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// Resources for SEEN6801.TXT #character 'Akio' #character 'Nagisa' #character '*B' #character 'Sanae' #character 'Yoshino' #character 'Yagi' #character 'Voice' #character 'Doctor' #character 'Sunohara' #character 'Nishina' #character 'Sugisaka' <0000> // And again, on such a busy day, we rested. <0001> // And because we worked so hard, we gave ourselves a present by spending our time being idle on the weekend. <--sounds more naturale. ;) -Hiiragi Kagami <0002> // On Sunday, the two of us went to Nagisa's house to show our faces. <0003> // People and their circumstances with others. <0004> // So that some day, I can go forward calmly. <0005> // If I notice, it could already be summer. <0006> // That day, while meeting with Pops, who was trying to suppress his sunburned face, he whispered to me. <0007> // \{Akio} "I'd like to talk about that." <0008> // \{Nagisa} "Having another secret discussion?" <0009> // \{Akio} "Nope, nothing at all." <0010> // \{Akio} "Look, go meet with Sanae." <0011> // \{Nagisa} "Yes. Well then, Let's go, \m{B}-kun." <0012> // Ouch, my arm is gripped by Pops. <0013> // \{\m{B}} "Ah... I... will come later." <0014> // \{Nagisa} "Huh? What's wrong?" <0015> // \{\m{B}} "Look, you, I want you to talk with Sanae-san." <0016> // It's the truth. Since yesterday evening, you've wanted to talk to her. <0017> // \{Nagisa} "Is that so? I understand. Although it would be okay to go later, I'll go now." <0018> // So she says, and walks into the house. <0019> // \{Akio} "Your bride is very simple." <0020> // \{\m{B}} "Your education of her is the reason for that." <0021> // \{Akio} "No, I'm talking about THAT, I'll show you." <0022> // He takes out a square envelope from his chest pocket. <0023> // \{Akio} "Do you see? \p Did you see? \p Can you see? \p Should we see? \p Should we see what we see?" <0024> // \{\m{B}} "Whatever, just go ahead and show them..." <0025> // \{Akio} "Hahaha, in such a hurry." <0026> // \{Akio} "Look here..." <0027> // Several photographs are removed from inside the envelope as it is opened. <0028> // On them are dazzling photographs of Nagisa in a waitress uniform. <0029> // After those, pictures of when they visited a family restaurant. <0030> // \{Akio} "Look at this time, what you do think of this angle?" <0031> // \{\m{B}} "You must have been lying on the floor when taking that one. The surrounding customers were pulled into it." <0032> // \{Akio} "Look, the height of this one..." <0033> // \{Akio} "I didn't miss when she bent in front of me, such an exciting picture to take." <0034> // I am amazed. <0035> // Doesn't Nagisa's chest look larger when looking from above? <0036> // Moreover, such smooth skin, from the expanded cleavage, I see straightaway. <0037> // \{\m{B}} "Wait, this..." <0038> // \{Akio} "What? Do you want it...?" <0039> // \{\m{B}} "Is it possible to make a photo-reprint?" <0040> // \{Akio} "However, you must not tell Nagisa, about the significance of these, as they are due to my power alone." <0041> // \{\m{B}} "I wouldn't be possible to tell, it's not right to interrupt one's work." <0042> // \{Akio} "Ah. Therefore this crawling on the floor, at times crawling out of windows, and acrobatic photography, is mine alone." <0043> // \{\m{B}} "You know... Pops." <0044> // \{Akio} "What..." <0045> // \{\m{B}} "P......" <0046> // \{\m{B}} "Please." <0047> // I was the one asking for them! <0048> // \{Akio} "Well... if you bastard want them so badly..." <0049> // \{\m{B}} "Very much want!" <0050> // \{Akio} "Anyhow, could you take your hands off of it? <0051> // \{Akio} "I understand, you're a very resourceful little one..." <0052> // \{Akio} "Here, here you are." <0053> // I grip the photograph. <0054> // That time. <0055> // The pounding of feet. <0056> // It sounded like someone running down the passage panicked. <0057> // \{Akio} "Wha..?" <0058> // After that, was Sanae-san asking "are you okay?" in such a worried voice. <0059> // I have an unpleasant premonition, and hurry to the passage. <0060> // There are two in the washroom. <0061> // \{\m{B}} "Nagisa, what's wrong?" <0062> // Nagisa places her hand in the washbasin, looking down. <0063> // \{Sanae} "It looks like she suddenly felt ill." <0064> // Sanae-san removed her hand from Nagisa's back as she responded. <0065> // \{Akio} "Oh, did you make a child? That's something to celebrate then." <0066> // The carefree voice of Pops came from behind me. <0067> // \{\m{B}} "That feeling could be worsened by such an easy-going..." <0068> // Right there I stopped what I was saying. <0069> // ... wait. Reconsider. <0070> // That's right, today Nagisa said she had something important to talk to Sanae-san about. <0071> // It was something that she couldn't tell me, but something she could only talk to Sanae-san about. <0072> // \{\m{B}} "........." <0073> // \{Akio} "Damn, if I had that ability, wouldn't I already be that way?" <0074> // \{Sanae} "It seems that she was able to do it." <0075> // \{Akio} "What?" <0076> // \{Sanae} "A child." <0077> // \{Akio} "What? Mine?" <0078> // \{Sanae} "No. Nagisa's and \m{B}-san's." <0079> // \{Sanae} "Congratulations." <0080> // With words of blessing to us, Sanae-san clasped my hand... <0081> // \{Akio} "Wait just a moment, Sanae!" <0082> // Pops was caught off guard. <0083> // \{Akio} "This guy and Nagisa were doing naughty things while sleeping, for that's the only way a child can be made!" <0084> // \{\m{B}} "Um, no..." <0085> // Could it be ... I break out in a deluge of sweat. <0086> // \{Akio} "If you didn't do naughty things, then why is it possible?! Are you saying the stork will carry one over?!" <0087> // \{Akio} "Surely this is a misunderstanding! Tell me it's a false alarm." <0088> // \{Nagisa} "Hey, Dad..." <0089> // Then Nagisa looks up and turns around slowly. <0090> // \{Akio} "What is it, Nagisa?" <0091> // \{Nagisa} "That..." <0092> // What does she have to say?... <0093> // Say.. \p From this person, have to say? <0094> // \{Nagisa} "With \m{B}-kun ... \p I did naughty things..." <0095> // Nagisa's Explosive Statement Part 3. <0096> // I am frozen like a rock where I stand. <0097> // There is not a single daughter who could honestly say such a thing in front of her parents... except for her... <0098> // Surely the most unusual living thing on this earth... would be Nagisa. <0099> // \{Sanae} "Since her menses has also stopped, I am inclined to think she is correct." <0100> // \{Akio} "KAH..." <0101> // \{Akio} "Y... You bastard..." <0102> // Pops had a peculiar expression. <0103> // \{Akio} "Con..." <0104> // \{Akio} "Congratulations..." <0105> // The shaking voice celebrated. <0106> // Afterwards, we were taken to neighboring town's hospital for examination. <0107> // The result was just as expected. <0108> // \{Nagisa} "Two months." <0109> // \{Akio} "Is that so..." <0110> // \{Akio} "Are... are you going to give birth to it?..." <0111> // \{Nagisa} "Of course!" <0112> // I already knew that would be her answer. <0113> // Nagisa wouldn't have an abortion. <0114> // She couldn't do such a thing as ending a life. <0115> // \{Akio} "It's going to be hard..." <0116> // \{\m{B}} "I will protect her." <0117> // I said strongly. <0118> // \{Nagisa} "Of course. Because \m{B}-kun is with me, I'll be fine." <0119> // \{Nagisa} "For today, we're doing the best we can." <0120> // \{Sanae} "It's just like how Akio-san was on that day." <0121> // \{Akio} "What?" <0122> // \{Sanae} "When we gave birth to Nagisa, Akio-san, you said you would defend me." <0123> // \{Akio} "Is that so... it must be so..." <0124> // However, Nagisa's body is far weaker than Sanae-san's. So it is right to worry about this. <0125> // \{Nagisa} "It is a child with \m{B}-kun. I absolutely want to have it." <0126> // \{Akio} "Tche" <0127> // \{Akio} "Well, go for it... you resourceful one." <0128> // Finally, as it's said, my chest is trusted away like a strike. <0129> // It's natural, to follow one's way back. <0130> // It's the same road we two have walked up many times. <0131> // However, something is different now. <0132> // It's fresh. Everything has changed slightly, in some way. <0133> // \{Nagisa} "...ehehe." <0134> // Nagisa, without any reason, laughed happily. <0135> // So... we are going to have a child. <0136> // This reality made everything appear new. <0137> // And, we are to become parents. <0138> // Us as parents...? <0139> // Humorously it's not really possible to imagine that future. <0140> // When was that? <0141> // \{Nagisa} "Therefore \m{B}-kun, when the child comes, you must be very nice..." <0142> // \{Nagisa} "And be a very good father." <0143> // \{\m{B}} "Is that so?" <0144> // \{Sanae} "Nagisa will surely be a gentle mother." <0145> // \{Sanae} "Therefore, your child will be very happy." <0146> // This feels like a extremely old familiar conversation. <0147> // In those school days, when my reputation was just a joke, now, it's actually becoming a reality. <0148> // When thinking about it, a spontaneous smile spills out. <0149> // Ah, Nagisa also, smiled just a little bit, I think. <0150> // It's going to be hard. That I already know. <0151> // But, in spite of that, we'll be happy. <0152> // Birth Chapter. <0153> // \{Yoshino} "Congratulations!" <0154> // \{\m{B}} "Ha?" <0155> // \{Yoshino} "Your child of course! Your child!" <0156> // We meet in the office, Yoshino-san and I chat. <0157> // Just what kind of network is forming... <0158> // I hadn't told Yoshino-san yet. <0159> // \{\m{B}} "Thank you." <0160> // \{Yoshino} "You are a child as well..." <0161> // \{Yoshino} "You're not even a working person capable of carrying your half of the load, how could you possibly be qualified to be a husband." <0162> // \{\m{B}} "Is that so?" <0163> // \{\m{B}} "But, you completely lack self-awareness..." <0164> // \{Yoshino} "If you bring a child to the world, while unpleasant, it might bring self-awareness." <0165> // \{Yoshino} "If everyone was alone, it wouldn't be possible to live..." <0166> // \{Yoshino} "Someone must support someone else to live..." <0167> // \{Yoshino} "That beginning for \m{A}, see with your eyes..." <0168> // \{\m{B}} "Slow down!" <0169> // Yoshino-san kept on talking, while I was leaving the office. <0170> // \{Yoshino} "That beginning for \m{A}, you must see with your own eyes." <0171> // He kept talking while I started the car. <0172> // \{\m{B}} "Today, isn't there a medical examination?" <0173> // \{Nagisa} "That's right." <0174> // \{\m{B}} "... shouldn't I come along?" <0175> // \{Nagisa} "I'm fine." <0176> // \{Nagisa} "Being pregnant isn't like being sick." <0177> // \{\m{B}} "But, recently you have not been waking early. It's like your not feeling well." <0178> // \{\m{B}} "Have you been eating properly?" <0179> // \{Nagisa} "I'm only having morning sickness now. If I eat a little bit at a time, I don't feel bad." <0180> // \{\m{B}} "Urgh, it's because of work, right? ... today... " <0181> // \{Nagisa} "That's right. \m{B}-kun, please do well at your work." <0182> // \{\m{B}} "Yeah..." <0183> // \{\m{B}} "But if you don't go to the neighboring town, you can't be properly examined..." <0184> // \{\m{B}} "If there is anything wrong, make sure properly contact Sanae-san." <0185> // \{Nagisa} "Okay." <0186> // \{\m{B}} "Well, I'll see you later." <0187> // \{Nagisa} "Take care." <0188> // \{\m{B}} "I'm home." <0189> // \{\m{B}} "How was your medical exam?" <0190> // That is the first thing I asked upon arriving home finding Nagisa in the middle of preparing dinner <0191> // \{Nagisa} "Ah, yes. Well..." <0192> // \{Nagisa} "We went over my medical history, I had my blood pressure checked, then they checked on my pregnancy." <0193> // \{\m{B}} "And...?" <0194> // \{Nagisa} "And, well..." <0195> // \{Nagisa} "With the ultrasound machine, I was able to see the baby in my stomach." <0196> // \{\m{B}} "Huh? It's possible to see it already!?" <0197> // \{Nagisa} "Yes. But, it is still like a little egg." <0198> // \{Nagisa} "After this, in just a short of a year, how much it will grow." <0199> // \{Nagisa} "There seems to be no trouble of woman's diseases, so it's safe to say that will be able to have a healthy baby." <0200> // \{\m{B}} "Is that so..." <0201> // We'll be able have a healthy baby... <0202> // Since the doctor says so, it can't be a mistake. <0203> // A feeling of relief washes over my body. <- more literal <0204> // \{Nagisa} "However, I was really scared for a moment..." <0205> // \{\m{B}} "Over what?" <0206> // \{Nagisa} "Aah... no." <0207> // \{Nagisa} "...it's nothing." <0208> // \{\m{B}} "It is something, your anxious right. Tell me." <0209> // \{Nagisa} "No, it's something I can't say to a man..." <0210> // \{\m{B}} "Why do you hide it, the child is both of ours right?" <0211> // \{\m{B}} "Or did you mysteriously become pregnant on your own?" <0212> // \{\m{B}} "Usually, birth is a collaborative activity. Even Sanae-san said so." <0213> // \{\m{B}} "Look, don't hide it, say it." <0214> // \{Nagisa} "... ah, okay..." <0215> // \{Nagisa} "Well then..." <0216> // \{Nagisa} "... it's an embarrassing position." <0217> // \{\m{B}} "Hah?" <0218> // \{Nagisa} "Being seen in the pelvic examination stand." <0219> // \{\m{B}} "I don't know." <0220> // \{Nagisa} "My skirt and underwear, everything taken off, with my legs spread..." <0221> // \{Nagisa} "It's completely embarrassing!..." <0222> // \{\m{B}} "... how much?" <0223> // \{Nagisa} "Is it okay not to say such a thing?" <0224> // \{\m{B}} "No, it's okay..." <0225> // \{Nagisa} "But, I thought it is not good if it conceal it." <0226> // \{\m{B}} "Which is it..." <0227> // \{Nagisa} "This ... please keep it a secret ... my experience..." <0228> // \{Nagisa} "For the time being..." <0229> // \{\m{B}} "For the time being?" <0230> // \{Nagisa} "Umm..." <0231> // \{Nagisa} "That I've opened up to \m{B}-kun." <0232> // \{\m{B}} "........." <0233> // That I've opened up to \m{B}-kun... <0234> // That I've opened up to \m{B}-kun... <0235> // .........that I've opened up to \m{B}-kun.........? <0236> // As cold feeling runs down my back, I turn my head to look behind me. <0237> // ...no one is there. <0238> // I can't understand this... <0239> // \{\m{B}} "That is, don't say this to Pops and Sanae-san?" <0240> // \{Nagisa} "Exactly, don't tell them." <0241> // No, you don't have to tell me that. <0242> // \{Akio} "I've also encountered the same thing." <0243> // \{\m{B}} "What, what