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==Arakune Short Story "The Diary"==
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Day 1

I've started a brand new journal. Anything that's new is always a good thing. Since I'm not the kind that's methodical, as this journal progresses the entries might get sloppier and sloppier. Today they started discussing a new particle that could completely destroy seithr without requirng seithr itself. I'm not entirely sure who brought it up but they started to discuss that, even though it was obvious they were just going around in circles. Being surrounded by their rock-like faces, and having to seat in that room's uncomfortable chairs was so annoying. After I told her this she started laughing. I didn't really think it was that funny, but I hadn't laughed in a while so I laughed along with her.


Day 2

Today she strangely came to wake me up. I'm not a morning person so at first it was pretty annoying, but she grabbed my hand and dragged me into the E5 lab. When I asked her what had happened in here, she pointed to a one of the cases and the kid inside had... well. She being so transparent makes her personality easy to understand. She hasn't been discriminatory about the going ons here so far, but I think she took that one to heart. Me and her both understood there was nothing more we could do. I did my best to comfort her, but she still seemed desolate. I think I prefer working.


Day 5

I'm not in a good mood today. I'll spit it out completely in here. In every way we are unable to comprehend one another, that woman and I. Honestly speaking I don't hate that woman as a person. I'm not sure if calling that woman a person is a good thing or not.

There's a part of me that's indebted to her, also it's not as if I can't understand what she's saying, and for some reason or another I understand her viewpoint and way of thinking. The only thing is... perhaps I should say there's this part of me which is definitely unable to get along with her. Somehow that woman has too much common sense for her own good. You could say she's very smart. You could also say she comes from a good lineage. However, it doesn't mean that she's excessively obstinate about what she does. In that way that a person is born with nothing, and has to gain knowledge while pruning off the bad stuff, with the idea of practicality in mind other people's ideas are rejected. How tiresome.

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Day 6

Recently no matter how much I sleep I still still feel tired. Besides fatigue I also feel anxious. Sometimes I even find myself forgetting what am I doing here. I think I really need to pull myself together or everything will be in vain.


Day 13

I've managed to get a little free time for myself. As far as possible I'd like to write daily. Because I've been busy and also that woman is being a pain in the ass, I've gotten a lot more unhappy. At those times, she would always tell me to not give up and encourage me. I'd really like to thank her but, I wonder why she does it... Somehow or another i think it's because she's working directly under that woman and she's doing pretty well. However to get depressed would be bad. Everytime that happens I always feel like I'm just a regular person, no, even if that is so, I wish to think I'm not just that. So I'm going to work my socks off . That's how I'm different from that woman.


Day 14

I caught a cold. She came to visit and helped me out with various tasks.


Day 32

I made a discovery. It's was a dramatic one and I lost track of time because I was too immersed into it. I've already summarized the general outline into a report, but I'll just briefly scribble the points here as well. Currently even though it's true nature and form has yet to be determined, many people still are able to use seithr, however the old school of thought that seithr is just a form of magic converted from life force is wrong. Seithr actually is ____________ In other words our current research into Ars Magus is equivalent to _______, which means it's the same as that thing. Yes, which is why that woman who refuses to use Ars Magus doesn't understand. Don't tell me she's deliberately refusing to assess the idea that __________ (The entry is cut off midway rather unnaturally.)


Day 35

Why do they not understand, why doesn't that woman understand? As I've already said, this is a discovery that was lurking in the blind spot of our research.

When it's the genius talking, and because a lot was said that today I feel it deeply. I definitely feel it. Firstly, only taking a light glance at it, then rejecting it as if some kind of dirt had touched it. Have you seriously stopped to think about it? It's possible. So why deny that possibility exists? If you have an answer within you then prove it to me. Something has to be done about that strange person. I've alwats felt that that woman is a strange one. Even if due to the deparment's spike in ability she may be a genius but that is different. In spite of being called a god that woman is useless. That woman is useless.


Day 42

Today I threw myself into work only. She read my paper seriously, but she didn't even give a nod. Is it not that woman but me who's become strange? Those old scholars also treat me like some strange person more and more. If those people are really saying that they should have spoken the truth to me right? Have I been mistaken all this time? Even though there is evidence here.

(The evidence mentioned, appears to be something written over 10 pages starting from this page, however what exactly it's trying to point out is unknown.)


Day 43

It's alright, I still haven't disappeared yet. It se ms t ey haven't noticed the extensive swelling. It would be disastrous if it were to show on the surface so that's a relief. The transformed pattern is automatically not rejecting the suppresion. That is_________


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Why can't I use it, even though I'm so close to the truth. Although I'm close, if I use that I don't know if I'll be able to escape. Even though I'm unable to do it, why don't you understand? Go through the pipe, someday the directive for going through the pipe will come. Stop hammering, it's noisy, how many years have passed since then, I can escape it, then that's useless, those damned idiots, wrong, I am. Someday we'll go down, godowngodowngodown and draw patterns of the depth's interval _________________________

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Stop getting in my way!


Day 51

Today I composed my thoughts once more. Today I had a little doubt about the design of the patterns so I omitted several vital parts in the previous entries. Right now humanity is flowing like blood, I'll explain now. It's become like this. Firstly about anti-seithr, it's the same phenomenon as the phenomenon of the Ars Magus phenomenon. To compensate for this ___ definitely the dangerous Azure which no one has noticed I'd do it once, eventually I want to skillfully, skillfully, do it. I'll have to discreetly do _________ thing ___ and that ______ was unexpected. Different from Ars Magus. Different from those Library vermin's Ars Magus. The huge Azure and azure's ______ bursts open, and the relief that forms quickly grows big, definitely rarely big so you cannot not notice it. Drawing near is dangerous, so first I have to extract that from the rear. It's directly close to the spine.If I rush there I'll die, that's for certain. After I extract the Azure ______ I'd really like to do that. I'll certainly have finally reached. I explained it with all my heart and soul, but no one is listening? to me it seems. So then I should just gently delete everyone. Gentlygentlygently___________

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