Kaze no Stigma:Volume6 Chapter 4
Chapter 4 - The way an avenger ought to be
Part 1
In one of the private rooms of a Chinese restaurant located close to the Metropolitan Police Department, Kazuma was explaining the details of the story to Tachibana Kirika.
".........what did you say? ", asked Kirika dumbfounded, staring at him in wonder, but without replying Kazuma gulped down his mapo doufu.
He eliminated the pointless time of surprised cross-examinations, understanding she actually heard what he said but couldn't comprehend it.
Besides when Chinese food becomes cool it becomes unappetizing.
"----Kazuma, wait"
Quickly regaining her serenity, Kirika glared at Kazuma with a blank stare.
"Right now, we're talking about something unthinkably important. Can't you be a little more honest? "
"Not really, no matter what attitude I take the situation won't change. "
But even so, Kazuma didn't rest his chopsticks. On the contrary, he asked Kirika.
"You're not eating? "
".......I lost my appetite", groaned Kirika in a dejected tone.
But, she couldn't do that.
If Kazuma's words were true --- and she absolutely couldn't believe this man would lie at such a time --- the battle that will start before long might bring damage at a disaster scale to Tokyo.
"But even so, I've never even heard rumors regarding the existence of sacred treasures from Water and earth."
"Right. Even I didn't know. The Suzerain didn't either. "
"Isn't that weird? "
Kirika knitted her eyebrows in doubt.
"I don't know when and how this world came to be but if something like that were to exist in reality, do you think it's likely not even a bit on information would leak out? "
"Who knows"
That was a justified question but Kazuma's response had no enthusiasm.
"It doesn't really matter. I have no interest in stories of the past. "
"Not like that ---"
With an earnest facial expression that doesn't allow a negligent attitude, Kirika pressed for a answer.
"What I'm trying to say is, weren't the sacred treasures of Water and Earth just bestowed by the Spirit Lord? "
In other words, that Chris and Gaia were the same with the Founder of Kannagi and the same with Kazuma.
"I wonder..."
Remembering those two's ability, Kazuma murmured in a contradictory voice.
They were certainly first-class Jutsushi.
Chris was an excellent Suijutsushi, even Gaia, if Kazuma wouldn't have used Kokusen, he wouldn't have been able to repel him so simply.
But.
That was true and yet ---
"I don't think they were such significant masters. "
Even if Kazuma were empty-handed, he did not think he'd loose to Gaia.
It would be a close fight. He would maybe even suffer wounds.
But even so, the empty-handed himself will without fail win in the end against Gaia owning a sacred treasure. He could assert that.
"Huh, if you say it by your standard......"
Retorting with a stunned expression to Kazuma who declared so without hesitation, Kirika noticed her own misunderstanding.
"I see.......that's right. It must be by your standard"
If the sacred weapons were newly acquired, it meant signing a contract with the Spirit Lord.
Then, if the person cannot stand in the same arena with Kazuma, who is a <<Contractor>>, it means it doesn't have that qualification.
But, if so, they were an even more suspicious lot.
"As for Suijutsushi families, I never heard of a Roengram. And then Gaia --- the Earth? the Chijutsushi who doesn't give his surname, even more, the fact that he's using an flagrant alias, that seems very questionable. "
The Spirit Jutsushi, almost without exception stressed their family name.
Because they are a class where inborn ability is more important than anything else, that could be called the natural current.
Even for the <<first generation>> that acquired power unrelated to lineage, the trend is constant.
Rather, for the sake of making a reputation, there are many who emphasize the surname even more.
To sum it up, a Spirit Jutsushi who doesn't name himself is someone who was either banished from the family or someone who has done a serious crime, anyway, someone for whom giving his name would produce inconvenience, nothing but a dishonest Jutsushi.
For those kind of people, it's impossible that they are the due successors of secret treasures.
"It's not only that"
To perform a magic ceremony by gathering the sacred treasure of the four elements, that's fine so far. But ---
"At the time of the Fuan Family they used force because the negotiations failed and yet when it comes to Ayano-chan they attacked suddenly, right? Just what were they thinking? "
"At first, they began in a negotiation-like fashion, though "
"Don't make fun of this. You understand, right? "
Kirika didn't respond to Kazuma's joke but coldly replied.
What Kazuma meant by negotiations was what Chris said: "If you obediently hand over Enraiha I won't hurt you".
