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	I ask aloud, but there's no answer. SHIKI and I are out of sync. That feeling grows stronger every day. Even if I let SHIKI use my body, the one who decides is me, but why is it that my memory is vague when I do so?		I ask aloud, but there's no answer. SHIKI and I are out of sync. That feeling grows stronger every day. Even if I let SHIKI use my body, the one who decides is me, but why is it that my memory is vague when I do so?

	... Maybe I just don't realize it, but I might be insane like everyone else of the Ryougi bloodline. SHIKI would say: "If you think you're abnormal, ~~than~~ you're not." For an abnormal person, everyone else seems abnormal, so they would not question themselves. At least that's the way I was. Then that must mean I finally figured out the difference between me and the rest of the world after sixteen years. But who caused that?		... Maybe I just don't realize it, but I might be insane like everyone else of the Ryougi bloodline. SHIKI would say: "If you think you're abnormal, then you're not." For an abnormal person, everyone else seems abnormal, so they would not question themselves. At least that's the way I was. Then that must mean I finally figured out the difference between me and the rest of the world after sixteen years. But who caused that?

	"Please excuse me, Ojou-sama."		"Please excuse me, Ojou-sama."
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	The day after such this incident, Mikiya was acting normally.		The day after such this incident, Mikiya was acting normally.

	"Shiki, ~~do you~~ wanna eat lunch together?"		"Shiki, wanna eat lunch together?"

	He would say that and go to the rooftop. I feel like I'm being trained using food as I always accept his offer of lunch. I would have decided to ignore him, but I was curious about what he thought of that night. I followed him up to the rooftop thinking he would question me about it, but Mikiya was the same as always.		He would say that and go to the rooftop. I feel like I'm being trained using food as I always accept his offer of lunch. I would have decided to ignore him, but I was curious about what he thought of that night. I followed him up to the rooftop thinking he would question me about it, but Mikiya was the same as always.
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	Mikiya nods.		Mikiya nods.

	"You're the one ~~to tell~~ me not to listen to you too seriously. And you're definitely incapable of doing such a thing... ever."		"You're the one who told me not to listen to you too seriously. And you're definitely incapable of doing such a thing... ever."

	I grow angry at Mikiya for saying something such as this, even though he has no idea of my true situation.		I grow angry at Mikiya for saying something such as this, even though he has no idea of my true situation.
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	That did it. A pure power... these words erase all else with their purity.		That did it. A pure power... these words erase all else with their purity.

	This unassuming phrase to him, is happiness for Shiki and the destruction that she could never get away from. I was just shown the world I could never live in by this happy person.		This unassuming phrase to him is happiness for Shiki and the destruction that she could never get away from. I was just shown the world I could never live in by this happy person.

	...A world in which you can live with someone else must be a happy world.		...A world in which you can live with someone else must be a happy world.
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	Even though I can never be there.		Even though I can never be there.

	I cannot stand his existence. I know for sure now. Mikiya will bring me destruction...		I cannot stand his existence. I know for sure now. Mikiya will bring forth my destruction...

	"You're stupid."		"You're stupid."

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	A murder occurred in front of my house. My memory of the night after I went to take a walk is vague. But if you connect the parts that I remember, what I must have done is obvious. SHIKI is the same way too, but I do not deal with blood too well. Just looking at it makes my mind go blank. The flowing blood of this victim was really beautiful. The stone road to my mansion, the space between the stones are like a maze and the red liquid navigating that labyrinth was filled with a beauty I had never encountered before.		A murder occurred in front of my house. My memory of the night after I went to take a walk is vague. But if you connect the parts that I remember, what I must have done is obvious. SHIKI is the same way too, but I do not deal with blood too well. Just looking at it makes my mind go blank. The flowing blood of this victim was really beautiful. The stone road to my mansion, the space between the stones are like a maze and the red liquid navigating that labyrinth was filled with a beauty I had never encountered before.
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	I have to reject the idea that seeing Mikiya at that place is only a dream. Since he was actually there, he's here right now to check on me. I don't know what his motives are, but I think he's probably out to check who the killer is... Anyway, I get mad and unconsciously bite at my nail.		I have to reject the idea that seeing Mikiya at that place is only a dream. Since he was actually there, he's here right now to check on me. I don't know what his motives are, but I think he's probably out to check who the killer is... Anyway, I get mad and unconsciously bite at my nail.

