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Chapter 5 : Menma's Wish

Pudding321 at 02:03, 11 March 2014

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	I went back home and checked: Menma was not there.		I went back home and checked: Menma was not there.

	Would she just vanish like this? If she really vanished, ~~does~~ this mean ~~she~~ had ~~forgave~~ me, the present me?		Would she just vanish like this? If she really vanished, did this mean he had forgiven me, the present me?

	No. It should be completely the opposite: he wanted to make me feel much more pain.		No. It should be completely the opposite: he wanted to make me feel much more pain.

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	==Chapter 5 : Menma's Wish==		==Chapter 5 : Menma's Wish==

	I went back home and checked: ~~Meiko~~ was not there.		I went back home and checked: Menma was not there.

	Would she just vanish like this? If she really vanished, does this mean she had forgave me, the present me?		Would she just vanish like this? If she really vanished, does this mean she had forgave me, the present me?

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==Chapter 5 : Menma's Wish==

I went back home and checked: Meiko was not there.

Would she just vanish like this? If she really vanished, does this mean she had forgave me, the present me?

No. It should be completely the opposite: he wanted to make me feel much more pain.

That was because I had always wanted to say, ‘my dear Menma’, and thus I saw the hallucination of Menma.

‘The present I’ was coward and timid.

“Jinta, what bath salt do you want? Kusatsu or Abashiri?<ref>Japanese places</ref>”

My dad’s lesiure voice sounded from the bathroom. As usual, I told him anything was fine.

Dad didn’t have any means to reproach me for not going to school. He just acted usually and lived a leisure life. However, it was certainly abnormal to take the fact that it was normal for him to permit his son to hide at home and not going outside.

He even helped me to put bath salts after he had finished bathing. This kind of care, or this kind of empathy was very heavy for me.

Having bathed and unwinded, the first thing my dad did was not to drink beer but to brew coffee.

Then, he also placed a cup in mum’s shrine. Crossing his legs, he sat in front of it and drank slowly with her.

“Touko, I’ll also do my best today—to do my best.”

It was a saying mum always kept saying over.

My mum’s body conditions weren’t good from the start. Ever since I got into senior classes of primary school, she had always been living in the hospital. I hated the view from the windows of the ward, as it was a scene that would only change colour according to the seasons. I would always find excuses to abstain from seeing her.

I didn’t want to see mum’s face even changing quicker than the view outside the window in that unchanging ward…the only thing was…

I would have never expected Menma would pass away even earlier than mum would.

On that day, my father also told me not to tell mum about this. I also planned on doing so.

Yet, rumours spread fast in this town, and got to the hospital swiftly. When my mum heard of this, she…

“Jinta, you have to do your best—to do your best.”

She didn’t ask me anything, and only told me this word, lightly holding me in her arms.

Her warm chest and rythmic heat beat sounds assured me. When I was still a baby, mum would do this to me every time I cry. But at that time, mum’s chest was skinny and thin, her collarbone exposed, the rich smell of medicine running into my nose…my eyes started to become soury—the dam collapsed and the tears overflowed, way beyond my control.

I wanted to see Menma—I really wanted to. I wanted to cry and sob at that skinny chest.

“What am I doing…” I couldn’t help but murmur. The chance came to me, the rare chance that I could apologise. Even if it was a hallucination, something I made up, still wasn’t it a rare chance I could apologise?

I was lost in thought and didn’t enter the bathroom until dad had gone upstairs.

When I came back to my senses, the television had already been playing snowflakes. I didn’t turn it off but stared at its screen, lost in abstraction.

“Jin-Ta-Kun! Come-out-and-play!”

I was woken up by this straightforward voice, filled with wondrous intonation.

When I lifted my head, a vague sense told me it was already morning. Dad seemed to have already gone to work. I stood up shakingly, my scapula making creaking sounds.

“Jin-Ta-Kun! Come-out-and-play!”

Although I wanted to neglect her, I couldn’t do so. This annoying sound that had the same tone and the same repeated greeting sound—ah, it was Hisakawa.

Reluctantly, I opened the door. Hisakawa had turned his scooter’s throttle wide open at the bright morning.

“I’ve come to meet you, Jintan!”