Even if they tried negotiating with the Fuan family one way or another, the change in attitude was too big.
Or perhaps, because there was no way to consider those negotiations it looked like some kind of proclamation of war.
"They wanted to turn the Fuan into their allies but when it comes to Kannagi they planned to be hostile since the beginning? If it were me I would try my best not to make enemies of the Kannagi only --- do you think they have some kind of grudge? "
"Who knows? While you're searching for them, if you feel so inclined, investigate it. "
At Kazuma trying to push something even more troublesome on her, Kirika turned to him a glare full of blame.
"Hey, it's not like I have that much spare time. Even if you request an investigation from me, we still don't have a prospect"
"This and that are different. This is for the Special Information Storage Room and it's an issue of maximum priority. "
It was a fair argument. This man, when it's advantageous for him, won't hesitate to do some whitewashing.
"Besides, it's not like there isn't any compensation. If you find their whereabouts before they start to move, the Kannagi will owe you big time. That's sweet. "
"-----That's if we can find them. "
"Well, anyhow, do your best"
"You too. "
At that reply, Kazuma, who said so over his shoulder like it was someone else's problem, frowned involuntarily.
"Why do I have to be involved in such a troublesome thing no matter what? I was supposed to have a little income by exorcising ghosts with one hand and spend my life in tranquility and peace "
"You're such a.....", sighed Kirika astonished at Kazuma's lower middle class-like ambition, excessively unconscious of his own position.
"You can state that as much as you want but it's impossible. No matter how you think about it, you were born under the star of upheaval. "
"What a thing to say. How rude. "
Asking so with a tone of forced resentment, Kazuma left his seat.
"In any case, I count on you. More that the fact that the Suzerain requested it, you don't have the choice to stay out of it. "
While concealing his the feelings on facial expression by casting his eyes down, his lips raised as if smiling.
From those lips, a voice so flat it could give one shudders came out.
"Because right now it's not the time to do that. "
"............."
While Kirika didn't say anything, Kazuma left the room.
Left alone, she continued to stare at the door Kazuma left through for a very long time with a pained gaze.
Suddenly her eyes dropped on the table.
With more than half left, vapor frequently rose from the cooking.
But, no matter how vibrant the colors looked, how delicious the smell was, the appetite that was totally eradicated could not be revived.
"Speaking like you're not caught up in this is forced, you know...."
She remembered. That one moment his mask failed and his honest face peaking from underneath.
So empty it made her shudder, so ghastly and sorrowful beyond comparison ---- that kind of face.
"I really.......entrust this to you, Ayano-chan"
Part 2
Dream
That was, a dream.
"Otou-sama, Okaa-sama, I was able to do Senga Kyuren (trad. Nine Verse Pierce Fang) !"
The time when she was an innocent girl, when she didn't know anything and not knowing was permitted.
"Ooh, well done << >>! You have maybe more talent than my sons, no? "
The strong, gentle father.
"You did your best << >>. But you are a girl so you must learn to be more couteous, right? "
The beautiful mother.
And then, although competing with each other for the Successor position, the brothers with a close relationship.
A happy, perfect world.
Satisfied in just about everything, with nothing to complain about, the passing of day after day, all peaceful ---
But, that was a dream.
The memory of very, very distant paradise she was parted with----
"Haaah! "
As if trying to shake off the past, Xiaolei earnestly swung Kokusen in the uninhabited dojo.
She had no time to yearn for memories, all that was left to her was her body, Kokusen entrusted to her by her father and ---
"Without exception, I will take revenge! "
Only that thought, in was similar with obsession.
She needed power. Above all else. --- No matter what she must sacrifice to get it.
Juugo said to rather overcome weakness rather than simply discard it. But, she does not have time enough to do that.
No matter how you gloss it over, women are <<weak>> things. When it comes to their motion ability, they are inferior to men.
She could not recognize that weakness, accept it and then overcome it.
She just lost everything.
Without even that scrap of power she has, she would be degraded to a powerless girl.
Right now she wanted a more reliable strength than that idealistic thought. She didn't care about anything else.
She understood what Juugo was trying to say.
The blade that was pointlessly chipped off, instead of obtaining the utmost firmness and sharpness, will loose its tenacity and become brittle.
But she was fine with that.
Foe example, if she were smashed in just one swing, if she could cut the enemy's life at the same time , she'll count it as a win.