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	The day after such this incident, Mikiya was acting normally.		The day after such this incident, Mikiya was acting normally.
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	I did not want such a thing. Mikiya said he would believe me. If I could also believe in myself, I wouldn't feel this unknown pain either...		I did not want such a thing. Mikiya said he would believe me. If I could also believe in myself, I wouldn't feel this unknown pain either...

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	From that day on, I decide to ignore Mikiya completely. About two days into it, he stopped talking to me, but he doesn't stop coming to the mansion to check on me. Under the cold winter sky, he would stay in the bamboo woods until about three in the morning. As a result, I'm no longer able to take my nightly walks. It's been about two weeks since it started. I gaze outside the window, wondering if he really wants to figure out the identity of the killer that badly.		From that day on, I decide to ignore Mikiya completely. About two days into it, he stopped talking to me, but he doesn't stop coming to the mansion to check on me. Under the cold winter sky, he would stay in the bamboo woods until about three in the morning. As a result, I'm no longer able to take my nightly walks. It's been about two weeks since it started. I gaze outside the window, wondering if he really wants to figure out the identity of the killer that badly.
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	Everything would have been fine if I had never had the dream of living normally.		Everything would have been fine if I had never had the dream of living normally.

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	March comes and the cold starts to ebb away. I look outside from my classroom. The overlooking view from here makes a person like me feel safe. A view that I cannot reach precludes me from having any semblance of ''hope''. Mikiya comes as usual into the red-washed classroom. SHIKI likes to talk like this... and I don't dislike it either.		March comes and the cold starts to ebb away. I look outside from my classroom. The overlooking view from here makes a person like me feel safe. A view that I cannot reach precludes me from having any semblance of ''hope''. Mikiya comes as usual into the red-washed classroom. SHIKI likes to talk like this... and I don't dislike it either.
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	I think it will rain tonight.		I think it will rain tonight.


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	...SHIKI went towards him and...		...SHIKI went towards him and...

	"Well, to be honest, it's a bit difficult for to think about it right now. If I can have confidence in myself, I should be able to hear you out; so let's not talk about that for now."		"Well, to be honest, it's a bit difficult for me to think about it right now. If I can have confidence in myself, I should be able to hear you out; so let's not talk about that for now."

	His expression makes me feel like running away.		His expression makes me feel like running away.

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	He is really persistent.		He is really persistent.

	It's almost three in the morning, but he just keeps staring at the gate. There's no sign of desperation in his expression - in fact, he ~~seemed~~ to be smiling as he ~~left~~.		It's almost three in the morning, but he just keeps staring at the gate. There's no sign of desperation in his expression - in fact, he seems to be smiling as he leaves.

	"......"		"......"

	I get irritated. I finally understand. He isn't out to find the killer. For him, it's only natural to trust me, and that's why he doesn't suspect me. He's there knowing from the beginning that I would not go out during the night. He's only there to prove my innocence. That's why he smiles happily when the night ends without anything happening~~. Believing~~ that the true killer is really innocent.		I get irritated. I finally understand. He isn't out to find the killer. For him, it's only natural to trust me, and that's why he doesn't suspect me. He's there knowing from the beginning that I would not go out during the night. He's only there to prove my innocence. That's why he smiles happily when the night ends without anything happening, believing that the true killer is really innocent.

	"... What a happy guy."		"... What a happy guy."

	~~Murmuring,~~ I ~~think~~. Being with Mikiya calms me down. Being with Mikiya makes me think I'm like him. Being with Mikiya makes me think I could go over to their side. But definitely, that bright side of the world is a world I should never be in. A world I cannot be in, a world without a place for me... He drags me in with his smile...		I murmur to myself. Being with Mikiya calms me down. Being with Mikiya makes me think I'm like him. Being with Mikiya makes me think I could go over to ''their'' side. But definitely, that bright side of the world is a world I should never be in. A world I cannot exist in, a world without a place for me... He drags me in with his smile...