the" <0244> // Unexpectedly <0245> // \{Akio} "Ha ha ha ha! Hey, even I've seen Sanae in that embarrassing position!" <0246> // ...Sanae-san!? <0247> // \{\m{B}} "I, I don't want to seeeeeeeeeee!" <0248> // Flutter. <0249> // \{Sanae} "\m{B}-san..." <0250> // \{\m{B}} "Y, yes..." <0251> // \{Sanae} "It's half of Akio-san, right?" <0252> // \{\m{B}} "Aaaaargh----!" <0253> // Flutter. <0254> // ...it's a dream. <0255> // \{Nagisa} "n..." <0256> // \{Nagisa} "What's wrong, \m{B}-kun?" <0257> // Nagisa is already out of bed. <0258> // \{Nagisa} "Did you just have bad dream" <0259> // To that person in me that confronts my inferiority complex, why half scale?... <0260> // \{Nagisa} "...... ?" <0261> // \{\m{B}} "Waking someone from a bad dream..." <0262> // It's okay because I said it ... \p I'm just thinking too much to go back to bed. <0263> // \{\m{B}} "Are you ok?" <0264> // \{Nagisa} "...I'm sorry. I couldn't seem to be able to wake you." <0265> // \{\m{B}} "It's okay, because I'm with you" <0266> // Each day, Nagisa's morning becomes a little bit worse. <0267> // This morning she wasn't able to get out of bed. <0268> // \{\m{B}} "It's gotten a little bit worse, hasn't it." <0269> // \{Nagisa} "Yes, sorry for making you worry." <0270> // \{\m{B}} "Why are you apologizing? It's both our responsibilities." <0271> // \{Nagisa} "Ah, right." <0272> // \{\m{B}} "Have you eat properly?" <0273> // \{Nagisa} "...I've not eaten very much." <0274> // \{Nagisa} "I'll be able to eat a little better in the afternoon." <0275> // \{\m{B}} "Isn't there anything that can help with it?" <0276> // \{Nagisa} "I don't think so." <0277> // \{Nagisa} "Morning sickness is still not really well understood..." <0278> // Nagisa takes some ice out of the freezer, and places in her mouth. <0279> // \{\m{B}} "Ice?" <0280> // \{Nagisa} "I can't even drink liquids if I feel bad." <0281> // \{Nagisa} "However, if I suck on some ice, I'm sure I'll be able to drink some while it melts." <0282> // \{\m{B}} "You can't even drink water...?" <0283> // This particular physical condition, I just can't imagine... <0284> // When sick in bed, moisture can be easily consumed. <0285> // Women's difficulties... <0286> // Is all I can do is tell her to keep fighting... <0287> // \{\m{B}} "How about something sour?" <0288> // \{\m{B}} "I'm not saying I want to eat something like that." <0289> // \{Nagisa} "Eating things like citrus fruits will only make it worse." <0290> // \{Nagisa} "The doctor said that the individual variation is large, and is different for each person." <0291> // So I also did some investigation. <0292> // Proper eating seems to be the most beneficial cure. <0293> // People say it's best to eat little by little to make sure the stomach isn't empty. <0294> // And that it is the worst in the morning because one has been asleep and thus can't eat. <0295> // So I made rice balls at night. <0296> // And to limit her thirst, I used salt in sparing moderation. <0297> // And to lessen the smell, I put just a little sprinkle of dry flavoring. <0298> // It's in many smallish bites-sized portions. <0299> // 2 AM. <0300> // Beep Beep Beep Beep Beep Beep... ... <0301> // \{\m{B}} "... what time is it?" <0302> // I switch on a light. <0303> // \{\m{B}} "Nagisa, are you okay?" <0304> // \{Nagisa} "...Yes... what's going on? At such a time" <0305> // \{\m{B}} "Are you feeling sick?" <0306> // \{Nagisa} "Right now I'm okay." <0307> // \{\m{B}} "That's good. Here, could you eat one of these?" <0308> // I present her a plate of the rice balls. <0309> // \{Nagisa} "What's the matter? This?" <0310> // \{\m{B}} "I've read that it's good to eat a little bit through the night." <0311> // \{Nagisa} "Did you make them?" <0312> // \{\m{B}} "They are a little funny looking, right?" <0313> // It's true, the shape is uneven, and over-all appearance is bad. <0314> // While seaweed wrap was suitable, even the flavoring sprinkles were irregular. <0315> // \{Nagisa} "... thank you." <0316> // \{Nagisa} "Itadakimasu!" <0317> // \{\m{B}} "Don't over work at eating now." (?) <0318> // \{\m{B}} "If you're feeling bad, we can shift the time." <0319> // With her small hands, Nagisa placed the rice ball in her mouth. <0320> // Just one bite seems to bring a good feeling over her. <0321> // \{Nagisa} "It tastes good." <0322> // \{\m{B}} "Having had one bite it good right" <0323> // \{\m{B}} "Don't eat too fast, it's okay to save some." <0324> // Nagisa continued and ate three small bites. <0325> // Might not be a perfect performance, but she did well to eat to her limit. (?) <0326> // Once again at 4 AM this scene is repeated, although we both ate this time. <0327> // This time just a bland unadorned rice ball. <0328> // However, Nagisa ate five this time. <0329> // \{Nagisa} "It was really good...ehehe." <0330> // Nagisa laughed as she said so. <0331> // It had been a long time since I saw her smile like that. <0332> // \{\m{B}} "........." <0333> // \{Yoshino} "Can you hear, \m{A}?" <0334> // \{\m{B}} "........." <0335> // \{Yoshino} "Are you asleep?..." <0336> // \{Yoshino} "Jeeze, are you going to just lay around like its rest-time?..." <0337> // \{Yoshino} "I'd just like to see you keep that up." <0338> // ......... <0339> // I hear humming. <0340> // That's terrible ... yet comfortable melody. <0341> // Finally, the long battle with morning sickness is finally over. <0342> // \{\m{B}} "Good morning." <0343> // \{Nagisa} "Good morning." <0344> // \{\m{B}} "Where you able to wake up okay?" <0345> // \{Nagisa} "I'm fine." <0346> // \{Nagisa} "I'm feeling really good this morning." <0347> // The 10~11th week, in accordance with the book I was reading. <0348> // \{\m{B}} "Home delivery?" <0349> // From Nagisa's mouth, the words came out as we set down for the evening meal. <0350> // \{Nagisa} "Yes, exactly." <0351> // \{\m{B}} "Home delivery..." <0352> // I consider the thought. <0353> // \{\m{B}} "WHAT? A delivery right here?" <0354> // \{Nagisa} "That's right." <0355> // \{\m{B}} "In other words, you don't want to have the birth in a hospital?" <0356> // \{Nagisa} "Exactly." <0357> // Naturally. Am I fool... <0358> // \{Nagisa} "Today, I saw information on a motherhood class at the hospital." <0359> // \{Nagisa} "There was a note posted from a mother who had given birth at home." <0360> // \{Nagisa} "The husband, father, and mother all surrounded, frantically supporting her." <0361> // \{Nagisa} "All there before the baby is born, encourages the mother." <0362> // \{Nagisa} "Everyone held each others hands for a long time, it was written." <0363> // \{Nagisa} "In our on home, the new father gives the baby his first bath." <0364> // \{Nagisa} "The baby that comes from the stomach can be embraced for such a long time at home." <0365> // \{Nagisa} "It is not likely to be held as much at the hospital, or so I would think." <0366> // \{\m{B}} "That might be true..." <0367> // In any case, there is also Nagisa's health. <0368> // She shouldn't make a decision without due consideration. <0369> // \{Nagisa} "Besides, this room..." <0370> // \{Nagisa} "I vowed to never cry in this place..." <0371> // \{Nagisa} "As it is an oath, I've worked hard never to give up in this place." <0372> // \{Nagisa} "Together with you, \m{B}-kun." <0373> // \{\m{B}} "Ah. That's how it is." <0374> // \{\m{B}} "I understand, how you feel." <- more literal <0375> // \{Nagisa} "Furthermore, I really want to give birth here in this town." <0376> // \{\m{B}} "Ah." <0377> // \{\m{B}} "But, first of all ... let's consult the doctor." <0378> // \{Nagisa} "Yes, let's ask her right away." <0379> // A hand dirty with black dust. <0380> // I watched that hand. <0381> // A lunch time, I told Yoshino-san about what we had talked about. <0382> // \{Yoshino} "Home delivery...?" <0383> // \{Yoshino} "That sounds good." <0384> // \{Yoshino} "\m{A}, you are on a path to self-awareness." <0385> // \{Yoshino} "People just can't go on alone..." <0386> // \{Yoshino} "Someone must support someone else so they can live..." <0387> // \{\m{B}} "You've already told me this." <0388> // \{Yoshino} "But the ending is different... listen." <0389> // \{\m{B}} "Okay" <0390> // \{Yoshino} "Someone must support someone else so they can live..." <0391> // \{Yoshino} "It's a start for you, \m{A}, your beginning is in your hands in how to raise your own child." <0392> // A hand dirty with black dust. <0393> // My hand. <0394> // \{Nagisa} "I've talked with the doctor." <0395> // \{\m{B}} "Ah, and what did he say?" <0396> // \{Nagisa} "He said that if my current condition continues, it might not be a problem." <0397> // \{Nagisa} "And, here, this is the pamphlet from the maternity center. The doctor gave it to me." <0398> // \{\m{B}} "Is that so?" <0399> // \{Nagisa} "\m{B}-kun, what do you think?" <0400> // \{\m{B}} "Well, let's see." <0401> // \{\m{B}} "If the doctor says it's not a problem, I want to respect your strong desire." <0402> // \{\m{B}} "I want to hold it with my hands." <0403> // \{\m{B}} "And, with this hand ... I want to give my baby its first bath." <0404> // \{Nagisa} "Yes." <0405> // \{\m{B}} "On the next break, let's consult with Pops and Sanae-san." <0406> // \{Akio} "HOME DELIVERYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!?" <0407> // While shouting, his body listed to the right." <0408> // \{Akio} "What's with this drift today." <0409> // \{\m{B}} "Is the game over?" <0410> // \{Akio} "Tche, ok,ok, and right in the middle of breaking a record..." <0411> // The power to the game machine had gone out. <0412> // \{Akio} "So, what is it?" <0413> // \{\m{B}} "Nagisa is going to have a home delivery" <0414> // \{Akio} "HOME DELIVERYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!?" <0415> // \{\m{B}} "Did you not hear?" <0416> // \{Akio} "Now look here, birth itself is already hard, and now you want to make it harder by doing it at home?" <0417> // \{\m{B}} "Yeah." <0418> // \{Akio} "And may I ask for what reason she wants this?" <0419> // \{Akio} "Save money? A punishment game? Religious issue? More interesting birth?" <0420> // \{\m{B}} "Something entirely different..." <0421> // \{Akio} "Then, just what is it?" <0422> // \{\m{B}} "Just what is it... well many reasons really..." <0423> // While it was decided by thinking so much, I can't really put a word as to why. <0424> // \{\m{B}} "Nagisa and I just want to." <0425> // \{\m{B}} "Together we decided on it." <0426> // \{Sanae} "I give my approval." <0427> // \{Akio} "Huh?" <0428> // Sanae-san appears from the kitchen carrying a tray. <0429> // Nagisa follows behind her. <0430> // Seeing her appear, Pops extinguishes his cigarette. <0431> // \{Sanae} "While I gave birth in the hospital in the next town..." <0432> // \{Sanae} "It says a lot, that Nagisa will soon be leaving our care..." <0433> // \{Sanae} "Can we only leave it up to the hospital, birth doesn't come from just oneself, and a little loneliness will be remembered." <0434> // \{Sanae} "Akio-san has also embraced Nagisa, but only after being held be person in the hospital right?" <0435> // \{Akio} "Really?! I really though I was the first!" <0436> // \{Sanae} "You weren't." <0437> // \{Akio} "Damnnnnnn...." <0438> // \{Akio} "But, I was the first to make fun of her." <0439> // \{Nagisa} "Do such things really matter?" (?) <0440> // \{Akio} "Well, that was just because I wanted to be affectionate." <0441> // \{Nagisa} "Even if it was affectionate, It's not good." <0442> // \{Akio} "Ha Ha Ha! ?" <0443> // \{Akio} "Alright, back to the game?" <0444> // \{\m{B}} "Nope, this conversation's end hasn't come." <0445> // \{Akio} "un... aaa. then... What else could the be" <0446> // \{Akio} * "Sanae and myself are already Nagisa's neighbor. It has to be born somewhere right?" <0447> // \{\m{B}} "No, that interesting birth joke hasn't been thought-through yet..." <0448> // \{Nagisa} "Home delivery." <0449> // \{Akio} "What? That interesting?" <0450> // \{Nagisa} "Dad, we're serious." <0451> // Well said, my wife. <0452> // \{Akio} "Aah..." <0453> // Pops picked up a glass from a line one the desk. <0454> // And then he drank in one gulp the sake. <0455> // \{Akio} "Ok, I got it..." * <0456> // He lets out a deep breath. <0457> // \{Akio} "To be first, to hold your baby." <0458> // \{\m{B}} "Ah." <0459> // \{Akio} "Still..." <0460> // \{Akio} "But I will be the first to make fun of the baby-----!" <0461> // \{Nagisa} "That's no good, \m{B}-kun will be the first to make fun of the baby." <0462> // \{\m{B}} "........." <0463> // \{\m{B}} "... don't think so, I don't want to make fun of it." <0464> // \{Nagisa} "Ah..." <0465> // \{Nagisa} "True ... shouldn't make fun of it." <0466> // Foolish parents make a foolish child... <0467> // \{Sanae} "This is Yagi-san." <0468> // \{Yagi} "I'm Yagi. It's nice to meet you." <0469> // \{Nagisa} "I'm \m{A} Nagisa. It's nice too meet you too. Please help me in my delivery. <0470> // She is the midwife who we will be relying on. <0471> // She was a classmate of Sanae-san from her school days, who recently opened a maternity hospital by herself. <0472> // When being called a midwife, typically an elderly person is imagined, but as Sanae-san's classmate she is naturally young. <0473> // \{\m{B}} (Even so, doesn't Sanae-san herself look really young...) <0474> // \{\m{B}} (Sanae-san's youthfulness really is mysterious...) <0475> // \{Yagi} "Let's see, you've already completed your initial medical examination right?" <0476> // The conversation began by first confirming the basics. <0477> // \{Nagisa} "Yes, I had it the week before last." <0478> // \{Yagi} "Let's see, from here I'll go over some explanation." <0479> // \{Yagi} "The midwife's role is only to provide thorough assistance." <0480> // \{Yagi} "Therefore, I can not do medical treatment." <0481> // \{Yagi} "Please make sure to go for your regular medical examinations." <0482> // \{Yagi} "When you came to our maternity center, they performed an examination with a machine, and everything looked okay?" <0483> // \{Nagisa} "Yes." <0484> // \{Yagi} "And because of that, you hope to deliver your baby here at home...?" <0485> // \{\m{B}} "Even though the room is a bit narrow, will it be okay?" <0486> // \{Yagi} "As long as there is enough room for the futon, anywhere will be okay." <0487> // \{Yagi} "The area doesn't matter." <0488> // \{Yagi} "More important than that, it needs to be an environment where the mother can relax." <0489> // \{Yagi} "During pregnancy, various anxieties and body carvings