Editing Toaru Majutsu no Index:Biohacker Chapter6 (section)

===Part 2===

''They really haven’t found me,'' thought Mitsuari Ayu while finding herself capable of an unusually detached analysis of her situation.

Or maybe she had just numbed over.

She did not really know what it was she wanted.

No, she did know.

She wanted to be a Level 5. She wanted to break free of the rules placed on her by the grownups. She wanted to believe that she could accomplish a come-from-behind victory at the last second, no matter what any of the data said.

But that would not happen.

On the verge of death, Matsuo Ryuusuke had said he had failed, that Mitsuari was the reason he had failed, and that it all would have worked if he had only gone to Shokuhou instead. His opinion was thoroughly self-righteous and sinister, but that was why it rang so true. That must have been the unvarnished truth. Some people were chosen and some were not. Mitsuari Ayu happened to be in the latter category.

Her hopes and dreams would not come true.

Her efforts would not be rewarded.

This was not her first time facing this. And she had seen others face it as well. She had somehow survived in that lab, but those other children had not been so lucky and met bloody ends.

She had thought it was over.

She had believed she had escaped that.

But failure had a firm grasp on her life and would not let go.

It whispered in her ear that she had not been blessed with talent.

It smirked and tripped her up over and over.

So what would it be ''next time''?

“Yeah.”

Since she could walk around like this, L.S.S. President Matsuo Ryuusuke’s infectious stun weapon had to have worn off, so she was no longer under the effects of that fever-like delirium.

These thoughts were hers.

She had guided herself here out of a reluctance to face the despair.

A symbol of death lay before her eyes.

It had not been created for that purpose and she had first seen it only a bit ago.

But now she stared quietly at it.

And some words spilled from her mouth.

“''I wish I could just disappear''.”