	That's why I am irritated by Mikiya, making me think all that. I have inside me a killer called SHIKI. That boy that lets me know that I am abnormal...		That's why I am irritated by Mikiya, making me think all that. I have inside me a killer called SHIKI. That boy that lets me know that I am abnormal...

	"I am fine by myself. ~~But you~~'re getting in my way, ~~Kokuto~~."		"I am fine by myself. You're getting in my way, Kokutoh."

	Shiki does not want to go crazy.		Shiki does not want to go crazy.
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	SHIKI does not want to be broken.		SHIKI does not want to be broken.

	Everything would have been fine if I never had the dream of living normally.		Everything would have been fine if I had never had the dream of living normally.

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	March comes and the ~~coldness~~ starts to go away. I look outside from my classroom. The overlooking view from here makes a person like me feel safe. A view that I cannot reach ~~does not let~~ me hope ~~by definition~~. Mikiya comes as usual into the red-~~tinted~~ classroom. SHIKI ~~liked~~ to talk like this. ... and I ~~also didn~~'t dislike it.		March comes and the cold starts to ebb away. I look outside from my classroom. The overlooking view from here makes a person like me feel safe. A view that I cannot reach precludes me from having any semblance of ''hope''. Mikiya comes as usual into the red-washed classroom. SHIKI likes to talk like this... and I don't dislike it either.

	"I never thought you'd invite me. Are you going to stop ignoring me?"		"I never thought you'd invite me. Are you going to stop ignoring me?"
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	"I wanted to talk because it's impossible to continue that."		"I wanted to talk because it's impossible to continue that."

	Mikiya makes a frowning face. I continue ~~while~~ feeling ~~that I am mixing in~~ with ~~SHIKI~~.		Mikiya makes a frowning face. I continue, feeling as if SHIKI's personality is being ever more strongly intermixed with my own.

	"You said I am not the killer."		"You said that I am not the killer."

	The sunset is so red that I cannot see his face.		The sunset is so red and vivid that I cannot see his face.

	"I'm sorry. I am a killer. Why do you let me go even after seeing that scene?"		"I'm sorry. I am a killer. Why do you let me go even after seeing that scene?"

	Mikiya looks ~~dumb-struck~~.		Mikiya looks dumbstruck.

	"There's nothing to let go, because you never did such a thing."		"There's nothing to let go, because you never did such a thing."

	"Even if I ~~say I did~~ myself?"		"Even if I admit it myself?"

	Mikiya nods.		Mikiya nods.

	"You're the one to tell me not to listen to you too seriously. And you definitely ~~can't do~~ such a thing... ever."		"You're the one to tell me not to listen to you too seriously. And you're definitely incapable of doing such a thing... ever."

	I ~~get mad~~ at Mikiya for saying ~~that while~~ he ~~does not know anything~~.		I grow angry at Mikiya for saying something such as this, even though he has no idea of my true situation.

	"What do you mean definitely? What about me can you understand? What about me can you trust?"		"What do you mean "definitely"?! What about me can you understand?! What about me can you trust?!"

	My anger ~~comes out my mouth~~. Mikiya makes a troubled face but smiles.		I vent my anger at him. Mikiya makes a troubled face but smiles nevertheless.

	"I have no basis, but I will continue to believe in you. I like you, so I want to keep on believing in you."		"I have no basis for it, but I will continue to believe in you. I like you, so I want to keep on believing in you."

	That did it. A pure power... ~~pure~~ words erase ~~everything~~ else just because it is pure. A normal word like that for him is happiness for Shiki and destruction that she could never get away from. I was just shown the world I could never be in through this happy person.		That did it. A pure power... these words erase all else with their purity.

	.~~.. A~~ world ~~where you~~ could live ~~with someone else must be a~~ happy ~~world~~.		This unassuming phrase to him, is happiness for Shiki and the destruction that she could never get away from. I was just shown the world I could never live in by this happy person.

	... ~~But I do not know such~~ world.		...A world in which you can live with someone else must be a happy world.

	... But I ~~probably~~ do not know such world.		...But I do not know such a world.