“Hah? To meet me…”

“Yesterday night, I heard the broadcast ‘Pray Like the Stars’ at my workplace. I felt that wishes are things to be fulfilled! So I’ve thought over it!”

“I’ve told you. There is no way…”

“Ah. That’s okay! I’ve already called everyone!”

“Haah?” So surpise I was my voice even shuddered. According to Hisakawa, he had already told every member of Super Peace Busters the whole appearance of Menma, and everyone had agreed to meet.

“Everyone certainly becomes so serious when they think of Menma. This is love!”

“…” It was too suspicious.

I wouldn’t join, though I wanted to say this, but forget it.

“I understand…let me first change my clothes. Wait for a moment.”

“Oh! I’ll wait for you no matter how long it takes, my partner!”

I thought while I changed my shirt. Hisakawa must have filtered my trauma, my hallucinations with his ‘Poppo filtering machine’ and exaggerated it. Originally I had been alleged to be sick, now I was bound to be reckoned sick.

I remembered the eyes of Yukiatsu when he looked down upon me—if I don’t see them now, most likely I would incessantly remember those eyes he held.

I wore the most neat and tidy clothes I had and stretched my hand towards the nylon hat that was a few degrees lower than my eye view.

“Forget it.”

I didn’t Yukiatsu to scoff at me again. No, I don't want anyone to scoff at me. Even if I was a completely changed person, I still had some remains of self-esteem.

Although I knew that self-esteem would only aggrevate this situation.

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	‘The present I’ was cowardly and timid.		‘The present I’ was cowardly and timid.

	“Jinta, what bath salt do you want? Kusatsu or Abashiri?<ref>Japanese places</ref>”		“Jinta, what bath salt do you want? Kusatsu or Abashiri?<ref>bath salts named after Japanese places</ref>”

	My dad’s slovenly voice sounded from the bathroom. As usual, I told him anything was fine.		My dad’s slovenly voice sounded from the bathroom. As usual, I told him anything was fine.

	Dad didn’t have any means to reproach me for not going to school. He just acted ~~usually~~ and lived a ~~leisure~~ life. However, it was certainly abnormal for him to permit his son me to hide at home.		Dad didn’t have any means to reproach me for not going to school. He just acted normally and lived a leisurely life. However, it was certainly abnormal for him to permit his son, myself, to hide at home.

	He even helped me to put bath salts after he had finished bathing. This kind of care, or this kind of empathy weighed too much on me.		He even helped me to put in bath salts after he had finished bathing. This kind of care, or this kind of empathy, weighed too much on me.

	Having bathed and unwinded, the first thing my dad did was not to drink beer but to brew coffee.		Having bathed and unwinded, the first thing my dad did was not to drink beer, but to brew coffee.

	Then, he also placed a cup in mum’s shrine. Crossing his legs, he sat in front of it and drank slowly with her.		Then, he also placed a cup in mum’s shrine. Crossing his legs, he sat in front of it and drank slowly with her.
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	I wanted to see Menma—I really wanted to. I wanted to cry and sob at that skinny chest.		I wanted to see Menma—I really wanted to. I wanted to cry and sob at that skinny chest.

	“What am I doing…” I couldn’t help but murmur. The chance came to me, the rare chance that I could apologise. Even if it was a hallucination, something I made up, still wasn’t it a rare chance I could apologise?		“What am I doing…” I couldn’t help but murmur. The chance came to me, the rare chance that I could apologise. Even if it was a hallucination, something I made up, still, wasn’t it a rare chance I could apologise?

	I was lost in thought and didn’t enter the bathroom until dad had gone upstairs.		I was lost in thought and didn’t enter the bathroom until dad had gone upstairs.

	When I came back to my senses, the television had already been playing snowflakes. I didn’t turn it off but stared at its screen, lost in abstraction.		When I came back to my senses, the television had already been playing snowflakes. I didn’t turn it off, but stared at its screen, lost in abstraction.

	“Jin-Ta-Kun! Come-out-and-play!”		“Jin-Ta-Kun! Come-out-and-play!”
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	“Ah. That’s okay! I’ve already called everyone!”		“Ah. That’s okay! I’ve already called everyone!”