can appear." <0490> // \{Yagi} "They need to be relieved, if we are to have a happy delivery." <0491> // \{Yagi} "While there is still 3 months to go, I think things are going well." <0492> // Midwife-san bows from the driver's seat of her car. <0493> // We bow back to her. <0494> // Her car disappears into the narrow alleyway. <0495> // It seems that she commutes from the neighboring town by car. <0496> // Nagisa is serious, but so its midwife-san. <0497> // For the sake of Nagisa's birth, I think everyone is coming together to help her fight on. <0498> // \{\m{B}} (It somehow resembles...) <0499> // Unintentionally I remember. <0500> // Before we noticed, there were a lot of supporters in our student days in the clubroom. <0501> // Like those days. <0502> // That day was a day at the maternity center for a medical examination. <0503> // I took some time off of work, so that I could go with her. <0504> // \{Yagi} "Nagisa-san, can you see-?" <0505> // Nagisa lies on the medical exam table, with what looks like the boss of all stethoscopes is placed on her stomach. <0506> // \{Nagisa} "Yes." <0507> // \{Yagi} "Do you understand? This moving area is the heart." <0508> // \{Yagi} "The head has already grown too, with perfect eyes and nose." <0509> // \{Yagi} "Father, make sure you take a look too." <0510> // I was captivated by the monochrome monitor. <0511> // Although the display was grainy, it certainly projected a breathing little life. <0512> // \{Yagi} "Because the placenta has favorably developed, there is little worry of a miscarriage at this point." <0513> // \{Yagi} "From here on, the baby will grow quite rapidly." <0514> // \{Yagi} "It will grow several times its current size in just a month." <0515> // \{Yagi} "Next month fetal movement will begin." <0516> // The two of us walk on the road near twilight. <0517> // To make sure not to hurt Nagisa's body, we always walk slowly. <0518> // \{\m{B}} "Quite the endurance, our baby has." <0519> // \{\m{B}} "Although I didn't notice it, because your appearance hasn't really changed." <0520> // \{Nagisa} "That's true." <0521> // \{Nagisa} "Although it is still small, it is doing quite well." <0522> // \{\m{B}} "Until now, I think I didn't feel things were going properly." <0523> // \{Nagisa} "Is that so?" <0524> // \{\m{B}} "Well, it is inside Nagisa's stomach, and it's hard to know its true physical condition." <0525> // \{\m{B}} "I just am kind of like that..." <0526> // I know it in my head, by my body just fails to follow through. <0527> // My recent experience at work, has it skillfully removed some of my closeness to her? <0528> // \{Nagisa} "It is ok" <0529> // Gently, Nagisa grasps my hand. <0530> // I returned her grasp. <0531> // \{Nagisa} "\m{B}-kun is trying his best, I know that best." <0532> // \{Nagisa} "Therefore, the baby also surely knows." <0533> // \{Nagisa} "Because the baby and I are two hearts beating as one." <0534> // \{\m{B}} "I guess that's true..." <0535> // \{Nagisa} "It is." <0536> // \{Nagisa} "\m{B}-kun, \m{B}-kun, take a look!" <0537> // \{\m{B}} "What is it, that your so happy to show?" <0538> // \{Nagisa} "Look, this." <0539> // Nagisa held out a pamphlet as big as a note pad. <0540> // \{\m{B}} "...Maternity Record Book?" <0541> // A colorful illustration drawn on the cover, done in a very conscientious way. <0542> // \{Nagisa} "Recently at the medical examination, they said to create a maternity record book." <0543> // \{Nagisa} "And then to please deliver it to the town hall." <0544> // \{Nagisa} "Today, I reached that goal." <0545> // \{\m{B}} "Oooh." <0546> // Nagisa turned it over and over many times to confirm her accomplishment. <0547> // Although I know the pages have nothing written on them, I flip through the pages by force of habit. <0548> // \{Nagisa} "I'm going to write in it everyday from today onwards." <0549> // \{Nagisa} "It's a record of the baby." <0550> // \{Nagisa} "While it's growing, I want to write how things have changed." <0551> // \{\m{B}} "I guess that's a good idea." <0552> // The fetal movements have begun that following month. <0553> // \{Nagisa} "Eh." <0554> // \{\m{B}} "Un? What's wrong?" <0555> // \{Nagisa} "Just now, it moved" <0556> // \{Nagisa} "The baby, it moved, fetal movement!" <0557> // \{Nagisa} "It's just how they said it would, in the motherhood class" <0558> // \{Nagisa} "It moves vigorously, it kicked my stomach and made a full revolution." <0559> // \{\m{B}} "One full revolution?..." <0560> // \{Nagisa} "It is evidence it will grow up full of energy." <0561> // \{Nagisa} "That is the baby's way of informing me." <0562> // \{Nagisa} "'I'm here!' it says." <0563> // Nagisa rubbed the important bulge beginning in her stomach. <0564> // \{\m{B}} "May I also feel it?" <0565> // \{Nagisa} "Yes, please do." <0566> // Nagisa's warm stomach. <0567> // Inside of it, a life that has already made one rotation grows. <0568> // The process in which life is formed ... the two of us were experiencing it now. <0569> // \{Nagisa} "We should think about a name." <0570> // It was evening, when Nagisa suggested it. <0571> // \{\m{B}} "Is that so? ...We should." <0572> // Up until now, for such a thing to be forgotten. <0573> // \{Nagisa} "Is it still too early?" <0574> // \{\m{B}} "No, it's okay. It's not too early to think about it." <0575> // \{\m{B}} "However, we will have to think about both boy and girl names." <0576> // \{Nagisa} "Shall we take one letter from \m{B}-kun's name?" <0577> // \{\m{B}} "No, doing such a thing like without thinking isn't good." <0578> // \{\m{B}} "The baby is already going to get the family name of \m{A} from me." <0579> // \{\m{B}} "It is just like you changed your family name, because I now protect you." <0580> // \{\m{B}} "When a girl is married, she changes families, as it is then the husband's responsibility to protect her." <0581> // \{Nagisa} "Is that so..." <0582> // \{Nagisa} "Then, I want to defend my name." <0583> // \{\m{B}} "That's so. Let's do that." <0584> // \{Nagisa} "But, I only have one character in my name, it would be like she would become my sister." <0585> // \{\m{B}} "Well, that could be." <0586> // No matter how much we thought, using the character 'Nagisa', we could never find a name. <0587> // \{Nagisa} "'Nagisa' means beach." <0588> // \{\m{B}} "That's true." <0589> // \{Nagisa} "Tides have a big influence on such a place." <0590> // \{\m{B}} "Ah." <0591> // \{Nagisa} "There, why not use 'Ushio', tide could be said that way right?" <0592> // \{Nagisa} "And this name suits both a boy and a girl." <0593> // \{\m{B}} "Ushio." <0594> // \{Nagisa} "Yes, Ushio." <0595> // \{Nagisa} "Surely, it will have a very varied life." <0596> // \{Nagisa} "Like tides on a beach, at times there is an influence, and at times the two must part ..." <0597> // \{Nagisa} "But, if time passes, it rises back gain and returns near again." <0598> // \{Nagisa} "Forever, that is cycle is repeated ... I watch over the tide." <0599> // \{Nagisa} "What do you think?" <0600> // It's similar to myself, however I have a different reason for being close. <0601> // In this long journey of life, Nagisa has experienced more than an average share of joys and sorrows, thus such a name is fitting. <0602> // And, with that history, there is no doubt this the way family should be. <0603> // \{\m{B}} "But when you think about it, a tide has a bigger existence than even a beach." <0604> // \{Nagisa} "That's true. Because it's an ocean." <0605> // \{\m{B}} "It wraps around just about everything, don't forget ... and brings much kindness to people, don't you think." <0606> // \{Nagisa} "Yes..." <0607> // \{Nagisa} "I want that." <0608> // Is she becoming exhausted? As Nagisa speaks, she closes her eyelids. <0609> // \{\m{B}} "Going to sleep?" <0610> // \{Nagisa} "Yes." <0611> // \{\m{B}} "Should I turn out the lights?" <0612> // \{Nagisa} "Yes, please." <0613> // \m{A} Ushio. <0614> // That will be the name of the child we will raise. <0615> // From that day on, Nagisa began to call the child that is in her stomach by its name. <0616> // \{Nagisa} "Shio-chan." <0617> // Nagisa dropped off the 'U', when saying its name. <0618> // \{Nagisa} "It's very cute to call it like that." <0619> // \{Nagisa} "Shio-chan..." <0620> // \{Nagisa} "Ehehe" <0621> // \{Nagisa} "So that's how, we decided on Ushio as a name. 'Shio-chan'." <0622> // \{Akio} "Oh, is that it..." <0623> // \{Akio} "Shio-chan, it's papa~" <0624> // \{Nagisa} "Don't lie!" <0625> // \{Nagisa} "This child, it will believe you!" <0626> // \{Akio} "Can't it be a running joke, that it's my child?" <0627> // \{Akio} "And that you're really the grandpa! Tsukkon de miseru yo." * <0628> // \{Akio} " Nagisa would have to go with it for it to work." <0629> // Nagisa's stomach is not a cockpit. <0630> // \{Akio} "However, if I am called Grandpa ... then it's a no, huh?" <0631> // I'm usually a how-it-is person. <0632> // \{Akio} "Therefore, then the grand me will be Akkii. Come on everyone, call me Akkii. <0633> // \{Akio} "Let that be its first experience of this damn old man." <0634> // \{\m{B}} "But why?..." <0635> // \{Sanae} "I'd also like to know why you want become that, and for that matter about all of this conversation." <0636> // \{Akio} "Ah, because, I, at that time the monologue was just very random...?" <0637> // You noticed. <0638> // \{Sanae} "It's around now that ears begin to hear, so it can grasp sounds from the outside." <0639> // \{Sanae} "It's also good to let it listen to music." <0640> // \{\m{B}} "And parent's own singing is best." <0641> // \{\m{B}} "However, with this one's favorite music, I'm not sure how it will be." <0642> // \{Nagisa} "Then, I will sing everyday so it can listen." <0643> // \{Nagisa} "Dango, dango..." <0644> // \{Sanae} "That's a very good thing right?" <0645> // \{\m{B}} "Well, it would be better if that song were a bit more fashionable." <0646> // \{Nagisa} "Yes. Therefore, let's all sing it together." <0647> // \{\m{B}} "Are you kidding me?" <0648> // \{Akio} "Alright, I'll be the lead vocalist." <0649> // \{Akio} "Youngster, your on drums. Say 'Tsukachii Tsukachii'" <0650> // \{Akio} "Hiyaa! Kakkee!" <0651> // \{\m{B}} "Please give the father the simplistic part." <0652> // \{Akio} "Well aren't you the selfish one, well, that." <0653> // \{Akio} "How about a battle to teach the next bar's lyrics." <0654> // \{\m{B}} "That's something I don't want to participate in." <0655> // \{Nagisa} "Dango, Dango." <0656> // Before anyone really became aware, Nagisa began to sing alone. <0657> // \{Sanae} "Dango, Dango." <0658> // Sanae-san then joined in. <0659> // Before long all of us joined along. <0660> // And with that, everyone brought a happy summer day to a close. <0661> // It was a day of relentless lingering summer heat. <0662> // The moment the door I opened the door, something jumped into my field of view. <0663> // Suddenly my eye was drawn down to the tatami before me. <0664> // This person's legs were bent in such a way to look like the hiragana letter ku (く). <0665> // Still wearing my shoes I full out run to her, her body only be barely held up by her arms. <0666> // \{\m{B}} "Nagisa!" <0667> // ......... <0668> // Other than repeated labored little breaths, there was no reaction. <0669> // I touch her forehead. It is surprisingly hot. <0670> // Her face was pure-white. <0671> // I have no clue what has happened. <0672> // To cause Nagisa to run a fever and collapse. <0673> // What should I do? <0674> // \{\m{B}} "Nagisa!..." <0675> // For awhile, all I can do is hold her body and repeatedly call her name. <0676> // \{\m{B}} (To the futon for the time being...) <0677> // By the time I had recklessly laid Nagisa's body on top of the futon, I finally remembered that Sanae-san was home. <0678> // I pick up the phone, and dial the numbers while watching sweat pouring off Nagisa's face. <0679> // \{Voice} "Hello, this is the Furukawa residence." <0680> // It's Pops. <0681> // \{\m{B}} "It's me, please, can you put Sanae-san on the phone" <0682> // \{Akio} "Ah, just a moment." <0683> // Shortly, I am connected with Sanae-san. <0684> // \{Sanae} "Yes, this is Sanae." <0685> // \{\m{B}} "its \m{B}. Nagisa is running a fever and has collapsed." <0686> // \{\m{B}} "It is a terribly high temperature." <0687> // \{\m{B}} "I don't know what to do..." <0688> // \{Sanae} "Please calm down, \m{B}-san." <0689> // \{Sanae} "It's okay, because I'm coming right over." <0690> // \{\m{B}} "Y, yes..." <0691> // \{Sanae} "For now lay her down on the futon, wring a wet towel, and place it on Nagisa's forehead." <0692> // \{\m{B}} "I understand..." <0693> // \{Sanae} "Then, wait for me. I will contact Yagi-san and run right over." <0694> // \{\m{B}} "Yes, please do." <0695> // I hang up the handset. <0696> // It's possible to do that for now. <0697> // I wring a wet town, and place it on Nagisa's forehead. <0698> // \{\m{B}} "Just hang in there, Nagisa." <0699> // I stand up. <0700> // \{\m{B}} "Is this serious...?" <0701> // I ask Sanae-san after she had tended to Nagisa for a while. <0702> // \{Sanae} "For right now, things have settled down. I think she only has a slight fever." <0703> // \{\m{B}} "How is the baby..." <0704> // \{Yagi} "There is no problem. The baby is just fine." <0705> // \{Yagi} "But if you're worried please take her to have a one time examination." <0706> // \{\m{B}} "Is that so..." <0707> // While I feel better to hear that the baby safety is okay, I am suddenly struck with intense regret. <0708> // \{\m{B}} "Everything is my fault..." <0709> // \{\m{B}} "I should have come home sooner..." <0710> // \{Sanae} "Do not worry so much about it \m{B}-san." <0711> // \{\m{B}} "But, she did everything she could..." <0712> // \{Sanae} "That is, because this child wanted to hold on. However it is no one's fault." <0713> // \{\m{B}} "No, if that was the case, it wouldn't take so much extra effort to stop the fever..." <0714> // \{\m{B}} "I only understand about her..." <0715> // \{Sanae} "Please don't blame yourself so much. \m{B}-san, don't lose it now." <0716> // \{\m{B}} "Okay..." <0717> // \{Yagi} "Well then, I will leave her to your care and be on my way." <0718> // \{\m{B}} "Thank you very much." <0719> // Nagisa wakes up, for a moment she doesn't seem to understand where she is. She only moves her head to examine the vicinity. <0720> // Then, as she sees Sanae-san in the kitchen, she realizes what has happened. <0721> // \{Nagisa} "I am ... sorry..." <0722> // She says to both Sanae-san and me. <0723> // \{Nagisa} "for all of the trouble ..." <0724> // \{\m{B}} "It is okay." <0725> // \{Nagisa} "I'll make dinner..." <0726> // \{\m{B}} "You're not going to cook anything." <0727> // \{Nagisa} "I'm sorry... truly..." <0728> // \{\m{B}} "There is no need to say your sorry, silly." <0729> // No matter what we said, she endlessly and endlessly apologizes. <0730> // \{\m{B}} "Right now, Sanae-san is already making pourage." <- rice gruel ... chicken soup anyone? <0731> // \{\m{B}} "Therefore, patiently wait." <0732> // \{Nagisa} "Okay..." <0733> // \{\m{B}} "I'm really sorry..." <0734> // I said while bowing to Sanae-san for all of the trouble. <0735> // \{Sanae} "Enough of the apologies, didn't you just scold Nagisa for that same thing a moment ago, \m{B}-san" <0736> // \{\m{B}} "Haha, I guess I am the same..." <0737> // Truly, as expected from Sanae-san, to whom I am completely in debt.. <0738> // \{Sanae} "And with that, I should be going for today." <0739> // \{\m{B}} "Sorry for keeping you so late." <0740> // \{Sanae} "It's okay." <0741> // \{\m{B}} "Please give my regards ... to Pops ." <0742> // \{Sanae} "Okay, I'll tell him." <0743> // I remember the summer two years ago. <0744> // On that day, Nagisa was always near, with our hands joined. <0745> // Now, we were only caught up like that during the night. <0746> // Until now, during the day I was away at work. <0747> // And during that interval, I was entrusting Nagisa to Sanae-san. <0748> // When I return home, the dinner has been prepared, and Sanae-san returns to her own home. <0749> // Such is an ordinary day. <0750> // Nagisa's fever ...