"I'll definitely kill --- to make my father's, my mother's, my brothers' regret disappear, with this hand! "
Thinking only such heartbreaking thoughts, Xiaolei continued to wield the spear.
More faster, more sharper, she honed her body and heart to the utmost limit ---
"You work hard, huh"
"-------!! "
At the sudden voice Xiaolei turned in one motion. At the same time she turned to confront the instant enemy, she set up Kokuzen including a frozen, frank intent to kill.
But the girl the spear was trusted at, didn't show any reaction towards it.
At the entrance of the dojo, her shoulder touching the gate that remained opened, lightly leaning against it, she looked at Xiaolei with folded arms.
"What do you want---"
"It's not good to train too much ---- Or is this a diversion? "
Smoothly averting the unfriendly question, the girl --- Ayano, continued talking.
As if poked in a painful spot, Xiaolei shut her mouth.
Even she didn't expect this kind of practice full of idle thought ho have results, rather she understood it could be harmful.
But, even so ---
"Well, I think I understand the feeling of not being able to motionlessly stay in one place but don't destroy the dojo, okay?"
For Ayano that was nothing more but a silly joke.
But for Xiaolei agonizing over her own weakness, she could only hear those words full of severe sarcasm.
".....is that, sarcasm? "
"----Ha? "
"Is it an insinuation that I cannot perfectly control Kokusen!? "
The girl screamed with a violent emotion.
She understood deep in her heart that she was venting her anger but even so she did not stop.
The reality she was unable to change, the sense of helplessness she could do nothing about, she pushed all that onto Ayano and scowled at her with the intent to kill.
"..................."
In silence, Ayano accepted that glint in the eye --- unexpectedly, her gaze spontaneously slipped away, with a smooth motion.
Without showing vigilance to the girl who was about to spring at her at any moment, she calmly took off her her stockings, entered the dojo and walked to the wall.
And then, she took a six feet wood cane hanging on the wall and threw it at Xiaolei.
She took a wooden sword for herself and nimbly swung it to ascertain its weight.
"For now, I think there's a more meaningful way to use your time instead of worrying by yourself endlessly and become unable to control your urge to destroy, no?"
The point of the wooden sword was exactly aiming at Xiaolei's eye.
The distance between was roughly three meters. For a sword that was rather far but for a cane that was already within reach.
"You, do you think you can be my opponent? ", declared Xiaolei with unconcealed contempt to Ayano who suggested they become sparring partners.
In spite of doing nothing but run away from her attacks during yesterday's fight.
What's more, even if Ayano were to say "Let's stop then", right now she didn't felt like stopping.
She wouldn't pardon her even if Ayano turned her back on.
--- This is what <<picking a fight>> means.
"I'll beat you up until you're unable to stand and never will you treat me with contempt! "
Without restraining that boiling ferocious impulse, Xiaolei grasped the cane tightly. And then ---
"Haa! "
Without signaling the start, she fired a sudden thrust with all her strength. The aim was the throat.
Clearly exceeding the practice level, it was a blow meant to kill.
But, without showing surprise, Ayano lightly shifted the wooden sword and handled it. Even the next attack, extremely easily.
But even so, without pausing her hands, Xiaolei continued to wield the spear.
The girl's tactics were exceedingly standard. In any case, capitalizing on the lengthy distance, she increased her attack from a place where the enemy's hits couldn't reach.
It was simple but there were few gaps. Those thrusts that attached more importance to numbers that power was turning so quickly it seemed it's pointed end was split in several ones and didn't allow the opponent to get closer.
Thus, since the opponent's sword couldn't shorten the distance, she could never be defeated.
Rather than attacking, Xiaolei continued to stab like she was molding a <<wall>> that defended against the invader enemy before her eyes.
Of course, she couldn't continue that move eternally but her limit was still very far.
"If I hit once it's the end"
It doesn't matter where. At the very least she must disorder her posture.
After that, regardless of consent or refusal, if she can continue hitting her, in three seconds her bloodstained lump of meat will lie down on the floor.
Her cheeks distorted with a dark joy, Xiaolei attacked incessantly without break.
But, immediately following ---
Ghan!
With a clear sound, the pole was thrown up right overhead.
Ayano who until now continued to ward off the attack with lowest movement, suddenly and forcefully brushed away the cane.
Although Xiaolei's posture was only slightly thrown out of order, she quickly brought back the cane.
But matching the timing of her returning, Ayano reduced the distance.