	If I get to know someone, SHIKI will kill that person because SHIKI's reason for existence is to deny. And since my reason is to affirm, I cannot exist without denial. Since I have never been attracted to anything, I was able to ~~stay away~~ from this contradiction. Now that I know, the more I wish for it, the more I know this wish is hopeless. That fact really hurts and I detest it. For the first time, I detest Mikiya from the bottom of my heart.		...But I probably do not know such a world.

			If I get to know someone, SHIKI will kill that person because SHIKI's reason for existence is to deny. And since my reason is to affirm, I cannot exist without denial. Since I have never been attracted to anything, I was able to distance myself from this contradiction. Now that I know, the more I wish for it, the more I know this wish is hopeless. That fact really hurts and I detest it. For the first time, I detest Mikiya from the bottom of my heart.

	... Mikiya laughs like it's nothing.		... Mikiya laughs like it's nothing.

	Even though I can never be there.		Even though I can never be there.

	I cannot stand his existence. I know for sure now. Mikiya will bring me destruction...		I cannot stand his existence. I know for sure now. Mikiya will bring me destruction...

	"~~...~~ You're stupid."		"You're stupid."

	I tell him from the bottom of my heart.		I tell him from the bottom of my heart.
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	"Yeah, I get told that a lot."		"Yeah, I get told that a lot."

	~~The sunset is red and~~ I exit the classroom. As I leave, I ask him without turning.		I exit the classroom. The sunset blazes red behind me. As I leave, I ask him without turning.

	"Are you going to come again tonight?"		"Are you going to come again tonight?"
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	"Huh......?"		"Huh......?"

	He sounds surprised. I guess he didn't know I noticed his "stake-~~out~~". Mikiya tries to ~~lie~~ it off but I stop him.		He sounds surprised. I guess he didn't know I had noticed his "stake-outs". Mikiya tries to shrug it off but I stop him.

	"Answer me."		"Answer me."
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	"I don't know what you're talking about, but I'll go if I feel like it."		"I don't know what you're talking about, but I'll go if I feel like it."

	I leave the classroom. ~~There are gray~~ clouds in the red sky. From the dark clouds, I think it will rain tonight.		I leave the classroom. Gray clouds loom across in the red sky. From the look of the dark, heavy clouds...

			I think it will rain tonight.

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Solstrike at 21:53, 14 January 2007

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	"Huh......?"		"Huh......?"

	He sounds ~~surprized~~. I guess he didn't know I noticed his "stake-out". Mikiya tries to lie it off but I stop him.		He sounds surprised. I guess he didn't know I noticed his "stake-out". Mikiya tries to lie it off but I stop him.

	"Answer me."		"Answer me."

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	... But I probably do not know such world.		... But I probably do not know such world.

	If I get to know someone, SHIKI will kill that person because SHIKI's reason for existence is to deny. And since my reason is to affirm, I cannot exist without denial. Since I have never been attracted to anything, I was able to stay away from this contradiction. Now that I know, the more I wish for it, the more I know this wish is hopeless. That fact really hurts and I detest it. For the first time, I ~~deteste~~ Mikiya from the bottom of my heart.		If I get to know someone, SHIKI will kill that person because SHIKI's reason for existence is to deny. And since my reason is to affirm, I cannot exist without denial. Since I have never been attracted to anything, I was able to stay away from this contradiction. Now that I know, the more I wish for it, the more I know this wish is hopeless. That fact really hurts and I detest it. For the first time, I detest Mikiya from the bottom of my heart.

	... Mikiya laughs like it's nothing.		... Mikiya laughs like it's nothing.

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	"I wanted to talk because it's impossible to continue that."		"I wanted to talk because it's impossible to continue that."

	Mikiya makes a ~~frowned~~ face. I continue while feeling that I am mixing in with SHIKI.		Mikiya makes a frowning face. I continue while feeling that I am mixing in with SHIKI.

	"You said I am not the killer."		"You said I am not the killer."