\p did not fall for long. <0751> // While I was folding laundry, the phone rang. <0752> // I answered it, and it was from Pops. <0753> // \{Akio} "Tomorrow, take a break from work." <0754> // \{\m{B}} "What, you want me to be rude? I can't suddenly just take a break." <0755> // \{Akio} "Take a sudden break." <0756> // \{\m{B}} "Please understand, I can't just do such a thing at my work." <0757> // \{Akio} "Tche.. then, when can you possibly take your next break?" <0758> // \{\m{B}} "I don't know. Even if I do have a break, urgent work can still happen." <0759> // \{Akio} "One way or another, you're married to your work, you bastard." <0760> // \{\m{B}} "What on Earth are you saying. When I can take a break, I surely will do so." <0761> // \{Akio} "The place I want to go is really special." <0762> // \{\m{B}} "What place is that? If it's an unrespectable place, I'll be upset." <0763> // \{Akio} "Don't worry. It's such a good place I can't talk about it." <0764> // \{\m{B}} "........." <0765> // \{\m{B}} "... I understand. I will make an effort." <0766> // \{Akio} "Ah, call me when you can take a break." <0767> // \{\m{B}} "Yeah." <0768> // I hang up the phone. <0769> // \{Nagisa} "Was it father?" <0770> // \{\m{B}} "Yes." <0771> // \{Nagisa} "Did he say something absurd again?" <0772> // \{\m{B}} "No..." <0773> // Pops actually seemed to be serious. <0774> // Fortunately, two days later I was able to take a break from work. <0775> // \{\m{B}} "I'm sorry, Sanae-san" <0776> // \{Sanae} "No problem. Please have some fun." <0777> // \{\m{B}} "It's not that. I'm not going to play." <0778> // \{\m{B}} "I'd like to see someone like Pops actually talk seriously for once." <0779> // \{Sanae} "Is that so? Well for this long-awaited break, I'm sorry." <0780> // \{\m{B}} "No, although I am the taking a break today, I really wish Sanae-san could take a break..." <0781> // \{Sanae} "Although I take breaks, I really don't think all that much about them." <0782> // \{\m{B}} "Well is that's the case, I guess its okay..." <0783> // \{\m{B}} "Well, I'm off." <0784> // \{\m{B}} "Nagisa, I'm going now." <0785> // \{Nagisa} "Yes, have a nice time." <0786> // Only one face was oriented my way, and I waited for him to come over. <0787> // \{Akio} "Yo!" <0788> // \{\m{B}}"So what is this good shop?" <0789> // \{Akio} "Ah, it's an unmanned market." <0790> // \{\m{B}} "Eh?" <0791> // \{Akio} "There is no sales-person; you leave the right amount of money and a letter behind." <0792> // \{Akio} "And that is, everything is fine." <0793> // How can he say that there is nothing to worry about, I glared at him. <0794> // \{\m{B}} "So, we really are going to an unpleasant place?" <0795> // \{Akio} "Come along and find out." <0796> // He was always such an arbitrary person. <0797> // We travel out to the outskirts of town, and struggle on to the location along the mountain detour. <0798> // Enclosed with nature, it was like a secret place. <0799> // \{Akio} "Right here, this is my playground." <0800> // \{Akio} "Always, I used to play children's base ball here, so that what I want to do." <0801> // This person, just when it seems impossible to properly set aside work, such a thing was done here. <0802> // An amazing person. <0803> // \{Akio} "Rapidly nature is being cleared away, so that now it can be used for new buildings." <0804> // \{Akio} "Already baseball is going away, and so is the view..." <0805> // \{\m{B}} "........." <0806> // \{Akio} "This town, it keeps on changing." <0807> // \{Akio} "That's why, somehow, I want to stop it." <0808> // \{\m{B}} "Yeah, I'd like to see that..." <0809> // It wasn't only me. Pops also thought the same thing. <0810> // And, it wasn't just us, it might just be the whole world that thinks this way. <0811> // \{Akio} ""I think that I particularly should defend nature." <0812> // \{Akio} "People think the town should keep on changing to meet the needs of people." <0813> // \{Akio} "However... \p I would like this place alone not to change." <0814> // This special place ... can it really not change? <0815> // \{Akio} "This is the continuous of a story from two years ago." <0816> // I hear the click and sound of a lighter catching a flame. <0817> // \{Akio} "It is a story of the time Nagisa started dying." <0818> // So it was said, and the conversation really began. <0819> // When I arrived home, I eat the prepared dinner, after seeing Sanae-san off, it was only Nagisa and myself. <0820> // \{Nagisa} "What did you do today?" <0821> // \{\m{B}} "No, we really didn't do anything in particular." <0822> // \{Nagisa} "Is that so?" <0823> // Nagisa didn't carry on about what I did with Pops. <0824> // Maybe she heard it in my voice that I refused to say. <0825> // \{\m{B}} "........." <0826> // Besides, since there wasn't a topic, we both fell silent. <0827> // Only the low hum of the electric fan fills the room. <0828> // It is a quiet night. <0829> // \{Nagisa} "\m{B}-kun..." <0830> // Nagisa said with a quiet voice. <0831> // After a short moment, I realized she said it. <0832> // \{\m{B}} "Hn? What? What is it?" <0833> // \{Nagisa} "well..." <0834> // \{Nagisa} "Hand..." <0835> // She says, as she pulls out her white hand from within the futon. <0836> // \{\m{B}} "A... ah." <0837> // She brings it near me, and I grasp it. <0838> // \{Nagisa} "Sorry..." <0839> // \{\m{B}} "Don't be..." <0840> // I bring up my other hand, and encompass Nagisa's hand with mine. <0841> // \{\m{B}} "It is too hot?" <0842> // \{Nagisa} "I'm alright. I want to stay like this for a long time." <0843> // \{\m{B}} "Ah... we'll stay like this for a long time." <0844> // \{Akio} "That was really a sad incident." <0845> // After breathing out a long, thin trail of smoke, Pops started to speak. <0846> // \{Akio} "The story is more than 10 years old." <0847> // \{Akio} "I was a member of the theatrical company then, and every day I had work and practice." <0848> // \{Akio} "Sanae was a teacher. She taught in a nearby private junior high school." <0849> // \{Akio} "Our occupations made it difficult to see each other... our lives were crazy." <0850> // \{Akio} "Therefore, Nagisa was usually alone." <0851> // \{Akio} "Because we were always gone during the day, Nagisa was always alone except for at night." <0852> // \{Akio} "Then... always Nagisa would go stand in front of the gate to our house and wait for us to return home." <0853> // \{Akio} "Usually it was Sanae-san who came home first. Rarely did she ever have to work late." <0854> // \{Akio} "Therefore, Nagisa would wait in front of the gate." <0855> // \{Akio} "Sanae-san would take little Nagisa's hand, and take her into the house." <0856> // \{Akio} "'I'm sorry', she'd always say..." <0857> // \{Akio} "Nagisa would always shake her head 'no', even though she always on the verge of tears." <0858> // \{Akio} "Such was an ordinary day." <0859> // \{Akio} "However, one day, Nagisa caught a cold with a fever." <0860> // \{Akio} "It was a cold day. The snow was falling and piling up." <0861> // \{Akio} "It was the kind of day that no one wanted to go outside." <0862> // \{Akio} "At that time ... I was practicing for a big performance at the end of the year. Sanae-san was helping a student with the upcoming examination." <0863> // \{Akio} "Neither of us were able to get enough time to talk with each other about it that day." <0864> // \{Akio} "And we both left the house while Nagisa was still sleeping." <0865> // \{Akio} "Yet..." <0866> // \{Akio} "Just as usual, Nagisa waited on that day too. In front of the gate to our house.." <0867> // \{Akio} "It really should have been expected, when we think about it now." <0868> // \{Akio} "However, at that time in her condition we never thought she would do such a thing." <0869> // \{Akio} "We really should have noticed..." <0870> // \{Akio} "That was her utmost desire." <0871> // \{Akio} "Nagisa was always an adult, never using childish words..." <0872> // \{Akio} "She would say, 'I always want to be near you.'" <0873> // \{Akio} "Therefore, on that day as well, she was only being herself..." <0874> // \{Akio} "It didn't matter that she was sick and running a fever..." <0875> // \{Akio} "When I returned home, Nagisa had fallen in front of the house." <0876> // \{Akio} "She was buried in the snow." <0877> // \{Akio} "It's a cruel story..." <0878> // \{Akio} "For us, to know that our mistakes could hurt the most important thing in our lives..." <0879> // \{Akio} "........." <0880> // \{Akio} "Immediately after I carried her inside, I called the doctor." <0881> // \{Akio} "The doctor ran over, and gave her all kinds of treatments." * <0882> // \{Akio} "Yet... her fever didn't fall ..." <0883> // \{Akio} "Even at the dawn, nothing..." <0884> // \{Akio} "........." <0885> // \{Akio} "About this sad thing, we didn't know what to do..." <0886> // \{Akio} "Sanae-san and I were in despair..." <0887> // \{Akio} "I felt pushed down to the bottom of a pitch-dark valley." <0888> // \{Akio} "I didn't think it would be possible to crawl out of it." <0889> // \{Akio} "I held Nagisa's body..." <0890> // \{Akio} "Then I left." <0891> // \{Akio} "All that I could do was pray." <0892> // \{Akio} "Such final moments was unpleasant..." <0893> // \{Akio} "To find assistance for this child..." <0894> // \{Akio} "The dark clouds advanced..." <0895> // \{Akio} "I... \p reached here at last." <0896> // \{Akio} "And, this green field... I thought it wrapped up Nagisa." <0897> // \{Akio} "I wondered if everything was a dream." <0898> // \{Akio} "However, all that remained was a shape." <0899> // \{Akio} "In the light of the morning ... \p Nagisa opened her eyes, and saw me." <0900> // \{Akio} "Tears swelled up and poured down my cheeks." <0901> // \{Akio} "I expressed my gratitude for everything." <0902> // \{Akio} "And, I vowed. I would always be beside her." <0903> // \{Akio} "Since then..." <0904> // \{Akio} "Always, I visit this place." <0905> // \{Akio} "Without this place, I don't think that my child would be living today." <0906> // \{Akio} "Hey, brat." <0907> // \{Akio} "It's okay if you don't believe the story of this place..." <0908> // \{Akio} "But you know, that in the future, pain and sadness might wait for you." <0909> // \{Akio} "Do you understand, brat..." <0910> // Pops saw my face. <0911> // \{Akio} "No, \m{B}." <0912> // The power of his eyes rallied. <0913> // \{Akio} "We are family." <0914> // \{Akio} "We will help each other." <0915> // \{\m{B}} "........." <0916> // \{\m{B}} "Y-yeah..." <0917> // I, however, was only able to nod. <0918> // While I clasped Nagisa's hand, I reflected on Pops' short. <0919> // I didn't comprehend one part of it. <0920> // Just what did Pops mean? <0921> // However, there is one thing was conveyed. <0922> // That is the same pain in the chest that I have felt for quite some time. <0923> // This town changes. <0924> // And, we are caught up in this big wave... that crashes down, and then retreats away. <0925> // Such an overwhelming power deprives Nagisa, and takes her away. <0926> // Someday... <0927> // Someday, will this clasped hand also be separated? <0928> // I don't want to think of such a day. <0929> // I don't want to think of such a painful day. <0930> // Nagisa... <0931> // for a very long time, I want you to stay beside me... <0932> // And for our new life... to be together with all of us. <0933> // A few days pass from then... <0934> // I come back here again while Nagisa was sleeping. <0935> // --and, this place of green, which wraps up Nagisa... <0936> // Just what is it. <0937> // Did this place really save Nagisa's life? <0938> // --which in the future, pain and sadness might wait for you... <0939> // Or that... it is some kind of symbol? <0940> // It is said that everything changes. <0941> // Even the nature in this town, important people... <0942> // Even Nagisa as well... <0943> // Together with this place... <0944> // Forever lost... <0945> // That is what you're trying to say right. <0946> // That day I took a break from work, I stayed by Nagisa all morning. <0947> // We ate the rice gruel that I made, then I cleaned up the place a bit... <0948> // Knock Knock. <0949> // The sound came from the door. <0950> // \{\m{B}} "Hm? Coming." <0951> // I answered the door, and found Sanae-san standing there. <0952> // \{\m{B}} "Eh, what's wrong?" <0953> // \{Sanae} "Because you're on a break, I came over." <0954> // \{\m{B}} "I am home today, so please feel free to stay home." <0955> // \{Sanae} "Am I a hindrance?" <0956> // \{\m{B}} "You can't think that... there is no way that you could be." <0957> // \{Sanae} "Then, excuse me for disturbing you then." <0958> // She removes her shoes, and arranges them neatly by my own. <0959> // \{Sanae} "Well, have you already eaten your meal?" <0960> // \{\m{B}} "Yes, just a while