"You---! "
Xiaolei unleashed the thrust away cane once more. But as if matching that, Ayano too swung right in front the wood sword.
Because her posture was inadequate, the power of Xiaolei's blow was somewhat weaker.
Conversely Ayano's attack was a blow with plenty body strength behind it.
The wooden sword with a superior power , at the same time it adverted the cane's trajectory, it advanced as if gliding on that surface and with unparalleled accuracy guided by the cane it faced Xiaolei.
It was a blow that was both offensive and defensive. Understanding her unavoidable defeat in front of the wooden sword drawing near her eyes, Xiaolei unintentionally closed her eyes.
"Kuh.................................?"
But, no matter how much time passes the impact doesn't come. Timidly opening her eyes ---
"Wha!? "
Before her eyes, or rather leaving a millimeter gap in the space between her eyes and the pointed end, the wooden sword was thrust.
It skillfully stopped just before her.
Traditional fencing, because of the hardness of the skull and its roundness and because the blade cannot follow it properly, is a school that avoids striking <<the face>> but for Ayano, the successor of Enraiha, something like that it's irrelevant.
In front of that overwhelming destructive power, no matter how solid a bone is, for her it's the same as thin paper. It's impossible to protect the fragile brain inside.
That's right, without a doubt, this is a certain fatal wound --- which means she was perfectly defeated.
"Kuuh......", moaned Xiaolei biting her lips in disgrace.
Looking up, in her field of vision divided in two parts by the wooden sword, Ayano was watching intently this way.
That facial expression was thoroughly tranquil and no joy for paying yesterday's debt could be felt.
--- As though, the victory was obvious and the necessity to be glad was found nowhere.
"Huh---- Kazuma said so yesterday but Xiaolei doesn't display any technique. It is beyond monotonous. You shouldn't be negligent thinking you'll win and should aim at varying your attack a bit more"
In addition she took the role of mentor and went as far as to point out her faults.
At that humiliation that burned her entire body, the hand holding the cane trembled.
In truth, she understood it yesterday. That this girl was clearly more stronger than she.
Or to put it another way, she was weaker even than this girl.
Weaker.
Weaker that Kannagi Ayano, waker than Yagami Kazuma,
and then weaker that Christian Roengram,
weaker that Gaia.
"Why........"
In spite of having to kill her enemies no matter what, she cannot bring them down --- she does not have the power to do so.
"Why.......why am I, so weak? "
That sorrowful wailing reverberated in the dojo.
"................"
Unable to find appropriate words, Ayano was silent.
It wasn't just words.
She could do nothing for this wounded girl
In spite of the fact she couldn't let it continue like this, she couldn't skillfully speak, and even though she knew it would be absolutely clumsy to neglect the way Xiaolei was right now, she did not know what to do.
Ayano too has the experience of important people getting killed.
But, in her case before her anger at the killers had time to brew in resentment and the desire for revenge, everything was settled.
Therefore Ayano couldn't sympathize with the dark passion of an avenger and the "I'll kill him even if I have to sacrifice everything" kind of thoughts.
For this reason, she was able to stop the rampaging Kazuma who was swallowed once in a torrent of those kind of thoughts but --- also for this reason she couldn't say anything to Xiaolei, one step away from loosing it.
".........On this occasion, it should be good to have a talk with Kazuma, huh? "
"What? "
At the proposal she unexpectedly thought of, Xiaolei grimaced dissatisfied from the bottom of her heart.
"What will talking with that frivolous man do for me? "
"No, well --- he is certainly frivolous and there's nothing you can do about it normally "
Even though she readily agreed, Ayano added a sentence Xiaolei found unpardonable.
"But he once planned his revenge and then, he accomplished it. "
"Wha--? "
She saw yesterday that he was a model-like frivolous and thoughtless man that didn't even know the word revenge so Xiaolei opened her eyes wide.
But quickly curved her lips in cynicism and declared with scorn.
"Well, for him revenge comes easy no matter who the opponent is. Or rather, with so much power at his disposal he wasn't able to protect what was important? "
At Xiaolei, sneering at what a careless guy he was, Ayano showed an unbelievably bitter smile.
"It wasn't like that. Because back then Kazuma wasn't a Jutsushi but only a normal person. "
"What........? He wasn't, a Jutsushi? "
"You heard yesterday about him being a direct descendant of Kannagi, right? But, he was completely lacking when it comes to the ability of Enjutsu.