	“Haah?” ~~So surprised~~ I was even my voice shuddered. According to Hisakawa, he had already informed every member of Super Peace Busters of the appearance of Menma, and everyone had agreed to meet.		“Haah?” I was so surprised, even my voice shuddered. According to Hisakawa, he had already informed every member of the Super Peace Busters of the appearance of Menma, and everyone had agreed to meet.

	“Everyone becomes so serious when they think of Menma. This is love!”		“Everyone becomes so serious when they think of Menma. This is love!”
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	I wanted to drop out, but I dismissed this idea and went with the flow.		I wanted to drop out, but I dismissed this idea and went with the flow.

	“I understand…let me ~~first~~ change my clothes. Wait for a moment.”		“I understand…let me change my clothes first. Wait for a moment.”

	“Oh! I’ll wait for you no matter how long it takes, my partner!”		“Oh! I’ll wait for you no matter how long it takes, my partner!”

	While I changed my shirt, I thought to myself: Hisakawa must have filtered my trauma, my hallucinations with his ‘Poppo filtering machine’ and exaggerated it. Originally I had been alleged to be sick, now I was bound to be reckoned sick.		While I changed my shirt, I thought to myself: Hisakawa must have filtered my trauma, my hallucinations with his ‘Poppo filtering machine’ and exaggerated it. Originally I had been alleged to be sick; now I was bound to be reckoned sick.

	I remembered the eyes of Yukiatsu when he looked down on me—if I ~~don’t~~ see them now, most likely I would incessantly remember those eyes he held.		I remembered the eyes of Yukiatsu when he looked down on me—if I didn’t see them now, most likely I would incessantly remember those eyes he held.

	I wore the most neat and tidy clothes I had and stretched my hand towards the nylon hat that was a few degrees lower than my eye view.		I wore the most neat and tidy clothes I had and stretched my hand towards the nylon hat that was a few degrees lower than my eye view.
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	“Forget it.”		“Forget it.”

	I didn’t want Yukiatsu to scoff at me again. No, I ~~don~~'t want anyone to scoff at me. Even if I had changed completely, I still had some remains of self-esteem...		I didn’t want Yukiatsu to scoff at me again. No, I didn't want anyone to scoff at me. Even if I had changed completely, I still had some remains of self-esteem...

	...although I knew that self-esteem would only aggravate this situation.		...although I knew that self-esteem would only aggravate this situation.

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	It was because I had always wanted to say ‘my dear Menma’ that I saw the hallucination of Menma.		It was because I had always wanted to say ‘my dear Menma’ that I saw the hallucination of Menma.

	‘The present I’ was ~~coward~~ and timid.		‘The present I’ was cowardly and timid.

	“Jinta, what bath salt do you want? Kusatsu or Abashiri?<ref>Japanese places</ref>”		“Jinta, what bath salt do you want? Kusatsu or Abashiri?<ref>Japanese places</ref>”
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	My mum’s body conditions weren’t good from the start. Ever since I got into senior classes of primary school, she had always been living in the hospital. I hated the view from the windows of the ward, as it was a scene that would only change colour according to the seasons. I would always find excuses to abstain from seeing her.		My mum’s body conditions weren’t good from the start. Ever since I got into senior classes of primary school, she had always been living in the hospital. I hated the view from the windows of the ward, as it was a scene that would only change colour according to the seasons. I would always find excuses to abstain from seeing her.

	I didn’t want to see mum’s face even ~~changing~~ quicker than the view outside the window in that unchanging ward…the only thing was…		I didn’t want to see mum’s face changing even quicker than the view outside the window in that unchanging ward…the only thing was…

	I would have never expected Menma would pass away even earlier than mum would.		I would have never expected Menma would pass away even earlier than mum would.
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	She didn’t ask me anything, and only repeated her usual motto, lightly holding me in her arms.		She didn’t ask me anything, and only repeated her usual motto, lightly holding me in her arms.

	Her warm chest and rhythmic ~~heat~~ beat patterns assured me. When I was still a baby, mum would do this to me every time I ~~cry~~. But at that time, mum’s chest was skinny and thin, her collarbone exposed, the rich smell of medicine running into my nose…my eyes started to become sour—the dam collapsed and tears overflowed, way beyond my control.		Her warm chest and rhythmic heart beat patterns assured me. When I was still a baby, mum would do this to me every time I cried. But at that time, mum’s chest was skinny and thin, her collarbone exposed, the rich smell of medicine running into my nose…my eyes started to become sour—the dam collapsed and tears overflowed, way beyond my control.

