Editing HanTsuki:Volume 2 Chapter 1 (section)

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I put my hands on the fence, staring to the front, thinking if it is possible to go down to the balcony. I climb pass the chest-tall (?) fence and take a deep breathe. In the chilling wind of the winter, my hands and heart are turning very cold.

don-don-don...

Rika Akiba run down the stairs, her foot steps resonates in the void. The reddish ray of the sun shines from window near the ceiling, dyeing the stairs, walls and the girl with reddish paint. The long hair of the the girl is flying in the red light. The girl's hair is dancing, dancing like her illusory dream. That girl speaks to herself, idiot, what a big idiot! Her eyes are brimming with tear. The reason why Miss Tanizaki ask her to go up is kind of known in her heart. And she knows that the one who is waiting up there is not Tanizaki, but that idiot. If he beg for pardon, though a bit too hard, she is still going to give him a chance. Originally she planned not to forgive him so earlier and want to torture him a bit more. But he treat her like a dumb-head. He already has her, why does he need to store so many that kind of stuff? All the guys are idiot. Idiotic, perverted, shameless!

However, it is likely that she is running out of time.

And the time is passing quickly.

There is no other way out. She don't want to end like this. And that idiot cannot stand her avoidance anymore, as he turn hopeless lately. He is cute being like that, just a bit.

Therefore, she decided to forgive him.

Yup, she want to forgive him.

I sighed. I know this won't work, so I give up. It is more worthwhile to take a look over there. I sneeze again and again.

Gorō Natsume is standing beside the emergency exit.

The foot steps are getting closer and closer.

don-don-don, just like kicking the stairs away. It seems very angry. Here comes the foot steps beside Natsume. In order to hide from her, Natsume shrink very hard.

The foot steps passes through the emergent exit, fading in the ward of the west. Natsume laughs out loudly -- operation finished. If I left one minute later, it would be disastrous. Rika is very mad, the pair of cute eyes are shining with anguish.

I am very familiar with Rika's temper for I have met her such long a time. In this case, that kid will never be close with Rika again. Rika will not forgive him. Regardless of he kneeling down, crying out, Rika will never notice him again.

Natsume laughs out loudly, ever louder and louder, even cracking out, shrinking the whole body, laughing endlessly. Finally, it turns to a hysterical laugh.

My effort to plan the escape route was in vein. In the end, I completely give up on it. I decide to wait for the security guard, Mr Edogawa, petrol here and rescue me.

I kneel beside the water tower where no wind can reach. I snuffle, possibly due to the cold whether.

Or maybe it is due to sadness. "Rika, it is not my fault......"I murmured.

"Mr Uchida, that is not food, don't!"

Tanizaki is mad as always.

Patient are all capricious. They all think their lives are tragic, being capricious is reasonable. being dependent <ref>甘える, no direct translation to English. This is an act when people acting vulnerable, being dependent on someone. Just like kids sticking with their mother, begging for pats, asking for attention--these are 甘える.</ref> on the family is alright. After all, they are family of them.

But please don't do that to the nurses.

Nurses would want to treat the patient as well as possible. I was being called as the queen of Ise, or even the red devil -- but those are past. Now I am an angel in white.

Maybe it is very embarrassing and I have never ever mentioned it to anybody, after all, it is not that important. Actually, I dreamt to be a nurse when I was a kid, a pretty, kind and generous nurse.

Keep smiling.

Like an angel.

However, facing an old man, who has a severe diabetes, and has to go on strict diet, and if being not careful he may die. In this sense, when I see him hide up and eat sweets, smiling is just too impossible for me.

When they are discovered, they will even bring their sweets to run away. That is so terrible.

I would absolutely go mad.

"Give that to me, do you want to die!"

Shouting while chasing the running old man.

He has an armful of sweets, pile up like a little hill.

If he really eat them all, he would be dead.

Absolutely dead.

"Stop--eat--ing!"

"I--did---not!"

"Li--ar!"

"I--did--not! Real--ly--didn't!"

"wh--what are those? Those which you are holding?"

I really want to smile.

But now I can only shout, curse, chasing like a ghost. If the patient becomes afraid of me like that, it will not bad.

Afraid of her, listen to her, that then they can live longer.

That then they can leave the hospital earlier.

Their family will be quite happy, not to mention the patient themselves.

Therefore, to grab the sweets from the stubborn, troublesome Mr Uchida, I can only shout.

"You idiotic old man, if you don't want to die, hurry up and throw those things in you arms away!"

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I gaze up to the sky, a few magnitude one stars are shining in the winter starry sky when the last quarter moon slowly climb up the east of the sky.

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Natsume sits besides the emergency exit. Catching the voice calling to him, Dr. Natsume -- an imaginary voice. But Natsume did not stand up, keep on staring into space. The hysterical laugh fades away, leaving a face in blank.

Natsume puts his hands into the pocket of his jacket, pull out a lighter that he always carry around and squeezing on it.

His finger joints start to turn white as he put too much force on the lighter. Even so, Natsume is unconscious of it.

His eyes are staring far far away, onto a place which does not exist. Following that warmth, following that gentle voice. Even if he knows that it would never return, he stills follows it.

"Ayy!"

A sweet but imaginary voice sounded.

"Ayy!"

Natsume come back to conscious, look around, looks like panicking. However, projecting on his eye is not what he is seeking. Projecting on his eye is the door of the emergency exit which has peeling paint, the linoleum floor and the wall in white.

He showed a wry smile, only to blame his ignorance. Then the smile suddenly disappeared, turning into a fragile face of a bullied child. His lips keep moving, just like he is speaking.

However, the voice is too soft to be heard, not even himself.

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I am sitting against the water tower, hugging my kneels, gazing the last quarter moon far far away.

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The girl go back to her room.

Standing in the darkness.

looking at the books on the table besides the bed. There lies four books with the same title, same cover, just a difference in the number of the subtitle. Only the one with the number "1" is put beside the pillow.

Asking my mom to buy it instead of that idiot. Because it is a secret, one day, and until that day, I don't want him to know about it. I really am stupid for spending so much time and effort on it.

That is so shameful, really shameful. Tears flood out. The girl wipe the tears away hard, standing in front of the table and sweep all the books on it to the floor.

The book dropped and hit the floor with sound of "basa basa". She then raise the book beside the pillow up high. Throw it away, book, and everything, forget about them.

But her hand which raise the book stops in the air.

Staying still. 

Keep still.

Ten second or thirty second has passed, or even a minute...... The girl put down her hands, staring at the book cover.

Murmured in the darkness.

Baka! <ref>Idiot</ref>



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