ago." <0961> // \{Sanae} "I haven't eaten yet. May I make something to eat?" <0962> // \{\m{B}} "Y-, yes, of course." <0963> // Since you weren't able to eat with us, I think it would have been better for you to eat at home with Pops. <0964> // Somehow, I felt pity for Pops. <0965> // Standing in the kitchen, Sanae-san opened the door to sink, then stopped moving. <0966> // \{Sanae} "Ah..." <0967> // \{Sanae} "You're out of rice." <0968> // \{\m{B}} "Eh, I'll go get some." <0969> // \{Sanae} "It wouldn't be right if I didn't buy it." <0970> // \{\m{B}} "I can run and get it. Please just wait here, Sanae-san." <0971> // \{Sanae} "No, I will go." <0972> // \{\m{B}} "No, please stay and chat with Nagisa." <0973> // \{Sanae} "Since I already am making food just for myself, I'll just pick something up when I return." <0974> // \{\m{B}} "But, I shouldn't leave buying the rice to you..." <0975> // \{Nagisa} "How about both of you go?" <0976> // Nagisa said in our general direction. <0977> // \{\m{B}} "What...?" <0978> // \{Nagisa} "The thought of mother eating alone, is so sad." <0979> // \{Nagisa} "\m{B}-kun, please go with her to eat. Then, please buy rice on the way home." <0980> // \{Nagisa} "Please." <0981> // \{\m{B}} "No... but..." <0982> // \{Sanae} "Nagisa, I'm sorry. I'll only borrow \m{B}-san for a short time, okay?" <0983> // I hesitate, but Sanae-san takes my hand as she said so. <0984> // I thought it was surprising. This isn't an action that Sanae-san would naturally take. <0985> // \{Nagisa} "Okay, I'll be just fine." <0986> // Nagisa didn't seem to take any notice in it, as she saw us off. <0987> // \{Sanae} "I'm sorry, \m{B}-san." <0988> // \{\m{B}} "For?" <0989> // \{Sanae} "That you have to keep company with me during my meal..." <0990> // \{\m{B}} "No, it's alright. Nagisa seemed to really want us to." <0991> // \{\m{B}} "Let's return in about an hour." <0992> // \{Sanae} "Alright." <0993> // \{\m{B}} "Here, this is the place where Nagisa worked." <0994> // \{Sanae} "Yes, that is what I heard." <0995> // \{\m{B}} "The shop manager is also an acquaintance... this is a good place." <0996> // \{Sanae} "Yes, it doesn't matter to me." <0997> // \{Sanae} "Hee~" <0998> // Sanae-san looks around the store, in admiration. <0999> // \{Sanae} "A very 'now' store isn't it." <1000> // \{\m{B}} "That's an obsolete word." <1001> // \{Sanae} "Haha, but, this is the first time I've eaten in a place like this, I'm a bit nervous." <1002> // \{\m{B}} "You don't dine out very much?" <1003> // \{Sanae} "That right, I don't." <1004> // \{\m{B}}"How about Pops? Does he care for the house alone?" <1005> // \{Sanae} "Yes, he has force needed for tending the store." <1006> // \{Sanae} "Thus, I can go on this date with \m{B}-san." <1007> // \{\m{B}} "Now, I'm quite shocked." <1008> // \{Sanae} "Even with such an old lady, you can be shocked?" <1009> // \{\m{B}} "Sanae-san is young, seriously." <1010> // \{Sanae} "That makes me happy to hear." <1011> // Sanae-san ordered fruit juice and I asked for iced coffee. <1012> // \{\m{B}} "Do you not usually eat in the daytime?" <1013> // \{Sanae} "Yes, I usually do." <1014> // \{\m{B}} "...?" <1015> // The waitress brings the fruit juice and the iced coffee. <1016> // Sanae-san takes the glass, and drinks the orange colored juice through a straw. <1017> // And after her drink she speaks. <1018> // \{Sanae} "Childbirth... is difficult." <1019> // \{\m{B}} "... eh?" <1020> // For a moment I don't understand what she is saying. <1021> // However, after thinking about the emphasis of her words, all I can do is turn my face down. <1022> // \{Sanae} "In the state she is in, even being in the mother's womb is dangerous..." <1023> // \{Sanae} "That is the opinion of the doctor that is regularly examining her." <1024> // \{Sanae} "It would be best if the decision is made soon, and..." <1025> // Right now Sanae-san is just showing a mere bravado of courage. <1026> // She created this situation only so she could tell this story. <1027> // To tell this ... painful story. <1028> // \{\m{B}} "To make a soon decision about what... that..." <1029> // \{Sanae} "Yes. It is about abortion." <1030> // Sanae-san was able to say the words that were not easy to say. <1031> // \{Sanae} "Of course, if only Nagisa's temperature would fall." <1032> // \{Sanae} "But, \m{B}-san, you already know... Nagisa's fever drags on." <1033> // \{Sanae} "Therefore, it is the doctor's opinion ..." <1034> // \{\m{B}} "Is that so..." <1035> // \{Sanae} "Somehow, \m{B}-san." <1036> // \{Sanae} "Please talk with her about this." <1037> // \{Sanae} "I don't care if it takes time," <1038> // \{Sanae} "because this is a very important matter." <1039> // \{\m{B}} "I understand..." <1040> // \{\m{B}} "Sanae-san." <1041> // \{Sanae} "Yes." <1042> // \{\m{B}} "Always... for the things you do for us, thank you very much." <1043> // \{Sanae} "No." <1044> // \{Sanae} "Because we're a family." <1045> // She says with a big grin and happy face. <1046> // That was such a huge relief. <1047> // \{Nagisa} "Did you have fun eating with mom?" <1048> // \{\m{B}} "Ah, yea..." <1049> // \{Nagisa} "Mom looks so young; it must have looked like you were on a date." <1050> // \{\m{B}} "Perhaps..." <1051> // \{Nagisa} "Where you able to buy the rice?" <1052> // \{\m{B}} "No..." <1053> // \{Nagisa} "You didn't buy any?" <1054> // \{\m{B}} "Ah... I forgot..." <1055> // \{Nagisa} "Is that so..." <1056> // \{\m{B}} "........." <1057> // \{Nagisa} "You ... don't look good." <1058> // \{\m{B}} "........." <1059> // \{Nagisa} "What's wrong, \m{B}-kun?" <1060> // \{\m{B}} "........." <1061> // \{\m{B}} "You know, Nagisa." <1062> // \{Nagisa} "What?" <1063> // It wasn't necessary to respond. <1064> // \{\m{B}} "Our child..." <1065> // \{\m{B}} "Childbirth ... is difficult." <1066> // \{Nagisa} "........." <1067> // \{Nagisa} "I want to give birth." <1068> // That... was a very natural answer. <1069> // \{\m{B}} "Nagisa, I also desire that thought..." <1070> // However, I... have to persuade her. <1071> // In order to protect her... <1072> // \{\m{B}} "Even if your body could give birth today, our child might suffer a misfortune..." <1073> // \{\m{B}} "That misfortune... you too might face..." <1074> // \{\m{B}} "I don't want to see such thing..." <1075> // \{Nagisa} "........." <1076> // \{Nagisa} "... I want to keep fighting on." <1077> // \{Nagisa} "Is that no good?" <1078> // \{\m{B}} "........." <1079> // \{\m{B}} "Because there is still some time... let's talk about it again later..." <1080> // \{\m{B}} "Because you don't have to decide just yet..." <1081> // The next day, we talk about it again. <1082> // However...\p Nagisa's decision is unchanged. <1083> // \{Nagisa} "For my weaknesses..." <1084> // \{Nagisa} "to have to kill a person's life, I can not bear the thought of it..." <1085> // Nagisa had already envisioned... a life seen by two. <1086> // To protect Ushio with both her hands was her drive. <1087> // \{Nagisa} "If it's for my child, I especially do everything I can." <1088> // \{Nagisa} "I want my strength to be giving birth." <1089> // \{Nagisa} "A mother's strength..." <1090> // \{\m{B}} "........." <1091> // \{Nagisa} "So it can meet \m{B}-kun, that's why I'm fighting and so I can live strongly." <1092> // \{Nagisa} "So... the most important thing, I do not want to lose." <1093> // \{Nagisa} "I want to give birth to Shio-chan." <1094> // \{\m{B}} "........." <1095> // \{Nagisa} "\m{B}-kun..." <1096> // \{Nagisa} "My body may be weak..." <1097> // \{Nagisa} "Somehow..." <1098> // \{Nagisa} "Please let me live strongly." <1099> // \{\m{B}} "........." <1100> // \{\m{B}} "You are..." <1101> // \{\m{B}} "Plenty strong..." <1102> // \{\m{B}} "Amazingly strong..." <1103> // \{\m{B}} "Already, isn't that enough...?" <1104> // \{\m{B}} "Already..." <1105> // Midway through... my voice becomes tearful. <1106> // \{\m{B}} "Surely it is I who am weaker..." <1107> // \{\m{B}} "Afraid, I am..." <1108> // \{\m{B}} "About losing you..." <1109> // \{\m{B}} "I am really scared of losing you..." <1110> // \{Nagisa} "...I'm quite alright." <1111> // \{Nagisa} "As long as \m{B}-kun exists..." <1112> // \{Nagisa} "As long as you hold my hand... I'll do my best." <1113> // \{Nagisa} "As this child's mother..." <1114> // \{Nagisa} "Therefore... \m{B}-kun too, as this child's father, please hold my hand." <1115> // \{Nagisa} "Please." <1116> // \{Sanae} "\m{B}-san... you're tired right?" <1117> // \{\m{B}}"My body is energetic..." <1118> // \{\m{B}} "Yet..." <1119> // \{\m{B}} "Yet... if I am really okay, I completely don't know..." <1120> // \{\m{B}} "What I say might be a terrible, cruel thing..." <1121> // \{\m{B}} "That is, you may be depressed, and may not recover..." <1122> // \{\m{B}} "That is, even I want to give birth... to my child..." <1123> // \{\m{B}} "It is a life that I've been watching over here..." <1124> // \{\m{B}} "Given a name to..." <1125> // \{\m{B}} "But, I am..." <1126> // \{\m{B}} "I am..." <1127> // \{\m{B}} "I am uneasy that there is no other way..." <1128> // \{\m{B}} "Uneasy..." <1129> // \{\m{B}} "I want..." <1130> // \{\m{B}} "Nagisa to..." <1131> // \{\m{B}} "I want Nagisa to keep living..." <1132> // \{Sanae} "\m{B}-san, please take a rest." <1133> // \{\m{B}} "I cannot sleep..." <1134> // \{Sanae} "That's okay. Just lay your body down." <1135> // \{Sanae} "I think that child also is tired. Therefore, please keep some distance between you two." <1136> // \{Sanae} "I will stay at \m{B}-san's house." <1137> // \{Sanae} "Therefore, \m{B}-san, please rest in my home." <1138> // \{\m{B}} "I couldn't put you such a troubling position..." <1139> // \{Sanae} "That is the opinion of your nearest caring person." <1140> // \{Sanae} "Right now, you're both tired of seeing other." <1141> // \{Sanae} "Even for a short time, you two should keep away from each other." <1142> // \{Sanae} "So as to be able to work out some of your thoughts." <1143> // \{\m{B}} "........." <1144> // What Sanae-san said is true. <1145> // \{Sanae} "Please, \m{B}-san" <1146> // \{\m{B}} "Okay..." <1147> // \{\m{B}} "Only for one night..." <1148> // \{Akio} "Tche.. a bride stealing a man's lover.... time to have a cigarette and get drunk" <1149> // \{\m{B}} "That whole 'have a cigarette and get drunk' thing really doesn't appeal to me..." <1150> // \{Akio} "Don't be such a spoiled-sport... do you drink sake? If you drink, it's possible to sleep even if thins are unpleasant. <1151> // \{\m{B}} "When drinking, do you cry or laugh or act violently? I'd like to know." <1152> // \{Akio} "It's okay." <1153> // \{Akio} "Crying and laughing and acting violently, I can keep things under control." <1154> // \{Akio} "Alright, finish it up" <1155> // I drink at the same pace as Pops. <1156> // This is the first time to have consumed so much alcohol, to beyond this extent. <1157> // The number of empty cans and bottles on the floor increases. <1158> // \{\m{B}} "Hey, Pops..." <1159> // \{Akio} "What?" <1160> // \{\m{B}} "Hey Pops, what would you do, if you were in my situation..." <1161> // \{Akio} "Tche... don't you know? I am standing in that situation." <1162> // \{\m{B}} "What, how about a metaphorically?" <1163> // \{\m{B}} "Then, suppose for a moment that it was so with Sanae-san..." <1164> // \{\m{B}} "That Sanae-san's body is weak, but says that she wants to give birth to a child anyway." <1165> // \{Akio} "If she herself said she wanted to have the birth... I would allow her to do so." <1166> // \{\m{B}} "Why? And what if Sanae-san was going to die from it!?" <1167> // \{Akio} "Don't go killing Sanae without my permission!!" <1168> // \{\m{B}} "I said metaphorically." <1169> // \{Akio} "Tche..." <1170> // \{Akio} "Hey, \m{B}. this is what I think." <1171> // \{Akio} "After all, it might be that person's reason for living, being inside of family and loving person." <1172> // \{Akio} "Therefore, we..." <1173> // \{Akio} "That day, we gave our dreams, and entrusted them to Nagisa..." <1174> // \{Akio} "When one lives alone, it is not a good thing..." <1175> // \{Akio} "Like living alone on some distant star." <1176> // \{Akio} "What kind of provisions does it take to live?" <1177> // \{Akio} "There's nothing at all, right." <1178> // \{Akio} "Therefore, people must be connected." <1179> // \{Akio} "When one connects with someone for the first time, you're alive, and you can feel it." <1180> // \{Akio} "Happiness is also born from it." <1181> // \{Akio} "Therefore, how could that possibly be denied... by me..." <1182> // \{\m{B}} "........." <1183> // \{Akio} "That is my idea now. Don't worry about it." <1184> // \{\m{B}} "........." <1185> // \{\m{B}} "If we noticed earlier, would it have been better..." <1186> // \{\m{B}} "Before it grew so much..." <1187> // \{Akio} "No..." <1188> // \{Akio} "You already know." <1189> // \{Akio} "Such things are unrelated." <1190> // \{\m{B}} "Then, I am at fault..." <1191> // \{Akio} "That's also wrong" <1192> // \{Akio} "This..." <1193> // \{Akio} "At some time has already been visited." <1194> // \{Akio} "She has an ordinary wish, that's all." <1195> // \{\m{B}} "........." <1196> // \{Akio} "She wished for it." <1197> // \{Akio} "Do not blame yourself." <1198> // \{Akio} "........." <1199> // Pops lights the cigarette held in his mouth. <1200> // \{Akio} "Fuu..." <1201> // He didn't say anything else, only blew out smoke from his mouth. <1202> // \{\m{B}} "........." <1203> // After that I just become silent ... and watch the smoke disappear in to the air in front of me. <1204> // \{Akio} "Anyhow, time for sleep..." <1205> // It is past 3 AM. <1206> // Even after turning off the lights I still can't sleep... <1207> // As my mind continued to think. <1208> // About Pops and Sanae-san. <1209> // Both of them had their own individual dream. <1210> // Pops to be in the theater, and Sanae-san to be a classroom teacher. <1211> // For each other, they gave up those dreams. <1212> // Their dreams were entrusted to their daughter. <1213> // And then they did what they could to ensure their daughter's happiness. <1214> // Yes... <1215> // ----after all, it might be that being within support of family and loved-one is a person's reason for living. <1216> // I arrived at that same point. <1217> // I also was the same. <1218> // The reason why I live, and live with Nagisa, is to share happiness with her. <1219> // For that reason, I live. <1220> // And, also... <1221> // Nagisa, who brought life into me, is the