Editing Masou Gakuen HxH:Volume 14 Chapter 5 (section)

===Part 1===
When I, Hida Setsuna finished my arithmetic homework, I turned off the desk’s power and closed and closed my notebook and textbook.

The lesson of primary grade school doesn’t consist of only drill. Subjects like language, arithmetic, science, and social studies are also normally included. I have no problem in any subject, things are going well right now.

……But perhaps I’m a little bit weak in language.

「Fua……aa」

I yawned.

Ah, it’s past ten.

「I’ve got to sleep……」

I went to the washroom and brushed my teeth, changed into pajama, and got on the bed.

After lying down for a while, I turned over several times.

Eh?

I can’t sleep…….

Even though I should be sleepy just now, I can’t sleep at all after getting into bed like this.

There will be practical skill class right from the morning tomorrow, so I have to sleep enough──perhaps it’s bad to think that, now I’m unable to sleep even more.

I half give up and opened my eyes to stare at the white ceiling.

──Will Onii-chan come to the training tomorrow…….

Apparently he is busy with missions recently. He doesn’t really come to the primary grade’s drill.

That’s fine if that’s the case.

He isn’t thinking of someone like me as little sister anyway, in the first place there is no doubt that he isn’t even thinking of me as human.

That’s why, he’s distant.

His attitude toward me is always like I’m a tumor.

Besides, if he’s thinking of me as a little sister, then he’ll be more affectionate with me. Even though he’s flirting all the time with other girls and Onee-chan.

For some reason it feels very irritating watching Onii-chan being like that and I always ended up angry.

……But, I think it can’t be helped.

After all, I’m not his actual little sister. Because I’m a child created from Nayuta and Thanatos who tried to destroy the world.

I have to be a normal human.

That’s why, I mustn’t let out a strange power like the match before this.

A strange power will come out by itself when I get absorbed or excited. That’s why usually I’m bearing in mind to not get angry or laughing as much as possible.

But, it’s no good with just that.

I’m not a normal human, so it’s not enough just being a normal good child. I have to be more competent, stronger, I have to show them that I’m useful.

If not, I’ll be an unneeded child. My place here will disappear.

「If only, I’m really his little sister……」

That mutter vanished into the darkness.

I understand that it’s useless thinking like that.

Both Onii-chan and Onee-chan doesn’t care about me at all.

Not just that, they might even feel disappointed.

That’s right. Surely it’s like that.

Because, Nayuta who became my origin should be an amazing genius and yet……I’m not a genius or anything. My grade is in top ranking but……but Nayuta had published thesis in the scientific society when she was around my age.

Even the other one Thanatos was a machine god of the strongest class. She was an amazing god who created the world, and yet……I can’t even cook my own food. I have someone in this dorm to cook for me and sleep without doing anything for it.

……Even though I’m not useful for anything.

Onii-chan praised me in the practical skill’s training but, I don’t think he’s honest.

Or perhaps, he has given up of me as a useless child, and he’s saying I’ve done well, for a useless child that is.

I want to be stronger, be useful for everyone, and become someone who is needed.

If I do that, then Onii-chan and Onee-chan,

They might,

……Recognize me as their true little sister.

That’s why, I want him to tell me honestly I’m no good if I’m no good in something.

Please don’t give up on me.

I’ll fix it properly.

I’ll become more capable to do anything properly.

I want you to tell me the truth, I also don’t want to be treated specially.

But……

If, he is really thinking of me as a little sister,

I want him to treat me more specially.

It’s lonely to only be able to meet occasionally.

……I want him to pay attention to me more.

Eh?

What, I’m thinking,

Is it,

the opposite…….