menma looked at me, as if she was freaked out. Perhaps she jumped down according to her falling direction.

Besides, she was just my own hallucination. She wouldn’t really die. Nevertheless, what was I agitating for? Feeling relieved, I felt a rush of bitterness and despise.

“What are you doing?! You…!!”

It was at this moment when I couldn’t help myself from roaring.

“… What are you doing?”

That a male voice completely different from mine was heard from my back.

It was an unfamiliar and low voice, but that voice seemed a bit familiar nevertheless. My heart thumped greatly, going out of control.

The man standing right there had the uniform of the high school I wanted to enter.

He was number 2 of Super Peace Busters, Matsuyuki who lost to me a little bit in everything. Stood beside him was Chiriko who did things at her own pace…

When was I caught by them?

Were you so strong back then?

Or was I who tripped and fell?

“What are you doing? Are you all right?”

“Ah! Ahah… No.”

There wasn’t anything, and I wasn’t sure what was happening. I knew deeply that I used the Japanese wrongly. I averted my eyes and wore on my hat.

I had to get out of here, quick.

“Wuaghh! It’s Yukiatsu and Tsuruko!”

Menma screamed in joy, running towards them, not paying any heed to my feelings—was it a part of reproaching me?

“Hey. Let’s get out of here, Menma!”

Words slipped out of my mouth due to my irascibleness.

Matsukyuki’s face froze instantly.

“Hah? Are you saying ‘Menma’?”

Matsuyuki’s lips trembled lightly. Chiriko, feeling unpleasant, gazed at Matsuyuki and I repeatedly.

What came lashing on me was blatant anger.

“You. Are you still talking about that until now?”

“Stop, Matsuyuki!”

Chiriko glared at Matsuyuki with her eyes slant, but Matsuyuki didn’t care and continued, “I heard that you didn’t go to school, Yadomi.”

“!!”

It was very hot under the nylon hat. It’s about to boil.

Why would you know… No. Why would the captain be despised by number two?

Noticing the subtle atmosphere around us, Menma who had been shouting in joy just now had calmed down and looked at me worryingly.

“Having entered the worst school here and became a shut-in at last who would only call Honma Meiko’s name. Have you gone nuts?”

“Matsuyuki, stop saying it… Ah!”

You don’t have to tell me! I turned away and left.

“Jintan!?”

Menma’s voice came from behind. “I hate Yukiatsu who would say bad things about Jintan!!”

I didn’t run. I just accelerated my walking pace.

I didn’t want to be reckoned as escaping, nor do I want them to see me getting away difficultly. Having turned through the street corner, I finally escaped from their sight. At that instant, my sweat came popping up.

No, I had already let them see myself getting away difficultly. The inside of the nylon hate was filled with sweat and felt extremely itchy. Not only was my head, but my whole body was itchy, for I hadn’t taken any baths, even my blood vessels also…

“Jintan. Wait for me!”

Menma’s voice sounded from behind, but I didn’t turn back. I just stopped and stood still.

Menma’s bare foot had not a bit of a bruise. I understood now. I understood now what you wanted to do.

The young me was reproaching the present me.

The thing that hurt me, that completely fought me down, that let my heart filled with past regrets… you wanted to see this kind of me, don’t you?

However, Menma, after all this had happened...

“After all this had happened, you should understand now. Everyone has changed… No.”

I staggered, then continued in a low voice, “and the one who changed the most is me.”

“Eh…?”

“It’s about it. Let me go.”

“!!”

I turned around and faced Menma. For the back light of the setting sun, I couldn't see clear Menma’s face. Nevertheless, I could see that her foot was small and had no bruises.

I wanted to smile, but my face muscles only formed a strange arc. But I couldn’t not laugh, for if I did, the past me would be unsatisfied.

Would the past me laugh his head off when he saw me having such a difficulty in laughing? It didn’t matter anymore. Go ahead and laugh. But…

“Let go of me… You may not understand, but I also have a tough life… after that…”

“Jintan…?”

“Yes. Really tough… So, I don’t want to…” 

I didn’t know what to say about something I didn’t want to happen again, so I kept silent and turned around and ran away. Even if she saw my forlorn back while running away, it didn’t matter anymore.

Not only because she was a hallucination I created, for even if she really were Menma, it didn’t matter for her to see me like this.

Back then I endeavoured to show her my greatest and coolest side.

Menma didn’t come to chase me.

I entered my dark room, turned on the lights… Pat. All the hidden things in the dark were shown.

The blanket was still left there; the electronic fan kept swinging as usual. I stepped on the on/off button with my foot and turned it off with my toe.

The mucky ramen was left in the fridge. It wasn’t an edible thing anymore, so let me just leave it there.

“…”

I heaved a sigh and lay flat down.

Entering my eyes was the prizes hanging on the wall of the room: calligraphy exhibition, endurance running, writing competition… this was the graveyard of my past glories.

Why—why would I become like this?

I flunked my examinations and entered an annoying high school… No, these things don't really matter. These weren’t the real cause.

In the shrines lay my mother’s photo. Mum who lived long in the hospital died when I was primary six. It was right at the next year’s summer after Menma’s death. And thus the nearby ladies always gossip, “for he lost his mum in such a sensitive period”. They didn’t know a thing. This wasn’t the real cause either.

It was utterly impossible to find one thing to explain the real cause.

But there was one thing I was sure of.

At that summer, everything became different.

We had been the Super Peace Busters.

We protected the peace of everywhere. I was the captain, of course, for I was number one in everything.

Matsuyuki… Yukiatsu, Tsuruko, Anaru, Poppo, and also Menma all agreed to this. Everyone followed at my back, trotting—following behind me at all times.

Yes. That day was the same.

“Jintan… Do you like Menma?”