same. <1222> // People's dreams and happiness are always there. <1223> // I must make myself accept that... <1224> // Can I take that away?... <1225> // If I were to lose Nagisa, I'd be in despair. <1226> // She's trying to do the same thing... <1227> // Such a thing can't be done... <1228> // I can't do it... <1229> // However, I am uneasy... <1230> // That place... <1231> // Like the way of nature, there is no one who doesn't change anywhere. <1232> // Similarly, being likely to vanish... <1233> // Being likely to go far away... <1234> // This uneasy thought... being likely thrown how it is now... <1235> // ......... <1236> // ...that's not right. <1237> // Such a thing is unrelated... <1238> // Such things can not be believed... <1239> // But, because Nagisa and I have surmounted so much to get to today... <1240> // Any kind of difficulty, we've surmounted them... <1241> // Person and person together. <1242> // Thus... <1243> // This time, it would be best if we could surmount this... <1244> // But, because she said she wants to keep trying... <1245> // Because she says she is strong... <1246> // Therefore, we... <1247> // Until today it is the same... <1248> // We should continue to walk forward... <1249> // Putting our effort together... <1250> // To keep realizing the dream. <1251> // I wake up. <1252> // I don't know what time it is. <1253> // I pull my body out of bed. <1254> // I walk towards where I hear people's voices. <1255> // \{Akio} "Thanks" <1256> // Now, Pops sees the customer off. <1257> // \{Akio} "Buy some more... shikete customer..." <1258> // \{Akio} "Fuu..." <1259> // \{Akio} "Owa..." <1260> // Pops is surprised to see me when he turns around. <1261> // \{Akio} "What are you doing, if you're there, then use your voice." <1262> // \{\m{B}} "Yo." <1263> // \{Akio} ""Good morning" you mean." <1264> // \{\m{B}} "Morning." <1265> // \{Akio} "Yeah, morning." <1266> // \{Akio} "So did you sleep well?" <1267> // \{\m{B}} "Thanks to the sake." <1268> // \{Akio} "Hangover?" <1269> // \{\m{B}} "I'm alright." <1270> // \{Akio} "Really. It's already gone?" <1271> // \{\m{B}} "Yeah..." <1272> // And... <1273> // these people's dreams as well... <1274> // \{\m{B}} "Pops..." <1275> // \{Akio} "What?" <1276> // \{\m{B}} "I... \p Is it okay if I don't to stop her?" <1277> // \{Akio} "........." <1278> // \{Akio} "Ah... don't stop it." <1279> // \{\m{B}} "Why?" <1280> // \{Akio} "He who suffers the most must find an answer to a question." <1281> // \{Akio} "That is best." <1282> // \{Akio} "We are now a united family and support her." <1283> // \{\m{B}} "........." <1284> // \{\m{B}} "Yes..." <1285> // \{\m{B}} "I understand..." <1286> // \{Voice} "Good morn-ing." <1287> // A new customer peeked into the shop. <1288> // \{Akio} "Look, you're obstructing my work. Quickly get out." <1289> // \{\m{B}} "Yeah, thanks for your assistance." <1290> // Changing places with the guest, I head to the back of the shop. <1291> // The door to the room opened and I saw Sanae-san standing there; she invited me outside again. <1292> // \{\m{B}} "Sanae-san..." <1293> // \{Sanae} "I talked with the Doctor again." <1294> // \{Sanae} "He said that if we can keep the current reduced state of activity, then the birth may still be possible." <1295> // \{Sanae} "However, there still is no change in the amount of danger." <1296> // \{Sanae} "Yagi-san... we still need to have her judgment." <1297> // \{Sanae} "If we're going to have the baby, it will take everyone's effort." <1298> // \{\m{B}} "Understood... thank you very much." <1299> // I return inside the room. <1300> // \{\m{B}} "Nagisa... are you up?" <1301> // I call in a quiet voice. <1302> // \{Nagisa} "\m{B}-kun, is that you?" <1303> // Nagisa turned her face towards me. <1304> // \{\m{B}} "Yes" <1305> // I sit down next to her. <1306> // And, I naturally clasp her hand. <1307> // \{\m{B}} "Hey, Nagisa." <1308> // \{\m{B}} "I'd like to ask a question" <1309> // \{\m{B}} "You, must live strong..." <1310> // \{\m{B}} "As a strong mother, giving birth to a new life, and raise it, but I still have a question..." <1311> // \{\m{B}} "That is, why are you doing it..." <1312> // \{\m{B}} "Please tell me..." <1313> // \{Nagisa} "It is what I should do." <1314> // \{\m{B}} "That's... the main reason?" <1315> // \{Nagisa} "Yes... that is my main reason." <1316> // \{Nagisa} "Until now I was very weak..." <1317> // \{Nagisa} "I should do this first as a mother..." <1318> // \{Nagisa} "If I was defeated here..." <1319> // \{Nagisa} "I wouldn't have the qualification to become someone's parent... I'd just be a weak child..." <1320> // \{Nagisa} "Then ... this child who has stayed in my stomach... would be so sad." <1321> // \{Nagisa} "Therefore, it is necessary for me to give birth..." <1322> // \{Nagisa} "And I made it together with you \m{B}-kun ... this child..." <1323> // \{Nagisa} "I will be a strong mother." <1324> // She said, while placing her other hand on her stomach. <1325> // \{\m{B}} "Hey, Nagisa..." <1326> // \{\m{B}} "For me, living with you is the reason that I live." <1327> // \{\m{B}} "For that I want to live." <1328> // \{Nagisa} "Yes." <1329> // \{\m{B}} "And, you want to live strongly..." <1330> // \{\m{B}} "As a strong mother, you want to produce a new life..." <1331> // \{\m{B}} "That is the reason that you want to live." <1332> // \{Nagisa} "Yes." <1333> // \{\m{B}} "Then, let's realize our two dreams" <1334> // \{Nagisa} "Is that really okay...?" <1335> // \{\m{B}} "Yes." <1336> // \{\m{B}} "The alternative..." <1337> // I strongly clasp her hand. <1338> // \{\m{B}} "The absolute defeat would be so hopeless." <1339> // \{\m{B}} "Absolutely, I don't want to allow that." <1340> // \{\m{B}} "The other results do not exist." <1341> // \{\m{B}} "Frustrations, mistakes, nothing." <1342> // \{\m{B}} "Realizing our two dreams... that alone." <1343> // \{\m{B}} "Absolutely." <1344> // \{\m{B}} "Alright, Nagisa..." <1345> // \{Nagisa} "........." <1346> // Nagisa's face was sweaty. <1347> // ...her smile forced. <1348> // I thought it is the face of a future mother. <1349> // \{Nagisa} "...yes" <1350> // She nods her head powerfully. <1351> // Nagisa keeps fighting on. <1352> // Pops, Sanae-san, and I, we are all supporting her. <1353> // The reason Nagisa lives strongly is to give birth to our child. <1354> // And my reason is to live with Nagisa... <1355> // Pops and Sanae-san wish for Nagisa to be happy. <1356> // Everyone's dream is connected. <1357> // The family has become one, and moves forward. <1358> // No one is alone, everyone is near someone. <1359> // I feel the warm of such tears coming out... <1360> // ...of an ordinary day. <1361> // It felt like the beginning of the arrival of autumn to the skin. <1362> // In the corner of the room, the things needed for the child that will be born start collecting. <1363> // Without any request from us, Pops and Sanae-san add to them every day. <1364> // It's so embarrassing that the diapers have been piling up; just how many months of wear? <1365> // \{Nagisa} "It's funny, ehehe..." <1366> // Every time Nagisa saw it, she laughed. <1367> // \{\m{B}} "Those two will not be satisfied until everything has been bought." <1368> // \{\m{B}} "And, because no one even noticed we're out of toilet paper, it's stupid." <1369> // \{\m{B}} "Next time I'll just have put on one of those diapers." <1370> // \{Nagisa} "That would be good." <1371> // \{Nagisa} "Surely it would be cute." <1372> // \{\m{B}} "Is that so...?" <1373> // Nagisa pats her swollen belly. <1374> // As a companion of our conversations, this child also gives its response. <1375> // Gently calling out with a smile. <1376> // \{Doctor} "This is the last chance you'll have to have an abortion." <1377> // Said the Doctor after completing the medical examination here. <1378> // The doctor has learned of Nagisa's stubborn will, so he continues. <1379> // \{Doctor} "Maybe, if would just think of the danger to the mother's womb, you would do so." <1380> // \{Doctor} "Hereafter, the burden will only increase." <1381> // \{Doctor} "Even if you get over your current sickness, we don't know if you will have the physical strength left for the delivery." <1382> // ......... <1383> // \{Nagisa} "At that time..." <1384> // Everyone inside becomes quiet, as Nagisa's mouth was open. <1385> // \{Nagisa} "At that time, how will the baby in my stomach be...?" <1386> // \{Doctor} "As a general rule, priority is given to the mother's womb for the birth." <1387> // \{Doctor} "However, in \m{A}-san's situation, your physical strength and questions with your current disease are still a problem." <1388> // \{Doctor} "As I have said many times, as just a private person, I am opposed to \m{A}-san giving birth to the child." <1389> // \{Doctor} "Because..." <1390> // The doctor frowns his already wrinkled face further, and speaks. <1391> // \{Doctor} "I can not guarantee the safety of the mother's womb..." <1392> // \{Doctor} "Of course, there is still a possibility of a still birth." <1393> // \{Doctor} "And if your fever doesn't fall, that also might cause complications." <1394> // \{Doctor} "All of these kinds of dangers are just assumptions." <1395> // \{Doctor} "Still, do you still want to have the delivery?" <1396> // \{Akio} "Tch... somehow or another we will, bastard." <1397> // \{Doctor} "Of course, I will do everything that I can do, and I'll have to visit here often." <1398> // \{Akio} "Ah, yes... we know that." <1399> // \{Doctor} "Please, discuss this with the members of your family." <1400> // \{Doctor} "Well then, I must be going for today." <1401> // \{Sanae} "Thank you very much." <1402> // Sanae-san stands up and sees the doctor out. <1403> // The silence continued after Sanae-san returned. <1404> // \{Akio} "... ah, that's right" <1405> // \{Akio} "How's dinner coming along, Sanae?" <1406> // \{Sanae} "We ate just awhile ago." <1407> // \{Akio} "Is, is that so...?" <1408> // \{Nagisa} "........." <1409> // Nagisa, quietly, looked over at the pile of diapers. <1410> // And what she was thinking... <1411> // \{\m{B}} "........." <1412> // Pops, Sanae-san, and I... we all knew. <1413> // Even with everything, Nagisa still wants to give birth. <1414> // Therefore, everyone tries only to calm themselves. <1415> // ...Can I see the way that Nagisa moves forward, warmly, and strongly? <1416> // While thinking about that. <1417> // Before long, everyone might renew their own purpose. <1418> // \{Akio} "Thought this is a room with so little free space, what's with all these diapers?" <1419> // \{\m{B}} "But it's you who are always buying them" <1420> // \{Nagisa} "Recently, \m{B}-kun said he would have to wear one." <1421> // \{Sanae} "Is that true, \m{B}-san?" <1422> // The gloomy feeling leaves the room, and the normal condition returns. <1423> // Now, we can see the way that Nagisa moves forward, warmly, and strongly. <1424> // Therefore, we followed along. <1425> // \{\m{B}} "Possibly, Sanae-san might have a grudge against me... or so I think." <1426> // \{Sanae} "Oh? Why would you think that?" <1427> // \{\m{B}} "Because I changed Nagisa." <1428> // \{Sanae} "Changed... you said?" <1429> // \{\m{B}} "When I met Nagisa for the first time, she truly was quite weak." <1430> // \{\m{B}} "She truly was always on the verge of crying..." <1431> // \{\m{B}} "Before I came, she was standing on the slope to the school gate..." <1432> // \{\m{B}} "She was a girl who couldn't even take one small step forward." <1433> // \{\m{B}} "Then, after meeting me... she has strengthened." <1434> // \{\m{B}} "Therefore, if she had not met me, I don't think she'd be doing things dangerous like these." <1435> // \{Sanae} "That's not true at all, \m{B}-san." <1436> // \{\m{B}} "Yes... It is because you're such a nice person, Sanae-san, that you say that." <1437> // \{Sanae} "But it's my true feelings." <1438> // \{\m{B}} "Yes... thank you very much." <1439> // I... should I allow you to praise me? <1440> // However, is that only it...? <1441> // \{\m{B}} "Because I didn't know my mother..." <1442> // \{Sanae} "That was so?" <1443> // \{\m{B}} "Therefore, honestly Sanae-san, you're like a mother to me." <1444> // \{Sanae} "I am honored by that." <1445> // \{Sanae} "But please think carefully for awhile, if having such a cry-baby as mother is so good." <1446> // \{\m{B}} "Yes." <1447> // There wasn't that much snow this winter. <1448> // In the past, the snow was thick enough to allow for a snowball fight... <1449> // Now it is impossible to believe of such things ever happened. <1450> // When the snow sleets down on the ground, it is instantly turned to water and loses its color. <1451> // Such a thing we watched steadily. <1452> // One day at work. <1453> // \{\m{B}} (Here... is near that place...) <1454> // I remembered its existence. <1455> // Yes.. that place, it must have been an important place. <1456> // \{\m{B}} "Is it alright if I slip out for a moment?" <1457> // \{Yoshino} "For what?" <1458> // \{\m{B}} "Sorry, I'll be back soon." <1459> // Without having obtained permission, I run out. <1460> // \{\m{B}} "Ah..." <1461> // Why... <1462> // I could not find the word, so I did not speak. <1463> // I don't know... about these kinds of things. <1464> // I sit down in that place. <1465> // \{Voice} "The town keeps changing. It's not possible to stop it." <1466> // Pops came near, and I stood up. <1467> // \{Akio} "Everything around us changes..." <1468> // \{Akio} "That is, why people live, or so they say..." <1469> // Pops might always be watching over this place. <1470> // With me, on that day he also visited that place. <1471> // For awhile we don't say anything, we just stared off at the cold standing structure. <1472> // \{\m{B}} "Pops..." <1473> // \{Akio} "What is it..." <1474> // \{\m{B}} "To the point of a crime, if I could stop this construction... I wonder if would allow Nagisa to become lively again." <1475> // \{Akio} "A fool is that you are..." <1476> // \{Akio} "A single individual's power can't possibly stop it..." <1477> // \{Akio} "That is... I'm told this place is going to be a hospital..." <1478> // \{Akio} "For a long time, we haven't had one in this town" <1479> // \{Akio} "And from this point... how many lives will be saved... think about it." <1480> // \{Akio} "The town is changing... so that people can live..." <1481> // \{Akio} "There isn't any other way..." <1482> // \{\m{B}} "I... have come to hate this town..." <1483> // \{Akio} "Thought