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	A murder occurred in front of my house. My memory of the night after I went to take a walk is vague. But if you connect the parts that I remember, what I must have done is obvious. SHIKI is the same way too, but I do not deal with blood too well. Just looking at it makes my mind go blank. The flowing blood of this victim was really beautiful. The stone road to my mansion, the space between the stones are like a maze and the red liquid navigating that ~~labyrinthe~~ was filled with a beauty I had never encountered before.		A murder occurred in front of my house. My memory of the night after I went to take a walk is vague. But if you connect the parts that I remember, what I must have done is obvious. SHIKI is the same way too, but I do not deal with blood too well. Just looking at it makes my mind go blank. The flowing blood of this victim was really beautiful. The stone road to my mansion, the space between the stones are like a maze and the red liquid navigating that labyrinth was filled with a beauty I had never encountered before.

	But that caused the misfortune. When I regained my senses, someone was throwing up behind me. It was ~~Kokutoh~~ Mikiya. I didn't know why he was there and, at that time, I didn't even wonder why he was there. After that, I think... I went back to the mansion, but it seems the crime was found out much later than that and nobody knew I was at the scene of the crime. Then, was what I saw just a dream? There's no way that my honest classmate would not say anything about the killer. But why did it have to be in front of my house?		But that caused the misfortune. When I regained my senses, someone was throwing up behind me. It was Kokuto Mikiya. I didn't know why he was there and, at that time, I didn't even wonder why he was there. After that, I think... I went back to the mansion, but it seems the crime was found out much later than that and nobody knew I was at the scene of the crime. Then, was what I saw just a dream? There's no way that my honest classmate would not say anything about the killer. But why did it have to be in front of my house?

	"SHIKI, is it you?"		"SHIKI, is it you?"
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	I ask aloud, but there's no answer. SHIKI and I are out of sync. That feeling grows stronger every day. Even if I let SHIKI use my body, the one who decides is me, but why is it that my memory is vague when I do so?		I ask aloud, but there's no answer. SHIKI and I are out of sync. That feeling grows stronger every day. Even if I let SHIKI use my body, the one who decides is me, but why is it that my memory is vague when I do so?

	... Maybe I just don't realize it, but I might be insane like everyone else of the ~~Ryohgi~~ bloodline. SHIKI would say: "If you think you're abnormal, than you're not." For an abnormal person, everyone else seems abnormal, so they would not question themselves. At least that's the way I was. Then that must mean I finally figured out the difference between me and the rest of the world after sixteen years. But who caused that?		... Maybe I just don't realize it, but I might be insane like everyone else of the Ryougi bloodline. SHIKI would say: "If you think you're abnormal, than you're not." For an abnormal person, everyone else seems abnormal, so they would not question themselves. At least that's the way I was. Then that must mean I finally figured out the difference between me and the rest of the world after sixteen years. But who caused that?

	"Please excuse me, Ojou-sama."		"Please excuse me, Ojou-sama."
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	Mikiya has no right to use the word "servant".		Mikiya has no right to use the word "servant".

	"Akitaka is my father's secretary. And we call them caretakers, not servants, ~~Kokutoh~~-kun."		"Akitaka is my father's secretary. And we call them caretakers, not servants, Kokuto-kun."

	"I see, so you do have people like that at your place."		"I see, so you do have people like that at your place."
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	He avoids my question just like that.		He avoids my question just like that.

	"What is it, ~~Kokutoh.~~"		"What is it, Kokuto?"

	... I can't believe it, I'm talking like SHIKI without noticing. Mikiya is a bit startled at being addressed so, while I am obviously still Shiki.		... I can't believe it, I'm talking like SHIKI without noticing. Mikiya is a bit startled at being addressed so, while I am obviously still Shiki.
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	His expression makes me feel like running away.		His expression makes me feel like running away.

	...SHIKI definitely tried to kill ~~Kokutoh~~ Mikiya...		...SHIKI definitely tried to kill Kokuto Mikiya...

	I did not want such a thing. Mikiya said he would believe me. If I could also believe in myself, I wouldn't feel this unknown pain either...		I did not want such a thing. Mikiya said he would believe me. If I could also believe in myself, I wouldn't feel this unknown pain either...
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	That's why I am irritated by Mikiya, making me think all that. I have inside me a killer called SHIKI. That boy that lets me know that I am abnormal...		That's why I am irritated by Mikiya, making me think all that. I have inside me a killer called SHIKI. That boy that lets me know that I am abnormal...