	I wanted to see Menma—I really wanted to. I wanted to cry and sob at that skinny chest.		I wanted to see Menma—I really wanted to. I wanted to cry and sob at that skinny chest.
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	I was woken up by this straightforward voice, filled with wondrous intonation.		I was woken up by this straightforward voice, filled with wondrous intonation.

	~~When~~ I lifted my head, a vague sense told me it was already morning. Dad seemed to have already gone to work. I stood up, shaking, my scapula making creaking sounds.		As I lifted my head, a vague sense told me it was already morning. Dad seemed to have already gone to work. I stood up, shaking, my scapula making creaking sounds.

	“Jin-Ta-Kun! Come-out-and-play!”		“Jin-Ta-Kun! Come-out-and-play!”

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	No. It should be completely the opposite: he wanted to make me feel much more pain.		No. It should be completely the opposite: he wanted to make me feel much more pain.

	~~That~~ was because I had always wanted to say, ‘my dear Menma’~~, and thus~~ I saw the hallucination of Menma.		It was because I had always wanted to say ‘my dear Menma’ that I saw the hallucination of Menma.

	‘The present I’ was coward and timid.		‘The present I’ was coward and timid.
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	“Jinta, what bath salt do you want? Kusatsu or Abashiri?<ref>Japanese places</ref>”		“Jinta, what bath salt do you want? Kusatsu or Abashiri?<ref>Japanese places</ref>”

	My dad’s ~~lesiure~~ voice sounded from the bathroom. As usual, I told him anything was fine.		My dad’s slovenly voice sounded from the bathroom. As usual, I told him anything was fine.

	Dad didn’t have any means to reproach me for not going to school. He just acted usually and lived a leisure life. However, it was certainly abnormal ~~to take the fact that it was normal~~ for him to permit his son to hide at home ~~and not going outside~~.		Dad didn’t have any means to reproach me for not going to school. He just acted usually and lived a leisure life. However, it was certainly abnormal for him to permit his son me to hide at home.

	He even helped me to put bath salts after he had finished bathing. This kind of care, or this kind of empathy ~~was very heavy for~~ me.		He even helped me to put bath salts after he had finished bathing. This kind of care, or this kind of empathy weighed too much on me.

	Having bathed and unwinded, the first thing my dad did was not to drink beer but to brew coffee.		Having bathed and unwinded, the first thing my dad did was not to drink beer but to brew coffee.
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	“Touko, I’ll also do my best today—to do my best.”		“Touko, I’ll also do my best today—to do my best.”

	It was a saying mum always ~~kept saying over~~.		It was a saying mum always repeated.

	My mum’s body conditions weren’t good from the start. Ever since I got into senior classes of primary school, she had always been living in the hospital. I hated the view from the windows of the ward, as it was a scene that would only change colour according to the seasons. I would always find excuses to abstain from seeing her.		My mum’s body conditions weren’t good from the start. Ever since I got into senior classes of primary school, she had always been living in the hospital. I hated the view from the windows of the ward, as it was a scene that would only change colour according to the seasons. I would always find excuses to abstain from seeing her.
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	I would have never expected Menma would pass away even earlier than mum would.		I would have never expected Menma would pass away even earlier than mum would.

	~~On that~~ day, my father also told me not to tell mum about this. I also planned on doing so.		That day, my father also told me not to tell mum about this. I also planned on doing so.

	Yet, rumours spread fast in this town, and got to the hospital swiftly. When my mum heard of this, she…		Yet rumours spread fast in this town, and got to the hospital swiftly. When my mum heard of this, she…

	“Jinta, you have to do your best—to do your best.”		“Jinta, you have to do your best—to do your best.”

	She didn’t ask me anything, and only ~~told me this word~~, lightly holding me in her arms.		She didn’t ask me anything, and only repeated her usual motto, lightly holding me in her arms.