that is because of your current circumstance..." <1484> // \{Akio} "Don't fall into despair." <1485> // \{Akio} "By all means, if your at the point of wanting to commit a crime, come talk to me first." <1486> // \{\m{B}} "Are you going to stop me...?" <1487> // \{Akio} "I won't stop you." <1488> // \{Akio} "I'll just try to find a substitute." <1489> // And with that that word, I thought I could come out of the illusionary world. <1490> // I truly also loved this person as well. <1491> // After work I return home, I change positions with Sanae-san sitting next to Nagisa. <1492> // And I hold Nagisa's hand. <1493> // Nagisa places her other than on her swelling stomach. <1494> // It already feels like we're a family. <1495> // We are a family of three people, That's how it feels. <1496> // \{\m{B}} "Are you not cold?" <1497> // \{Nagisa} "No..." <1498> // \{Nagisa} "\m{B}-kun's hand is colder." <1499> // \{\m{B}} "Is that so..." <1500> // \{Nagisa} "Because it is still cold outside..." <1501> // \{\m{B}} "That it is..." <1502> // \{\m{B}} "Ah right... it's going to be Christmas soon." <1503> // I just recalled that. <1504> // \{Nagisa} "Yes." <1505> // \{\m{B}} "And at the same time it is your birthday." <1506> // \{渚} "Yes." <1507> // \{\m{B}} "What do you want this year? Say anything. I'll search to buy it." <1508> // \{渚} "Well, that over there is good." <1509> // She said, looking over in the corner of the room at a stuffed dango toy. <1510> // \{\m{B}} "Silly, those kinds of things, there is no use in buying more of them." <1511> // \{渚} "No, I want to have a lot of them. From one to two. And from two to three." <1512> // \{\m{B}} "A large family of dango, eh?" <1513> // \{渚} "Yes, exactly." <1514> // \{\m{B}} "Then, one per year, until they make a large pile?" <1515> // \{渚} "I'm happy with that. To see that would make me happy." <1516> // \{\m{B}} However, isn't that a premium thing. How many years ago did they stop making them." <1517> // \{\m{B}} "Year after year, it will be harder to find them." <1518> // \{\m{B}} "Being able to find one last year, it was purely by chance." <1519> // \{渚} "Is it too difficult a request?..." <1520> // \{\m{B}} "No... but, I am not sure. But it's your birthday after all." <1521> // It is the birthday of the most important person to me. <1522> // \{Nagisa} "Sorry... but, it would make me incredibly happy." <1523> // \{\m{B}} "Yes, entrust the task to me." <1524> // Two weeks pass and it is the day of Christmas. <1525> // Pops and Sanae-san also visit, like two years before, to congratulate Nagisa. <1526> // However, unlike 2 years ago, Nagisa did not cry. <1527> // \{Nagisa} "Incredibly cute!" <1528> // She held my present, a Dango Daikazoku stuffed animal, for a long time. <1529> // \{\m{B}} "Except for the color, it is exactly the same as the other." <1530> // \{Nagisa} "I will never get tired of such a cute thing." <1531> // \{\m{B}} "However, the old ones surely are envious. They feel left out." <1532> // \{Nagisa} "Because it's so big, I can not hold a lot at a time." <1533> // \{Nagisa} "Thus, I'd like \m{B}-kun to hold one." <1534> // \{\m{B}} "Huh? Me?" <1535> // \{Sanae} "Yes, please" <1536> // Sanae-san gets two of them, and brings them all the way back. <1537> // \{\m{B}} "Seriously?..." <1538> // \{Nagisa} "It will be sad if they are not held." <1539> // \{\m{B}} "Alright... but, two at the same time?" <1540> // \{Nagisa} "\m{B}-kun, your body is bigger, so it will be fine." <1541> // \{\m{B}} "One at a time is not good enough?" <1542> // \{Nagisa} "........." <1543> // \{\m{B}} "A, ah... I understand. I'll hold them." <1544> // I arrange the two dangos vertically and hold them. <1545> // The top one seems ready to tumble off. I have to hold it down with my chin. <1546> // Even my nose was buried in it. <1547> // It smelled like... Nagisa. <1548> // Could it be because she is always holding it...? <1549> // \{\m{B}} "How this... okay...?" <1550> // Muffled voice. Could she even hear it? <1551> // Nagisa laughs. <1552> // \{Nagisa} "\m{B}-kun, it's completely cute." <1553> // \{Nagisa} "ehehe" <1554> // In the end a smiling face. <1555> // A new year begins with the New Year. <1556> // Pops and Sanae-san both pray for an easy delivery at the first shrine visit of the year. <1557> // After coming back from the New Year's activities, they both spend time with us in our narrow room. <1558> // And we eat all of the rice cakes cooked vegetables that Sanae-san cooked. <1559> // Nagisa also eat some by pulling out the rice cakes. <1560> // On the last day of the first three days of the New Year, a most unthinkable guest visits us. <1561> // \{Sunohara} "Hey, it's been a long time." <1562> // \{\m{B}} "You, who are you?" <1563> // \{Sunohara} "Now you, we saw each other plenty last year." <1564> // \{\m{B}} "Could it be, Sunohara?" <1565> // \{Sunohara} "There is no 'could it be' about it. It IS Sunohara." <1566> // Behind him, Nishina and Sugisaka also appeared. <1567> // \{渚} "Everyone... how do you do today?" <1568> // Nagisa isn't able to conceal her joy that they have come. <1569> // \{Sunohara} "By now, because you've had so much rest, I thought you'd be surprised." <1570> // \{\m{B}} "No, it's only a surprise in your head..." <1571> // I look at Sanae-san. Sanae-san was never surprised, only a smiling face. <1572> // \{\m{B}} "Sanae-san, do you know them right?" <1573> // \{Sanae} "Yes." <1574> // \{Sanae} "By all means, I'd like to be surprised." <1575> // \{\m{B}} "And it was done." <1576> // \{Nishina} "Although I am a little late, congratulations on becoming a couple and getting married." <1577> // Sugisaka places a big bundle on the floor. <1578> // \{Sugisaka} "Because we're celebrating both of these together, I thought one wedding present would be good." <1579> // Sugisaka opens the closing. <1580> // From inside of the bundle, baby goods come pouring out. <1581> // A very similar set of things, are piled up on the wall beside it. <1582> // I command Pops with my chin to hide that pile. <1583> // \{Akio} "O, ou..." <1584> // \{Akio} "Wait, what, how dare you try to set me to work that way!" <1585> // \{Sugisaka} "Ah... you've already have a lot?" <1586> // \{\m{B}} "Look, are you just now noticing?" <1587> // \{Nagisa} "No, because it is something we need, it's not an inconvenience too have too much." <1588> // \{Nagisa} "Thank you very much." <1589> // Having come from Nagisa's mouth, we know they are honest words of gratitude. <1590> // \{Sanae} "Everyone, I'm sorry I only have left over things, but please eat some of these New Year's dishes." <1591> // Sanae-san stood in the kitchen. <1592> // \{Akio} "Alright, you're already 20 years old. Have some sake." <1593> // Pops pulls out a 1-shou bottle. <1594> // We drank sake, poked at the New Year's food, and have all around good time. <1595> // \{Nishina} "Furukawa-san's father is young and stylish, don't you think." <1596> // \{Akio} "ka, it's true, it's true. All because I'm in love, with this woman." <1597> // \{Sugisaka} "Mother too, young and a completely cute one, huh." <1598> // \{Akio} "Ka, it's true, it's true. Because she's my lady. Follow my example, with such a lady." <1599> // Nishina and Sugisaka spoil Pops who is in top form. <1600> // Sunohara and I are next to Nagisa. <1601> // \{Sunohara} "Hey, \m{A}" <1602> // \{Sunohara} "Now you both have the same family name. Isn't that complicated?" <1603> // \{渚} "No, it's no problem. Please just call me how you always have." <1604> // \{Sunohara} "Then, \m{A} as always." <1605> // \{Sunohara} "Right, \m{A}" <1606> // \{\m{B}} "Yeah." <1607> // \{Sunohara} "Becoming a father, how does it feel?" <1608> // \{\m{B}} "What kind of strange question are you asking." <1609> // \{Sunohara} "For me, I think these kind of things are still some future story." <1610> // \{Sunohara} "But, when I heard you say that you were going to be one, suddenly it felt closer to me than I thought." <1611> // \{Sunohara} "Hearing talk of these things in front of you, makes me think about becoming a father, and I feel that it would be a natural disaster." <1612> // \{Sunohara} "I don't think I'm ready to become one." <1613> // \{Sunohara} "Yet still, just what feelings happen as a part of these kind of things, I'd like to know." <1614> // I feel Nagisa's eyes fix on me waiting for my comment. <1615> // It might be something that Nagisa was interested in knowing as well. <1616> // \{\m{B}} "I really don't know..." <1617> // I answered. <1618> // \{\m{B}} "My true feelings, I don't yet know..." <1619> // \{\m{B}} "However, I've grown closer to my favorite person..." <1620> // \{\m{B}} "And it is for her that I live, that I know" <1621> // \{\m{B}} "But that's all." <1622> // \{Sunohara} "Haha." <1623> // Sunohara laughs at the answer. <1624> // \{Sunohara} "After everything, \m{A}, you haven't changed a bit." <1625> // \{\m{B}} "Is that so?" <1626> // \{Sunohara} "Yeah. But honestly, I thought you and Nagisa-chan had gone to some faraway place." <1627> // \{Sunohara} "However, unexpectedly how near you really are. That I've come to realize." <1628> // \{Sunohara} "It's so. If you've become absorbed in it, then become a father." <1629> // \{Sunohara} "Yes, if that's the case I am convinced." <1630> // Why is it that Sunohara seems to be relieved. <1631> // \{Sunohara} "If we could occasionally get together, just like this, it would be nice to keep these silly relationships." <1632> // \{\m{B}} "That's so... truly." <1633> // Everyone goes home, and a quiet visits the home. <1634> // \{Nagisa} "Shio-chan..." <1635> // \{Nagisa} "ehehe." <1636> // \{Nagisa} "Dango, Dango..." <1637> // Now, she begins to sing." <1638> // However, I think her singing is troubling. <1639> // \{\m{B}} "Hey you, aren't you tired. Could you stop singing for me?" <1640> // Actually, I am worried about her fever going up. <1641> // However, Nagisa did not stop singing. <1642> // \{Nagisa} "If there is anything I can possibly do for this child, then I want to do it..." <1643> // Her tone went up with her answer. <1644> // \{\m{B}} "Shio... I will sing... so you, be quiet and listen." <1645> // \{\m{B}} "Dango, Dango..." <1646> // I begin to sing. <1647> // However, Nagisa joins in. <1648> // \{\m{B}} "Now you... I'll get angry." <1649> // \{渚} "But... two people singing are much more cheerful than one person singing..." <1650> // \{Nagisa} "And I think that the more cheerful we are, the more cheerful this child will be." <1651> // \{Nagisa} "Right, Shio-chan?" <1652> // Even though she asked, there is no way that there could be a reply. <1653> // \{\m{B}} "Then, just a little." <1654> // \{Nagisa} "Okay" <1655> // We continued to sing together. <1656> // ...and so, we passed the time happily away. <1657> // At the end of January, her fever began to rise again. <1658> // It becomes impossible for Nagisa to even get out of bed. <1659> // Despite that, in her stomach, the new life's motions can be seen. <1660> // Powerfully, it is like it impatiently waits to be born into this world. <1661> // That purity... <1662> // slowly... <1663> // A life of its own, this child wishes to be delivered... <1664> // That ... scene. <1665> // That long-felt uneasiness continues to grow... <1666> // In the middle of the large current of time, trying to fight against the sorrow, but it advances on... <1667> // Within that current, Nagisa and I become separated... <1668> // Nagisa is carried to a place that we can never again meet. <1669> // Even reaching out... <1670> // Trying to connect, there is nothing there... <1671> // I can not reach. <1672> // Such a thing is unpleasant... <1673> // Absolutely unpleasant... <1674> // Nagisa lives... <1675> // So that the child is safely born... <1676> // And, that family, I continue to defend... <1677> // So everyone can become happy... <1678> // That is my dream... <1679> // Because they are the reason I live... <1680> // A telephone call. <1681> // \{Sanae} "It's Sanae" <1682> // A worried voice. <1683> // \{\m{B}} "What's wrong?" <1684> // \{Sanae} "Akio-san, he isn't over there is he?" <1685> // \{\m{B}} "No... I wasn't expecting him." <1686> // \{Sanae} "He didn't return after going out yesterday..." <1687> // \{\m{B}} "Did he say... where he was going?" <1688> // \{Sanae} "As usual, after baking the last bread in the afternoon, he casually leaves, just as normal..." <1689> // \{\m{B}} "I understand. Sanae-san, stay in the house. Because we don't know when he might return." <1690> // \{Sanae} "\m{B}-san, are you going to go look for him?" <1691> // \{\m{B}} "Yeah." <1692> // \{Sanae} "But, Nagisa will be alone..." <1693> // \{\m{B}} "No, right now she is asleep... for just a little bit." <1694> // \{\m{B}} "And, I think I know where he is. Therefore, I am going there, just to make sure..." <1695> // \{Sanae} "Then, I'll go there. Please tell me where it is." <1696> // \{\m{B}} "No... I can't tell you that. Sorry..." <1697> // I could not betray the will of Pops. <1698> // For Sanae-san's sake, I think he wants you to live in reality. <1699> // \{\m{B}} "I'll be back soon. Everything is fine." <1700> // \{Sanae} "I understand... please, \m{B}-san." <1701> // \{\m{B}} "...no problem." <1702> // As it came in view ahead, I saw a flood of big construction equipment. <1703> // And it is awful... noisy <1704> // Parties concerned about the construction had gathered, and where talking about everything. <1705> // I had a bad feeling. <1706> // In front of my eyes is a rope. <1707> // It limits how far the concerned parties can approach. <1708> // I strained my ears to hear. <1709> // \{Voice} (There was no one to eviction in this place... ) <1710> // \{Voice} (So, what connection do you have...?) <1711> // \{Voice} (That's strange isn't it...?) <1712> // \{Voice} (Because, it's not like you have a reason...) <1713> // At that point, I grasped the conviction. <1714> // But it is Pops that I am here for. <1715> // I recklessly run around looking for that figure. <1716> // \{Akio} "Yo, well isn't it \m{B}?" <1717> // \{\m{B}} "Pops..." <1718> // \{\m{B}} "You... what are you doing?" <1719> // \{Akio} "It's nothing. Everything is fine. After this I'll return home." <1720> // \{\m{B}} "You... before our conversation, where you going to do the same..." <1721> // \{Akio} "That was a promise." <1722> // \{Akio} "You only though I was saying it back then, but in reality I am doing it." <1723> // \{Akio} "........." <1724> // \{Akio} "Trees ... they are being