That's why, because he was judged to be incompetent and useless he was driven out of the family. "
"Wha......that means......."
At the cruel history that couldn't even be guessed from Kazuma right now, Xiaolei lost her words.
Looking straight at her, Ayano talked without stopping.
"He left the house, fortuitously met his loved one, lost even that and then obtained power for the sake of revenge. Although I don't know the particulars. "
"....................................................................I see"
At the end of a very long silence, Xiaolei murmured so, quietly.
That was surprising.
Every man has his history but that kind of man lacking sincerity was burdened with such a heavy past.
"So, what's up with that? "
"Eh? "
At the sudden retort, Ayano stared in wonder.
"I sympathize with his past. But then, what kind of advantage would I gain from talking to him? Should I ask him about revenge know-how?
But, after all, he succeeded in his revenge because he had enough power to do so, nothing more that that, right? "
That's right. After all, it was only that.
Kazuma won because he was stronger. And because she was weaker she couldn't win.
That was like a mathematic formula, a cruel but impartial logic.
There is no place for sentiments to cut it, nothing tricks can overthrow. Therefore, there's no point talking with Kazuma.
Xiaolei concluded so but Ayano shook her head together with a bitter smile.
"It's not like that -- even after carrying out his revenge Kazuma can properly live on, don't yo see? But in your case, nothing comes to mind after revenge. "
"------you mean, you don't thing I'll succeed? "
"No, can't you see I'm not talking about success or failure --- it's about what will you do after you finish your revenge. I just cannot imagine any kind of vision after. "
"................."
Xiaolei completely couldn't understand what Ayano was trying to say. ---- No, she rather wanted to deny that reasoning.
In any case, entrusting herself to the boiling discomfort, she bluntly said over her shoulder.
"I don't know what that means. Besides, that is inconsequential. "
"Hmmm, I see"
Ayano tilted her head to the side in confusion. But because she herself didn't accurately knew what she was trying to say, she let it go.
Taking advantage of that, Xiaolei forcibly changed the subject.
"By the way, on what kind of guy did he took his revenge? Since he needed so much power? It was by some chance someone famous? "
"Aah--- yeah---- from what I heard it was Erwin Leszar"
"Hee--, that seems like a big-shot"
Xiaolei was calmly throwing in the appropriate words in the conversation but when the meaning of that name permeated through her brain, all blood ran from her face.
"......eeh? "
"I'm telling you, Erwin Leszar. The one from <<Almagest>>. But then I only heard this from another person and didn't check it with Kazuma"
".......Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!? "
With the biggest shock she had since she came to Japan, Xiaolei screamed to her heart's content.
"Aah----, by the way"
Several minutes were required for Xiaolei to regain her composure.
Trying to soothe one way or another the girl who drew closer and grabbed her, pressing question after question, there was something Ayano worried about ever since she peeked inside the dojo.
"Are these the same clothes as yesterday?
"It can't be helped, right? I didn't have enough composure to bring a change of clothes. "
"........then, your underwear? "
"........."
Xiaolei replied in silence at Ayano asking even more questions.
Unintentionally Ayano looked at the ceiling.
After several seconds, with a facial expression wondering what to decide, she quickly declared:
"Let's go shopping"
"--------------------ha? "
"It's not ha?, right? A girl with nothing more but the clothes on her back! No matter how much you pretend to be a man, there's no need to go so far and imitate a man's sloppiness! "
Talking on and on in an indignant tone to the dumbfounded Xiaolei, she turned a critical glance all over her clothes.
"Anyway, you must get ready to change close immediately. I'm telling you, you have no right to refuse. If you like, it's fine to borrow from me --- "
Ayano stared at Xiaolei's physique -- especially the area around her chest.
"The size doesn't seem to fit"
"I'm sooo sorry! --- no, not even that, carelessly going shopping in this kind of situation -- are you baka? "
Although overpowered by the force that won't take no for an answer, Xiaolei eagerly tried to rebut.
As expected, because she wasn't very familiar with insults in the Japanese language, her way of speaking was pretty direct but Ayano didn't give a damn.
"Then, what will you do? We don't know how many days it will take to settle things with those guys and you plan to wear the same clothes all the way? "
".....I'm properly washing my underwear. "
"What of it? As piece of mind that's a complete failure----"
Ayano relentlessly knocked down the whispered objection.