	"I am fine by myself. You're getting in my way, ~~Kokutoh~~."		"I am fine by myself. You're getting in my way, Kokuto."

	Shiki does not want to go crazy.		Shiki does not want to go crazy.

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	A murder ~~occured~~ in front of my house. My memory of ~~that~~ night after I went to take a walk is vague. But if you connect the parts that I remember, what I must have done is obvious. SHIKI is the same way too, but I do not deal with blood too well. Just looking at it makes my mind go blank. The flowing blood of this victim was really beautiful. The stone road to my mansion, the space between the stones are like a maze and the red liquid going through that maze was filled with beauty I haven't seen before.		A murder occurred in front of my house. My memory of the night after I went to take a walk is vague. But if you connect the parts that I remember, what I must have done is obvious. SHIKI is the same way too, but I do not deal with blood too well. Just looking at it makes my mind go blank. The flowing blood of this victim was really beautiful. The stone road to my mansion, the space between the stones are like a maze and the red liquid going through that maze was filled with beauty I haven't seen before.

	But that caused the misfortune. When I noticed, someone was throwing up behind me and it was Kokutoh Mikiya. I ~~don~~'t know why he was there and I ~~did not~~ even wonder at that ~~time. But~~ I think... I went back to the mansion ~~after that~~, but it seems the crime was found out much later than that and nobody knows I was at the scene of the crime. Then was what I saw just a dream? There's no way that honest classmate would not tell about the killer. But why did it have to be in front of my house?		But that caused the misfortune. When I noticed, someone was throwing up behind me and it was Kokutoh Mikiya. I didn't know why he was there and, at that time, I didn't even wonder why he was there. After that, I think... I went back to the mansion, but it seems the crime was found out much later than that and nobody knows I was at the scene of the crime. Then was what I saw just a dream? There's no way that honest classmate would not tell about the killer. But why did it have to be in front of my house?

	"SHIKI, is it you?"		"SHIKI, is it you?"

	I ask aloud but there's no answer. SHIKI and I are out of ~~line~~. That feeling grows stronger every day. Even if I let SHIKI use my body, the one ~~to decide~~ is me but why is it that my memory is vague when I do so?		I ask aloud but there's no answer. SHIKI and I are out of sync. That feeling grows stronger every day. Even if I let SHIKI use my body, the one who decides is me, but why is it that my memory is vague when I do so?

	... Maybe~~, it's~~ just ~~that I~~ don't realize it but I might be insane like everyone else of the Ryohgi bloodline. SHIKI would say "If you think you're abnormal, that's a fake." For an abnormal person, everyone else seems abnormal, so they would not question themselves. At least that's the way I was. Then that must mean I finally figured out the difference between me and the rest of the world after sixteen years. But who caused that?		... Maybe I just don't realize it, but I might be insane like everyone else of the Ryohgi bloodline. SHIKI would say "If you think you're abnormal, that's a fake." For an abnormal person, everyone else seems abnormal, so they would not question themselves. At least that's the way I was. Then that must mean I finally figured out the difference between me and the rest of the world after sixteen years. But who caused that?

	"Please excuse me, Ojou-sama."		"Please excuse me, Ojou-sama."
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	"But it seems the one outside is your friend from your school."		"But it seems the one outside is your friend from your school."

	~~Being said~~ that, I get up from my bed. I go to the window facing the mansion's gate and look outside. In the bamboo woods, there is a figure that I wish would hide more cleverly. ... It pisses me off.		After hearing that, I immediately get up from my bed. I go to the window facing the mansion's gate and look outside. In the bamboo woods, there is a figure that I wish would hide more cleverly. ... It pisses me off.

	"I can get him to go home if you wish."		"I can get him to go home if you wish."
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	I quickly make my way to the bed and lay down. Akitaka leaves after telling me goodnight. I cannot sleep even after turning off the lights and closing my eyes. There's nothing to do so I check outside the window again. Wearing a brown coat, Mikiya is shivering in the cold. It seems he's looking at the gate. ... He might be a great man as he has a pot of coffee by his feet.		I quickly make my way to the bed and lay down. Akitaka leaves after telling me goodnight. I cannot sleep even after turning off the lights and closing my eyes. There's nothing to do so I check outside the window again. Wearing a brown coat, Mikiya is shivering in the cold. It seems he's looking at the gate. ... He might be a great man as he has a pot of coffee by his feet.