	Her warm chest and ~~rythmic~~ heat beat ~~sounds~~ assured me. When I was still a baby, mum would do this to me every time I cry. But at that time, mum’s chest was skinny and thin, her collarbone exposed, the rich smell of medicine running into my nose…my eyes started to become ~~soury—the~~ dam collapsed and ~~the~~ tears overflowed, way beyond my control.		Her warm chest and rhythmic heat beat patterns assured me. When I was still a baby, mum would do this to me every time I cry. But at that time, mum’s chest was skinny and thin, her collarbone exposed, the rich smell of medicine running into my nose…my eyes started to become sour—the dam collapsed and tears overflowed, way beyond my control.

	I wanted to see Menma—I really wanted to. I wanted to cry and sob at that skinny chest.		I wanted to see Menma—I really wanted to. I wanted to cry and sob at that skinny chest.
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	I was woken up by this straightforward voice, filled with wondrous intonation.		I was woken up by this straightforward voice, filled with wondrous intonation.

	When I lifted my head, a vague sense told me it was already morning. Dad seemed to have already gone to work. I stood up ~~shakingly~~, my scapula making creaking sounds.		When I lifted my head, a vague sense told me it was already morning. Dad seemed to have already gone to work. I stood up, shaking, my scapula making creaking sounds.

	“Jin-Ta-Kun! Come-out-and-play!”		“Jin-Ta-Kun! Come-out-and-play!”
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	“Yesterday night, I heard the broadcast ‘Pray Like the Stars’ at my workplace. I felt that wishes are things to be fulfilled! So I’ve thought over it!”		“Yesterday night, I heard the broadcast ‘Pray Like the Stars’ at my workplace. I felt that wishes are things to be fulfilled! So I’ve thought over it!”

	~~“I’ve~~ told you. There is no way…”		“I told you. There is no way…”

	“Ah. That’s okay! I’ve already called everyone!”		“Ah. That’s okay! I’ve already called everyone!”

	“Haah?” So ~~surpise~~ I was my voice ~~even~~ shuddered. According to Hisakawa, he had already ~~told~~ every member of Super Peace Busters the ~~whole~~ appearance of Menma, and everyone had agreed to meet.		“Haah?” So surprised I was even my voice shuddered. According to Hisakawa, he had already informed every member of Super Peace Busters of the appearance of Menma, and everyone had agreed to meet.

	“Everyone ~~certainly~~ becomes so serious when they think of Menma. This is love!”		“Everyone becomes so serious when they think of Menma. This is love!”

	“…” It was too suspicious.		“…” It was too suspicious.

	~~I wouldn’t join, though~~ I wanted to ~~say this~~, but ~~forget it~~.		I wanted to drop out, but I dismissed this idea and went with the flow.

	“I understand…let me first change my clothes. Wait for a moment.”		“I understand…let me first change my clothes. Wait for a moment.”
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	“Oh! I’ll wait for you no matter how long it takes, my partner!”		“Oh! I’ll wait for you no matter how long it takes, my partner!”

	~~I thought while~~ I changed my shirt. Hisakawa must have filtered my trauma, my hallucinations with his ‘Poppo filtering machine’ and exaggerated it. Originally I had been alleged to be sick, now I was bound to be reckoned sick.		While I changed my shirt, I thought to myself: Hisakawa must have filtered my trauma, my hallucinations with his ‘Poppo filtering machine’ and exaggerated it. Originally I had been alleged to be sick, now I was bound to be reckoned sick.

	I remembered the eyes of Yukiatsu when he looked down ~~upon~~ me—if I don’t see them now, most likely I would incessantly remember those eyes he held.		I remembered the eyes of Yukiatsu when he looked down on me—if I don’t see them now, most likely I would incessantly remember those eyes he held.

	I wore the most neat and tidy clothes I had and stretched my hand towards the nylon hat that was a few degrees lower than my eye view.		I wore the most neat and tidy clothes I had and stretched my hand towards the nylon hat that was a few degrees lower than my eye view.
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	“Forget it.”		“Forget it.”

	I didn’t Yukiatsu to scoff at me again. No, I don't want anyone to scoff at me. Even if I ~~was a~~ completely ~~changed person~~, I still had some remains of self-esteem.		I didn’t want Yukiatsu to scoff at me again. No, I don't want anyone to scoff at me. Even if I had changed completely, I still had some remains of self-esteem...

	~~Although~~ I knew that self-esteem would only ~~aggrevate~~ this situation.		...although I knew that self-esteem would only aggravate this situation.

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