cleared away..." <1725> // \{Akio} "In that talk, there may have been some expectation of hesitation..." <1726> // \{Akio} "But even I have my own thoughts." <1727> // \{Akio} "Nevertheless, I wait for a change in the body..." <1728> // \{Akio} "However, that is a scene judgment..." <1729> // \{Akio} "When the big shot leaves, eventually it will be preserved..." <1730> // \{Akio} "To the corner of the hospital... for a moment..." <1731> // \{Akio} "That is only the story..." <1732> // \{\m{B}} "Can I hit you?" <1733> // \{Akio} "What?" <1734> // Smack. <1735> // I hit him before waiting for an answer. <1736> // \{Akio} "That hurts!" <1737> // \{\m{B}} "Sanae-san is worried to death..." <1738> // \{\m{B}} "Feel her distress...!" <1739> // \{Akio} "Do what...?" <1740> // \{\m{B}} "Anyhow, I'm going home." <1741> // Pops stayed there as I left. <1742> // The high fever still afflicts Nagisa. <1743> // Nagisa looks worn-out. <1744> // Will you be able to hold out through the rest of this? <1745> // However, if Nagisa's sleeping face were to weaken away, I'd feel like I had to run away. <1746> // A surge in the tide is due soon... <1747> // Will you be able to cash in on it... <1748> // I put my energy in our clasped hands. <1749> // \{Nagisa} "\m{B}-kun..." <1750> // A voice. <1751> // Nagisa weakly opened her eyes. <1752> // \{\m{B}} "Yes, what is it, Nagisa..." <1753> // \{Nagisa} "I am a trouble for everyone..." <1754> // \{\m{B}} "Silly, nothing of the sort..." <1755> // \{\m{B}} "It is you who must hold up more than anyone... everyone knows that..." <1756> // \{Nagisa} "Is that so..." <1757> // \{\m{B}} "There for... rest. You're not in any pain...?" <1758> // \{Nagisa} "No..." <1759> // \{Nagisa} "But, I would like to talk a bit more with you, \m{B}-kun." <1760> // \{\m{B}} "Ah... understand. Only a little bit..." <1761> // \{Nagisa} "Okay..." <1762> // Nagisa looks up at the ceiling. <1763> // No beyond there... that is she was looking at the future. <1764> // \{Nagisa} "My current goal is to give birth to this child..." <1765> // \{\m{B}} "Yeah..." <1766> // \{Nagisa} "And..." <1767> // \{Nagisa} "This child, \m{B}-kun, and myself will all live as 3 people." <1768> // \{\m{B}} "........." <1769> // Tears form in her eyes. <1770> // If she were to shut her eyes, it would flood out. <1771> // Why, in such a future, it seems like such a dream... <1772> // Such is just an ordinary future... <1773> // Such is just a common future... <1774> // More than ordinary it should be... <1775> // Why isn't it more than common... <1776> // The road that Nagisa travels has always been full of difficulty... <1777> // Ordinary happiness... is further away than for most people. <1778> // ...far away over there it is. <1779> // Life... \p but only that much. <1780> // Unexpectedly Nagisa closed her eyes. <1781> // Her sleeping face is calm, although she is losing weight. <1782> // \{\m{B}} "Nagisa... therefore forever..." <1783> // Forever, \p holding hands. <1784> // Intense labor pains then start. <1785> // Nagisa's face is wrenched in agony, I ask Sanae-san what can be done. <1786> // Having confirmed the situation, Sanae-san faces me. <1787> // \{Sanae} "\m{B}-san, please" <1788> // \{\m{B}} "Understood." <1789> // That is the signal to make the call to the midwife Yagi-san. <1790> // I immediately contact her by phone, and went out into the rain to greet her. <1791> // Nagisa is still suffering when I return with Yagi-san. <1792> // I could do nothing but leave it to the two that are here. <1793> // \{Yagi} "Furukawa-san, could you put some hot water on the baby bus?" <1794> // Yagi-san ordered Pops. <1795> // \{Yagi} "\m{A}-san, please come here and support your wife." <1796> // That I had hoped for. <1797> // I am in the middle of the interior of the room, near the vicinity of Nagisa's knee. <1798> // \{\m{B}} "Umm..." <1799> // I call out to Yagi-san who is busily removed medical equipment from her bag. <1800> // \{\m{B}} "Is okay to hold her hand, right?" <1801> // \{Yagi} "Yes, of course. Please do that." <1802> // It is okay. <1803> // When ever Nagisa is suffering, I want to help rescue her from it. <1804> // I pull Nagisa's hand and toward me; she is desperately clenching the palm of her hand to bear the pain, and I open it with force. <1805> // And, in her sweaty palm, I place my hand. <1806> // Then, she strongly closed her hand like she had been desperately seeking it. <1807> // Our two fingers tightly intertwine leaving no gaps. <1808> // \{\m{B}} "Nagisa, I am here..." <1809> // Briefly Nagisa's eyes look at my face. <1810> // \{Nagisa} "........." <1811> // Although she couldn't say it, she nodded her head strongly. <1812> // \{\m{B}} "Hang in there..." <1813> // \{\m{B}} "Don't lose... in such a place as this..." <1814> // \{\m{B}} "Give birth safely..." <1815> // \{\m{B}} "Let's start, this new life with the three of us..." <1816> // \{Yagi} "Then let's begin" <1817> // \{\m{B}} "Yes" <1818> // \{\m{B}} "Please" <1819> // Nagisa's delivery has begun. <1820> // Many times Nagisa lost consciousness. <1821> // And the pain would bring her back again. <1822> // That cycle repeated over. <1823> // That cruel treatment makes me want to advert my eyes... <1824> // It is as if she is being tortured to death with no mercy. <1825> // To persist on, there is nothing. <1826> // However, continues to receive no resistance. <1827> // If things continue like this, Nagisa will die... <1828> // You're not dieing are you...? <1829> // Quickly... <1830> // Quickly end this...! <1831> // I keep shouting in my mind. <1832> // It's long... <1833> // And the last cycle has not come. <1834> // It seems like this will continue through eternity... <1835> // My five senses are lost, I am in darkness. <1836> // ah, why has it become this way... <1837> // Has my mind lost its endurance? ... <1838> // Or else, am I in despair...? <1839> // Has everything already come to an end?... <1840> // Suddenly my sight returns. <1841> // Before my eyes, something is on the bed. <1842> // ......... <1843> // ... I hear it. <1844> // ... a cry. <1845> // ... A baby's cry. <1846> // I finally understand, and look up with energy. <1847> // And, I stared at the reality. <1848> // The direction of that cry... the baby's bright red body rests on top of a towel. <1849> // For a moment I separate my hand from Nagisa's, and lift the baby off of the towel into my arms. <1850> // And, I clasp Nagisa's hand once again. <1851> // \{\m{B}} "Nagisa..." <1852> // Nagisa's eyes were closed. <1853> // A completely exhausted face... <1854> // \{\m{B}} "Nagisa..." <1855> // I call. <1856> // \{\m{B}} "Nagisa-..." <1857> // Tears begin to collect in my eyes... <1858> // ... and could fall any moment. <1859> // I squeeze her hand strongly. <1860> // \{\m{B}} "Nagisa!" <1861> // \{Nagisa} "...\m{B}-kun" <1862> // She barely opened her eyes. <1863> // Her vision must be blurry, she could not find my face. <1864> // \{\m{B}} "I'm here, Nagisa..." <1865> // I bought my face close. <1866> // Finally, she could see me. <1867> // "I... \p could do my best..." <1868> // \{\m{B}} "Ah. True... you did, Nagisa..." <1869> // \{\m{B}} "Listen, it's the cry of our child..." <1870> // \{Nagisa} "Yes..." <1871> // \{\m{B}} "Look, I'm the first to hold it..." <1872> // \{Nagisa} "Yes, cute..." <1873> // \{\m{B}} "Ah... because it's our child. Ushio." <1874> // \{Nagisa} "Shio-chan..." <1875> // \{\m{B}} "That wouldn't work, if it's not a girl..." <1876> // \{\m{B}} "Isn't that so, Sanae-san..." <1877> // \{\m{B}} "Look, after all it is... a girl..." <1878> // \{\m{B}} "It's an energetic girl..." <1879> // \{Nagisa} "That's good..." <1880> // \{\m{B}} "Yes, it's good... truly..." <1881> // \{Nagisa} "Yes..." <1882> // \{Nagisa} "........." <1883> // \{Nagisa} "But..." <1884> // \{Nagisa} "I'm really tired..." <1885> // \{\m{B}} "Y, yeah..." <1886> // \{Nagisa} "Therefore..." <1887> // \{Nagisa} "Please let me rest a bit..." <1888> // \{Nagisa} "........." <1889> // I become uneasy. <1890> // Particularly... because Nagisa's face is so pale. <1891> // \{\m{B}} "........." <1892> // The surroundings are noisy, with the sound of foot steps. <1893> // What should I do...? <1894> // Pop's harsh voice... even Sanae-san's panicked voice is heard. <1895> // I wish they were all quiet. <1896> // Because I want to talk calmly with Nagisa. <1897> // \{\m{B}} "Hey, Nagisa..." <1898> // \{\m{B}} "Wait just a moment, Nagisa..." <1899> // \{\m{B}} "I want to talk just a bit more..." <1900> // \{\m{B}} "If you just listen, it's okay..." <1901> // \{Nagisa} "Yes..." <1902> // \{Nagisa} "........." <1903> // \{\m{B}} "Look, it's our child..." <1904> // \{\m{B}} "Your and my child..." <1905> // \{\m{B}} "Its face looks like a monkey..." <1906> // \{\m{B}} "Just a little one..." <1907> // \{\m{B}} "I'll call out its name..." <1908> // \{\m{B}} "Ushio..." <1909> // \{\m{B}} "I'm your Papa, Ushio..." <1910> // \{\m{B}} "This is your mama..." <1911> // \{\m{B}} "Haha... I'm ignored." <1912> // \{\m{B}} "Hey, understand it's simple..." <1913> // \{Nagisa} "........." <1914> // Nagisa couldn't speak. <1915> // But it's okay, because she was holding my hand. <1916> // So as not to part.. strongly, strongly. <1917> // \{\m{B}} "This child's growth into adulthood, surely, will only take a blink of time..." <1918> // \{\m{B}} "Quickly it will be big... and start kindergarten..." <1919> // \{\m{B}} "You and I will accompany her to the kindergarten entrance ceremony.... surely that will be a very humorous thing." <1920> // \{\m{B}} "We're still like children ourselves, accompanied by children..." <1921> // \{\m{B}} "Amusing isn't it, surely..." <1922> // Nagisa also smiles. <1923> // \{\m{B}} "Going to elementary school, Parent's day at school, athletic meets... doing things as a family..." <1924> // \{\m{B}} "And all of this wonderful sight seeing..." <1925> // \{\m{B}} "We... might be really funny..." <1926> // \{\m{B}} "Such things like that, I'll become the biggest fool..." <1927> // A rigorous nod. <1928> // \{\m{B}} "But you know, you..." <1929> // \{\m{B}} "Because this poor girl was forced to listen only to 'Dango Daikazoku' while in your stomach..." <1930> // \{\m{B}} "I worried she will have the same tastes as you..." <1931> // \{\m{B}} "It would be nice if it didn't only resemble Nagisa's cute parts..." <1932> // \{\m{B}} "It's okay even if she is also a bit of a crybaby..." <1933> // \{\m{B}} "To keep on going in the moment" <1934> // \{\m{B}} "Such a child would be good..." <1935> // \{\m{B}} "It's okay even if she's clumsy..." <1936> // \{\m{B}} "If it is considerate..." <1937> // \{\m{B}} "She can live with all her might for other people..." <1938> // \{\m{B}} "Such the way that you... are like..." <1939> // \{\m{B}} "Becoming like that..." <1940> // \{\m{B}} "would be good..." <1941> // ...my vision becomes blurry. <1942> // Suddenly my eyes fill with tears. <1943> // And, I am not able to stop them from flowing out. <1944> // What is with this uneasiness. This pain in my chest. <1945> // I only thought I wanted to talk calmly with Nagisa... <1946> // \{\m{B}} "Hey, Nagisa..." <1947> // However already... there was no return. <1948> // \{\m{B}} "........." <1949> // I didn't feel the strength of Nagisa's hand. <1950> // \{\m{B}} "Nagisa... Nagisa...!" <1951> // I desperately grip her hand. <1952> // \{\m{B}} "Nagisa..." <1953> // \{\m{B}} "Don't go, anywhere..." <1954> // I said in a crying voice. <1955> // \{\m{B}} "Forever, to be by my side... haven't I said that..." <1956> // \{\m{B}} "That is... the dream that I have found..." <1957> // \{\m{B}} "If you leave, there will be nothing good left..." <1958> // \{\m{B}} "It would be a horribly boring life..." <1959> // \{\m{B}} "Because the one who thought he finally found his dream..." <1960> // \{\m{B}} "Because assuredly living is hope..." <1961> // \{\m{B}} "Hey, Nagisa..." <1962> // \{\m{B}} "Nagisa-..." <1963> // I keep calling her name. <1964> // ...forever, \p forever. <1965> // Inside of a radiant light. <1966> // My eyes have not adjusted to it, because up until now I was in darkness. <1967> // Before long, the radiant becomes dim, the backgrounds fall into shadows. <1968> // There is that place. <1969> // On the slope below the school gate. <1970> // She is there again. <1971> // Quietly, I look up at the school gate which was so far away. <1972> // I hesitated to call out to her. <1973> // Why, I don't know... <1974> // What are you thinking. She for a moment looked down and sighed. <1975> // Slowly, time passes. <1976> // She... turns around with her back to the school gate. <1977> // She sees me. <1978> // And, she begins to walk away. <1979> // She passes beside me like I am an unacquainted person. <1980> // ... if you don't call out. <1981> // but... <1982> // Should I do so?... <1983> // Having that meeting with me... <1984> // As it was, walking on a separate path, wasn't that good? <1985> // However... <1986> // I... <1987> // ... I... <1988> // "... Nagisa!" <1989> // That name I called out. <1990> // "I am here!" <1991> // "........." <1992> // Nagisa once again turns around. <1993> // She looks at my face. <1994> // "... thank goodness." <1995> // "It isn't possible to ignore your voice" <1996> // "Is that so..." <1997> // "By some chance, \m{B}-kun... if you had not met with me..." <1998> // "I can't imagine such a thing..." <1999> // "It would be terribly uneasy..." <2000> // "........." <2001> // "But, I was able to meet with \m{B}-kun." <2002> // "And it is completely happy." <2003> // "Is that so..." <2004> // "Therefore, somehow..." <2005> // "Please, don't hesitate anymore." <2006> // "From here on, what are you waiting for..." <2007> // "Please never regret that you were able to meet me." <2008> // "Always... forever, please live strongly." <2009> // "........." <2010> // "Is it not good?..." <2011> // "........." <2012> // "No..." <2013> // "I understand..." <2014> // "I don't regret it..." <2015> // "It was necessary to meet with you, so I have confidence... to keep living." <2016> // "Longley, keep living." <2017> // "Is that so...?" <2018> // "Thank you very much." <2019> // A grin and a smile. <2020> // "Then, let's go." <2021> // "Yes." <2022> // In to the future, day after day there after... <2023> // "I'd also like \m{B}-kun to come to like 'Dango Daikazoku'." <2024> // "Is that so, I'll think about it." <2025> // "Yes."
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