	I have to reject the idea that seeing Mikiya at that place is only a dream. Since he was actually there, he's here right now to check on me. I don't know what his motive is, but I think he's probably out to check who the killer is. ... Anyways, I get mad and bite my nail ~~unknowingly~~.		I have to reject the idea that seeing Mikiya at that place is only a dream. Since he was actually there, he's here right now to check on me. I don't know what his motive is, but I think he's probably out to check who the killer is. ... Anyways, I get mad and unconsciously bite my nail.

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	"Well, to be honest, it's a bit hard on me so I'm working hard on it right now. If I can have confidence in myself, I should be able to hear you out. So let's not talk about that for now."		"Well, to be honest, it's a bit hard on me so I'm working hard on it right now. If I can have confidence in myself, I should be able to hear you out. So let's not talk about that for now."

	I feel like running away ~~looking at his expression~~.		His expression makes me feel like running away.

	... SHIKI definitely tried to kill Kokutoh Mikiya...		... SHIKI definitely tried to kill Kokutoh Mikiya...
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	From that day on, I decide to ignore Mikiya completely. About two days into it, he stopped talking to me ~~also~~ but he ~~did not~~ stop coming to the mansion to check on me. Under the cold winter sky, he would stay in the bamboo woods until about three in the morning. Thanks to that, I cannot take my nightly walks. It's been about two weeks since it started. I look outside the window wondering if he really wants to figure out the killer that bad. ... He is really ~~persistant~~. It's almost three in the morning, but he just keeps staring at the gate. There's nothing ~~too~~ desperate about his expression~~. No~~, he ~~rather~~ smiled when he left.		From that day on, I decide to ignore Mikiya completely. About two days into it, he stopped talking to me, but he didn't stop coming to the mansion to check on me. Under the cold winter sky, he would stay in the bamboo woods until about three in the morning. Thanks to that, I cannot take my nightly walks. It's been about two weeks since it started. I look outside the window wondering if he really wants to figure out the identity of the killer that bad. ... He is really persistent. It's almost three in the morning, but he just keeps staring at the gate. There's nothing desperate about his expression, rather he smiled when he left.

	"......"		"......"

	I get irritated. I finally understand. He isn't out to find the killer. For him, it's only natural to trust me, and that's why he doesn't suspect me. He's there knowing from the beginning that I would not go out during the night. He's only there to prove my innocence. That's why he smiles happily when the night ends without anything ~~happenning~~. Believing that the true killer is really innocent.		I get irritated. I finally understand. He isn't out to find the killer. For him, it's only natural to trust me, and that's why he doesn't suspect me. He's there knowing from the beginning that I would not go out during the night. He's only there to prove my innocence. That's why he smiles happily when the night ends without anything happening. Believing that the true killer is really innocent.

	"... What a happy guy."		"... What a happy guy."
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	March comes and the coldness starts to go away. I look outside from my classroom. The overlooking view from here makes a person like me feel safe. A view that I cannot reach does not let me hope by definition. Mikiya comes as usual into the red-tinted classroom. SHIKI liked to talk like this. ... and I also ~~did not~~ dislike it.		March comes and the coldness starts to go away. I look outside from my classroom. The overlooking view from here makes a person like me feel safe. A view that I cannot reach does not let me hope by definition. Mikiya comes as usual into the red-tinted classroom. SHIKI liked to talk like this. ... and I also didn't dislike it.

	"I never thought you'd invite me. Are you going to stop ignoring me?"		"I never thought you'd invite me. Are you going to stop ignoring me?"
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	"I don't know what you're talking about, but I'll go if I feel like it."		"I don't know what you're talking about, but I'll go if I feel like it."

	I leave the classroom. There are gray clouds in the red sky. From the dark clouds, I think it ~~should~~ rain tonight.		I leave the classroom. There are gray clouds in the red sky. From the dark clouds, I think it will rain tonight.