"Besides, there's nothing we can do at the present. We don't even know the enemies' whereabouts. "
At present, Kazuma and the Special Information Storage Room were investigating in all directions.
For Ayano, an Enjutsushi, and Xiaolei, whose investigating ability was good but who couldn't oppose the enemy by herself there was nothing to do but be on stand-by until the result will appear.
"Then, it's preferable to pro-actively go out and maybe they will be lured to attack and the development can be speed up. "
"Just the two of us? "
"Of course, I'm calling Kazuma too. If we are really attacked, it would be difficult if it's just the two of us. "
".......I understand. Let's go. "
After a silence of a few seconds when she seemed to think of something, Xiaolei nodded shortly.
Part 3
"---So, why do I have to accompany the two of you shopping? "
The summoned Kazuma was pouting as expected. He was called out for a diversion that could lure out the enemy so it was only natural.
"But, we can't help it. Because this child came to Japan with only what she's wearing. "
"Then lend her some of yours", replied Kazuma without but after suddenly looking at Xiaolei's body, especially her chest, he shook his head.
"Impossible, huh? "
"........Are you picking a fight, you guys? "
Xiaolei glared with angered eyes at the two.
It must be one's imagination but her glint in the eye thick with thirst for blood was more intense than their first meeting.
"Why is she so angry? "
"Because I already made that joke"
"Hmm, I see. It's no good telling a joke twice, yeah "
Kazuma nodded solemnly. But, of course, that kind of attitude could only rub Xiaolei the wrong way even more.
"you.....guys.....!"
"But well --- there's that, right? "
Plainly disregarding the reaction of the angered girl, Kazuma continued.
"You shouldn't be that pessimistic, no? In this world there are guys who worship smaller than small, AA"
"What do you mean? "
"What, you ask? Boobs"
"I'll kill you! "
While blushing at the too straightforward answer, Xiaolei fired Kokusen while it was still covered.
Extremely easy, Kazuma avoided that. Even more than that, he even stopped the wind blade that was about to be released impulsively from the sacred treasure before it happened.
It seems that he got the hang of it from yesterday's fight.
The exasperated Xiaolei didn't even notice the significance of it.
"Uuuu........I'm....I'm going back! ", she screamed halfway crying as the attack she fired in a frenzy was completely avoided.
Even when taking a rougher attitude, after all she had the upbringing of an Ojou-sama and wasn't used being ridiculed this way.
But, Ayano quickly grabbed the girl's hand about to run.
"Wait please. What about the clothes I should buy if you're not there? "
"Buy some suitable ones! "
"No. Leaving clothes aside, I can't conjecture the size of your underwear. If you wear a bra that's not fit for you, even if they are small, your breasts will get smaller "
"Don't say small! "
"That's right. Besides the shape will be ruined. Breast that are shaped poorly beside being small won't even be noticed by perverts who like small breasts. "
"Who is a fetish for perverts!? "
In a tone as if she was biting, Xiaolei turned over almost twisting her neck.
This time she drew closer to Ayano.
"You, aren't you too good a match for this guy!? "
"No, this is all thanks to you"
"---------ha? "
At the uncertain response, Xiaolei stared in wonder.
Thereupon, Ayano send a gaze full of gratitude towards the girl --
"It's because I'm always in the situation of him messing around with me. This is the first time I experience such calmness when being together with Kazuma. Thank you, everyone! "
That was said in a tone loaded with a flow of emotions.
The girl that was used in a totally different manner from the way a decoy should, warped her lips, pained from the bottom of her heart, and spat out.
"........you're the worst, both of you......."
--- And then, approximately three hours after.
Changed in the clothes she just bought -- obstinately men's wear --- appearing to have exhausted all her energy, Xiaolei sat down dead tired on one of the benches in the rest area.
"......this is only shopping but.......but why is it so....."
"A woman's shopping is lengthy, isn't that general knowledge? ", said Kazuma not seeming to be worn-out.
Incidentally, Ayano, still full of vitality, after finishing buying clothes for Xiaolei, was bustling about here and there searching clothes for her.
".......I, I never felt so tired before when shopping. "
"That's---- since you're the Fuan family's Ojou-sama I imagine that conversely, the stores employers would ask how to be of use. How could that be tiring? " ` "......is that wrong? "
"No? Think about it like the inferiority complex of a poor person and don't mind it. "
".................."
Xiaolei glared at Kazuma in silence. It's inevitable that all of this man's speech and conduct hit a nerve every time.