Everything started with a question Anaru asked.

“Hah?”

I was suffering from this unexpected blow.

This question was exactly strangely delicious bait. Everyone started to heckle with, “we want to know!” “Does Menma like Jintan too?” All kinds of thoughts popped up. I was filled with a mysterious pleasure, and blurted in anger, “You idiots!”, and thinking I would get away with it…

“Tell the truth. Super Peace Busters should not hide things from each other.”

Yukiatsu forced me with a serious face.

“Tell, tell… tell, tell?”

Poppo also racked things up with his stupid voice, the voice that was in sync with the rhythmic heat and the songs of cicadas. With a red face, Menma said, “ehhhh! How would this...” and got embarrassed.

As a captain, I even got forced by them to confess.

I was a bit angry. If things went on like this, my respect as a leader would be all gone. To put an end to this messy situation, I blurted something out.

“Who would like such an ugly girl!”

The racked up chorus ended in an instant.

The cicadas was still singing… At the moment I cried it out loud, something in a corner of my heart told myself that I things would turn totally bad.

I thought she would cry.

For Menma was such a cry baby, but…

“… Hehe.”

Menma smiled—soft and a bit troubled…

What was this kind of smile like?

The embarrassment hidden within the anger expanded quickly, and thus I escaped.

“Ah… don’t run away, Jintan!”

Menma chased me. Stop! Stop coming! If you come won’t we get even more suspected? So stop coming!

Menma fell down, but that didn’t stop me from running away. It was not something Menma raised, yet it pertained to Menma, hence my embarrassment and anger. That was what I thought back then.

Because Menma… she smiled.

I apparently tried to make her angry and hurt her.

Yes. I felt shameful of myself.

However, I could not put forth my feelings and speak them out. I only wanted to cry.

Dad should come back for a moment, and then go to the hospital to visit mum. Placed on the short table of a house shone by the setting sun was a bag with miso ramen. Beaten eggs were chopped onions put in a big bowl wrapped over with a preservative film. Using these to deal with my dinner, yet paying much attention to the details—it had the style of my dad.

I turned on the television, letting it sit there, and boiled the noodles, hearing “Yooh”<ref>A funny comedian</ref> from behind, and also “ayoo, thank you for waiting everybody”<ref>One of this artist’s trademark greetings</ref>.

Idling around and looking at the egg sink down into the pot, I made a decision.

Tomorrow, I would suddenly jump at Menma from behind and bind her neck with my arms. She certainly would fall down, and then at this time I would get a hold of her steadily to prevent her from falling down. Let me pull such a prank.

And then, I would cry out loud, “My dear Menma<ref>When Menma is added with an honorific, it is the abbreviation for sorry Menma</ref>!”

I had even devised the tone of my cry and the details of binding her. This idea sounded nice, even I thought so too myself.

It was even funnier than the jokes on the television.

However, after long practice, I didn’t have the chance to employ it. I couldn’t apologise.

Menma had already died.

The Super Peace Busters.

As its name implies, we busted the perfect peace and got poles apart from each other without knowing it. 

Was it because of Menma’s death?

No, even if Menma hadn’t an accident, we were a lot far from each other originally. Be it our hobbies, the colors we liked, or the jokes we liked—all of them were different.

It was only we were too small that we didn’t notice this decisive disparity… and got together by luck. So, separation was inevitable.

“…”

What had I been saying about “it’s about it, let me go”?

Sure, I had been having a tough life. Five years had passed since Menma’s accident, but when I think of Menma, the place near my stomach had a feeling of clutching together.

However, I didn’t reckon that I had atoned my sins. For it was of my cause that Menma would… even if my trauma didn’t find me trouble—even if I was not reproached—I would still be clung with impulse to destroy myself.

Yet, why would I see Menma?

Jintan.

At that time, she would always call me with such a honey-sweet voice. She was a cry baby, yet she smiled at that time.

On that day, I really wanted to apologize… to say sorry to her. Indeed.

I wanted to say I was sorry to Menma.

“!!”

A stream of current went through my spine. I couldn’t wait any longer. I rushed out the door with an impulse that couldn't be left waiting any longer.

At the instant I clung my shoes, the door opened. Dad had got off work and returned.

“Ah. Eh. Jinta, where are you going?”

“Just for a round!”

I got past my dad and dashed outside.

Go… to the vicinities.

The roadside scene faded away with my heavy breathing sounds.

Compared to the dashing speed and the pleasure of fighting with wind my mind created, the real me was worn off quite soon, my legs becoming soft, about to collapse. After that, I couldn’t stop myself from screaming out, “If I were to trip, I would rather fly away!”

I had always wished.

I had always wished for the day after that day—the day I could apologize to Menma.

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==Chapter 1: First Memory==

What are we doing for fun tomorrow?

At that place, there are endless ways of finding pleasure. Dig in the soft dirt under the trees, and you will find a lot of rhino beetle larvae. You can skip flat stones at the dry river bed. You can play sumo in the pine tree leaves. Daruma-san ga koronda<ref>[http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Darumasan_ga_koronda#Darumasan_ga_Koronda Wikipedia: Darumasan ga Koronda]</ref> is good too.

The color ghost<ref>A game where the one who plays the ghost appoints a specific color. Other players who can get to a place with that color before being caught by the ghost win.</ref> might be lacking when compared, as the colors in the mountains are nothing but green, light brown, and grey. Where can we find other colors?

Oh, there is that color—white. It’s the color of the dress she is always wearing.

But that white is like the jellyfish made of towels when you take a bath: fraughting the air for an instant, then slowly changing to indigo as water invades inside.

Even if it was white, it would still vanish.

Tomorrow, to replace the white that suddenly vanished, I decided to wear a white T-shirt—within that haziness. 

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