"Besides, why aren't you tired? "
"Because if you don't have to put someone in a good humor it's the same like taking a stroll. When the shopping companion gets tires it's almost invariably mental fatigue."
If one were to simply speak during the exercise the degree of weariness due to shopping can be disregarded.
In spite of this, if even adult males give up on this it means the emotional fatigue is very great.
For example, if one were made to accompany someone to an unfamiliar place which was very uncomfortable and made to endlessly compare clothes with a <<which one suits me most～>>, a trivial word can become fatal, that sort of thing.
But, Kazuma naturally doesn't humor Ayano and for example if he were to accompany her to a lingerie shop, instead of being calm he would be very shameless so he wouldn't get tired.
"........how long will this continue? "
"Until Ayano is satisfied, of course. Ask the person itself for a specific time. "
"................"
At that careless answer, Xiaolei let out a small sigh. And then, she suddenly looked at her feet.
There were two paper bags full of clothes there.
What she bought --- rather, what she was made to buy was three times the amount but everything that wasn't necessary for the time being was ordered to be delivered home.
Beyond the fact that the danger of an attack wasn't low, she couldn't move under all those baggage.
By the way, Kazuma was empty handed.
Not even Ayano would dream this man could accept to carry luggage so she didn't ask him from the beginning.
As a matter of fact Xiaolei was grateful for the shopping.
For her who escaped with nothing else in her hands but Kokusen, of course she didn't had clothes to change in but nothing remained after her traveling expenses.
--- But, even so.
"Geez, does she really understand the situation, that woman? "
"Hmm, I wonder", replied Kazuma in a vapid tone.
That attitude seemed to have even less tension than Ayano's and Xiaolei reflexively grimaced.
In spite of possessing so much power, he wasn't self-conscious of the duty that accompanied that power.
He was frivolous and lacked sincerity --- she was also jealous of him maybe but Xiaolei didn't think this man was suitable to have power.
But, even if that was true, she could not ignore him.
She has something she must ask him no matter what. Because that was the reason she went along with this shopping.
Without looking at Xiaolei, she said while looking at the floor.
"........Yagami"
"Hmm? "
"It seems that once, you lived for the sake of revenge, right? "
".........Aah"
Kazuma instantly shifted his attention to where Ayano was, but answered shortly as if he didn't heard something unnecessary.
Once again, Xiaolei asked directly.
"Do you regret it? "
"No"
"-----Are you satisfied? "
"No"
At the second question, Kazuma replied in exactly the same manner.
At that reply you could read nothing into, Xiaolei probed his facial expression with a side glance and asked again.
"Then, why? "
"Because there was nothing else to do. "
"Wha--- did you kill him for that half-baker reason, that Erwin Leszar? "
"Aah--- I killed him, I killed him. "
Warding off Xiaolei's criticism with a nonchalant air, Kazuma declared thoroughly frivolous.
"I chopped him until his body turned to lumps of nothing more that a hundred grams, his soul was taken by the devil he had contracted with and dragged to the bottom of hell. Right now he's being used like a slave or his power returned to its origins and he was terminated, one of these two"
Remembering the spectacle that time, Kazuma laughed with a simmering happiness and took the opportunity to ask.
"So, what of it? "
".....Previously, I heard about that man from father. He greatly admired him. He said it wasn't an exaggeration to call him the all-time high genius of magic. "
Kazuma was silent. but, without minding it, Xiaolei continued.
"He's the man who lay the foundation of present day magic. He was born anew these last three hundred years, and possibly all resurrection Jutsu and most theories, they all originate from him.
Din you have the right to kill that kind of genius? "
"If I think about what you're trying to say----"
Letting out a small laughter, Kazuma shrugged his shoulders.
"Then, what about you? "
"What? "
"For example, if that odd couple killed your entire family for the sake of the greater good, would you forgive them? "
"That's......."
For an instant Xiaolei faltered. But that was definitely not because she was hesitating.
That's right, hesitating it's unthinkable.
It's impossible to hesitate.
No matter the reason, even if the entire world would recognize their actions as justified ----
"That's how it is. Whether it's righteousness or reason, those have no connection to revenge.
For example, even if what he did would bring permanent peace to this world, at that time, if Tsoi Rin had to be sacrificed no matter what to save the world from destruction, who cares about that? "
Kazuma spun his words in that voice so flat it made one shiver.
"No matter what, I cannot forgive him. I cannot allow a world where Tsoi Rin dies but he gets to live carefree. No matter how many chances I will be given, I would only choose one way. No matter by what means, I will invariably kill him. "
"You........."
Faced with that expressionless mask <<being>> in front of her, Xiaolei muscles along the spine shivered.
Already saturated by hatred and resentment, because those became its normal state, it became expressionless without the possibility of change.
Together with a shudder, Xiaolei perceived that by instinct.
That was the result she would arrive at.
"What's with that 「Because there was nothing else to do」 crap? "
She understood that frivolous reason for revenge was a lie. Because, although she didn't arrived at the end of it, Xiaolei was following the same road.
"That was like--- 「I could think of nothing else but revenge」! "
"What's the matter? "
"Whaaa!? "
At that sudden, easy-going tone of voice, Xiaolei jumped up from the bench, her fright laid bare.
Turning around, that frozen expressionless that was there was already gone and the same aimless, cynical smile was looking here.
"Wha--- what so suddenly? "
"It's not what right? You were to one to open the discussion so don't get lost in your own world in the middle of it? "
"Uu......"
It was a very plausible identification so Xiaolei mumbled, having no way to object.
But, she didn't feel like continuing. If she were to continue she would come to realize without wanting to.
That for the sake of carrying out her revenge she must also become so.
She understood only one fragment of it, but her heart was swaying this much.
If she were to know even more, she will maybe become incapable of carrying out her revenge.
"No, I---"
Adverting her eyes as if trying to escape, Xiaolei searched for an excuse to interrupt the conversation.
But Kazuma, looking like he didn't understood that, asked cheerfully like it was an ordinary conversation.
"What did Ayano say to you? "
"Eeh? "
"Hmm? You heard it from her, no ～ about me"
"Eeh, ah, aah --- that's---- yeah"
"So, by making me the example, what did she say to you? That revenge is meaningless, that your deceased family doesn't wish for something like that, did she say that kind of whitewashing? "
"Ah, no, it wasn't like that-----"
While clumsily narrating it, Xiaolei felt something close to relief.
The contents of this conversation are not easy but compared with the continuation of the one before, it was by far preferable.
Leaving her vigor take its natural course, before she realized it, she even talked about the details of the fight where she lost to Ayano, which was supposed to be unrelated.
And Kazuma was not the kind of person to overlook such a thing.
"I see, you lost even to Ayano. You seem to only be loosing. If you use a false name, you should call yourself <<looser dog>> from now on! "
"Don't give me names! Rather, more that that, what was that about? Do you understand what she tried to say? "
As expected, she was bothered about it a little so she pressed the question, pretending like she thought about it, but Kazuma faintly smiled bitterly.
"Frankly, that was surprising. The fact that she pondered about something to that extent, no, she didn't think about it saying I cannot explain this.
She just somehow noticed it with her wild sixth sense. "
If so it's very typical of her -- Xiaolei obstinately asked Kazuma agreeing by himself.
"What does it mean? "
"Don't mind it."
"I do mind it! "
Pulled in so much, that reaction was natural.
But, Kazuma eluded the girl's investigation thoroughly.
"Even if i were to tell you right now, it would be meaningless. Because you will really only hear an <<inconsequential thing>>.
You can forget about it now. If you think about something you don't need, the blade will grow dull"
"..........."
She made a face like she didn't agree in the least but at the same time she understood Kazuma had no intention of confessing.
Although reluctantly, Xiaolei gave up on the investigation.
But even Kazuma, it's not like he didn't teach because he was malicious or rather didn't teach her just because he was malicious.
What Ayano was trying to say regarding her <<what lies beyond revenge>> --- if she were to present it in a more embarrassing but easy to understand manner, one would be reminded of words like <<tomorrow>> and <<hope>>, the illustration of a facing forward anticipated future.
In a word, the action that is not connected to the future is barren.
Taking your revenge is splendid but after you finish it you must earnestly become happy no matter what.
She feared for Xiaolei not because of the act of revenge itself but for Xiaolei's attitude of throwing everything away for the sake of revenge and not looking back.
Compared with the revenge is useless bullshit, it was something much more thoughtful but, after all, was nothing but lip service from someone whose body wasn't scorched in hatred.
Besides, if the person was able to focus on the future he wouldn't plan such a back facing deed from the beginning.
Therefore, right now he couldn't talk with Xiaolei about such things.
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